Does it hurt to think sometimes?

Sometimes my mind goes haywire. I try to meditate and I get heavy waves of anxiety. I know I need to do more meditation but don't always feel up to it. I know that I need to usey time and not let my time use me. Blogging has given me some inspiration. Maybe I will blog about meditation and see where it goes. 

Does your think go haywire more than you went. Sometimes mine does and I have to push through and learn to deal with it. I have done some guided meditations on YouTube. They help sometimes but it seems to make me sleepy. I don't want to get sleepy throughout the day. 

I read my Bible sometimes and it seems to help. I know God needs to give me new thinking some days and I really look forward to it. 

Sorry I couldn't be of more help but these are some of the techniques I use. 

Is it OK to be miserable?

Is it OK to be miserable? Some days I don't feel like doing anything. But I need money. Would you rather sit in misery the whole time or do anything it takes toake some money to not be miserable. 

Some days I just feel out of it and I know I need to make some money online. Right now I have a little computer an Asus and its almost full on memory. I also have my phone which I'm blogging on right now. I know making money online is my only way to make it out of the misery I'm in. I know I have to get up and make money. I know it takes time with blogging. But I think I can make it. I know I just have to keep blogging and writing and telling my story. 

A time machine.

I wish I had a time machine. I would go back in time and do it all over again. I wouldn't have gone out and play football that day when I tore some ligaments in my knee. I wouldn't have deleted all my bank statements and made my account dissappear. I wish I could do it all over again. I would have started and kept the same blog I had when I was little. I wish I would have blogged everyday and made my blog look good. 

But unfortunately I can't turn back time. I'd be rich by now and living a good life. 

I wish I would have stayed in school and got my diploma. I wish I would have tooken school more seriously. I wish I would have done it better. 

I looked for a time machine in Google and they don't seem to have one, I also checked on Amazon and they don't have one either. All they have is a book Time Machine by Hg Wells. I dont think it will help but maybe I will read it anyways. 

Denver Colorado

So I am looking at videos of Denver Colorado and I really want to blog my way out of this mess and get back out there. I love Denver and I like doing yoga and walking the streets and having a beer and watching the Nuggets play. There's nothing like it. I still don't know how I am going to make money with this blog. I have been looking at blogger templates. Do you use Blogger to blog and how do you like it. I really want to make a great blog.

My mom lives in Denver right now and works full time. I don't really want to get a job I really want to make it online. Do you have any hints on how to make it online? I went to school in Denver but it shut down. I should have gotten my degree but didn't. 

I love playing basketball in Denver and hooping outside with my dog by my side. 

I love to hike and trail walk. I really need to make some money online and get back out there. I tried selling websites online and made around 35k in leads but I only cashed one lead and I didn't know how to build a good website. I used Sqaurespace and it was alot harder than I thought to make a decent website. Right now I blogging on my phone. I would love to say I made it out of debt just using my phone. I blogged my way to freedom just using my phone.

To touch on what I said earlier I made around 35k in leads through Craigslist posting and I only cashed 5k and I didn't complete the website and now I owe someone over the internet 5k. I still want to build his website. I ended up going to Florida. St. Pete's Florida and staying in hotels. I saw one of the hottest girls I have ever seen before and went to talk to her and she just got up and walked away. Lol........ 

Have you ever did Bikram Yoga. I fell in love with it. I feel great right after a yoga practice and uses to go between one and two times per day. I met some really awesome people at yoga and want to get back into it. 

The snow ball effect.

Now. Is the time to get your blog rolling downhill. I know I need to get my blog rolling.

I haven't been blogging as much as I need to but what better time to start than now. 

Putting sentences together can be quite the ordeal. I want to blog around fifteen pages per day. I think I will leave my blog on and keep writing via my computer. 

My quest to be a better writer.

Right now I am just freestyle writing about to watch a game of basketball. The Golden State Warriors play the Indiana Pacers. I hope it turns out to be a good game.

What do you like to write about. I know I supposed to find a niche. But I am just not interested. I have yet to find a niche. Do you have a niche you like to write about and do you do keyword research?

I need to start reading more, I have Amazon Prime and have a chance to read some free ebooks. There are some pretty good ebooks out there and I think I will start on one tonight. What good ebooks have you read, tell me in the comment section below. I think I will start on a book called Affiliate Marketing in 2020.

Will go for now... 

So I am starting a new blog post.

 So I dont know what to write about but here goes nothing.

I just got done watching Rick Ross Tiny desk concert by NPR.

Take a look.

Its pretty bad ass.

Right now Armageddon is on tv but I don't feel like watching it that much.

Id rather type a blog post. I want to post a good post everyday but lately I have just been feeling tired and depressed. I have to get out of this mode i am in. I know that things suck with no money but instead of lying in trauma everyday I have to make a way out.

What are some ways that you work your way out. Do you ever just sit down and blog it out.

Maybe you just need to sit down and write it out everyday and get all that stress of your chest.

I need deep down i got something to say and maybe me talking about things could help people about and be beneficial. I know that i dont have much to talk about now but sooner than later i catch some inspiration.

What to blog about.

Have you studied keywords? And if so how do you do it? I have to outrank my competition. How do I even have competition and if so who are they? How do they outrank for my keywords? They want to rank for certain keywords? Why?.................

How do I know what keywords to rank for. Why does anyone want to read a blog about keywords that rank?

Is it supposed to be informative. What so special about keywords? I don't do any keyword research. All I do is blog about the most random crap I can think of.

What do keywords really do. I'm supposed to see what keywords are getting traffic and then try to blog about those keywords, inserting the keywords all throughout the post to make it rank. I don't get it. Maybe the spaces are empty and you need to rank for keywords are searching for related to your offline business. I get that. If they are looking for menu and then you might need to rank something for menu. I don't really a know. I will do more research. I will study keywords more. I don't even have a niche. All I do is post random blog posts. Maybe I need to target a niche. 

So what to blog about, any and everything.

 I don't know what to say here but i will ramble on. I know its harder to type on my laptop then too type on my phone because my phone autofixes my errors. It is quite nice.

How do i make this blog post explode with wealth? I want to move back to Colorado and blog full time and really get better at writing. I am just not that interested in things or have any know how on what I should write about.

I have been watching Blind Fury freestyle, its pretty tight you should watch some of his videos. I tried to freestyle but to no avail. I need practice, I wonder if writing or freestyling can take you places.

I hope this blog can take me places, it just seems like I don't have enough inspiration to write a big post. I had a discussion on what my heart or pulse rate should be, sometimes mine get up to 120. They say that is high. i have to get my temperature and pulse rate everyday. Because of Covid. It sucks sometimes i drink to much soda and they know because my pulse rate goes up.

What else is there to write about and what should i talk about? I know i need to blog more to get better at it. I want to build really long blog posts to see if Google ranks me in certain areas. I have not done any keyword research. Do you do keyword research and how do you do it. I have to get better at understanding Google better. Do you know how to use Google pretty well. I could use some coaching. I have been looking through all of Google apps and they have quite a few. 

I like looking through Google Play on my phone, it has so many games and is way cheaper than a PS5. Even though I want a PS5 i can wait as my phone has all the games i need.

How do i finish off this blog post with something interesting. I want to write fifteen pages a day but i just dont know what to talk about. Im watching Dan Cormier fight John Jones but i cant seem to find the whole fight. Dan Cormier came in undefeated and put on a show but John Jones was just too tough.

Right now i am listening to some Rhianna and Drake. Its ok. What do you listen too?

I might get on Rap Chat and make a song. Its pretty fun, i enjoy it. 

What else is going on. I had group today and got some stuff out of a box the lady brought in. 

God provides in mysterious ways. I got some soap and deodorant and toothpaste along with air fresheners. It came in handy as i need deodorant and toothpaste. I also could use the air freshener. 

I hope it snows today as i want to scoop and earn a little extra money. Lets go check the forecast.

It says it might snow tomorrow. Hopefully we get a couple inches so I can scoop. Its all the money i will have for the month. I need this blog to grow to see if I can get some traffic but who wants to listen to me ramblin on and on. I just went downstairs and watched some Scooby Doo. It was good they had to outwit a dragon that was ultimately a robot.

Were eating Lasagna tonight and hopefully it tastes pretty good.

I think I will go for now.

So I am going to rip another blog post.

How do people even write a blog post? From information they find online? I don't have a clue what to write about.

I have to quit smoking for basketball. I don't even know why I smoke at all. It's such an expensive and bad habit. 

Right now I am just watching TV. Tom and Jerry. They are coming out with a movie now, what a coincidence. I like Tom and Jerry it's an OK show. I am waiting for dinner and it's time to eat. 

I want to start reading more and sticking with it. My peer specialist wants me to read two hours per night but I just haven't been feeling up to it. My dad sent me a couple books and he also bought me Amazon Prime to start reading on Kindle. 

We are going to have Fish sandwiche and onion rings for dinner. I want to start going out to eat but I will have to start waiting for this Covid thing to blow over. 

That's all I really have for now. Will be back on later. Stay tuned.....

So what's going on now?

Have you been blogging lately and what is your blogs name? I have been trying to get this blog growing. I don't know what to blog.about. I was looking into trading. Does anyone out there trade?  I really want to earn some money online.

I don't know what else is really happening. I need to quit smoking. I have been trying since new years to quit. I want to quit because my parents have smoked there whole life and I want to be the difference maker. Have your parents smoked there whole life? Now is the time to quit.

I have been drinking more water lately and have been pretty good on slowing down on the soda. Every morning I drink a big glass of water. Right now I am watching First 48. It is on AE almost everyday. It keeps me busy. I can't believe how cruel one person can be to another.

Nothing else is really going on here. Im waiting for someone at board n lodge to bring a twelve pack of soda. Hopefully I can get two out of the case. 

What to blog about?

 So I don't know what to blog about but i better get to writing. Right now i have been chillen back and watching The First 48. Its a pretty good show and i like to watch it.

What are some of your favorite tv shows? The Lakers play tonight versus the Brooklyn Nets. I hope it will be a good game. I wouldn't mind seeing the Brooklyn Nets win it all.

So what else is going on. I need a motivation to keep going and making great blog posts. My dad got me Amazon Prime to watch some videos and i just got done watching Gemini Man with Will Smith. It was a pretty good movie, alot of actions scenes.

I have been blogging from my phone lately and the posts look way bigger on mobile than they do on desktop. Makes me rethink how long my posts need to be.

I cant really think what to blog about, i know i need to find a niche but all i can do is ramble on.

So I don't know what to put on this crazy blog.

I'm just listening to music and chillen out. I know I need to write more but I don't know what to say. I want to publish a ten pager and see if it ranks. I need more traffic. Have you just started your blog and how is it going? I am a new blogger and I don't know if I have any decent material that will rank.

There is alot of interesting TV shows in right now but I can't find anything to watch. There is basketball in tonight so I might watch that. I can't remember what teams are playing so let's look real quick. Houston Rockets at Philadelphia seventy sixers is the first game on ESPN. The second game is Miami Heat at the Golden State Warriors. They should.be some pretty good games. I hope so at least. 

What else is going on. Not much here just about to have a snack. I used to Party but I can't do it at this Board N Lodge. They are pretty stricked.  I don't know what else to do. I suppose I could beg my way back into my dad's place but I would like to make it out with my own money so I am able to travel around and go and see places. I really want to leave the country. I stole a car and I think it is a felony so I don't know if I can even leave the country. I have to look it up on Google. 

I really like visiting Florida and swimming in the ocean it was fun. I had a really good time.  

My dad has a new girlfriend so I hope that goes well for him. 

What else is there to talk about. The ufc has some pretty good fights coming up. That should be interesting. I want to go to Ufcs fights but I need to pull the money off this crazy blog and I don't know how long that will take. 

Here we go again.

So I am trying to create a decent blog post but I don't know what to talk about. I was watching Narco wars on tv and some of the cartels bring in around thirty billion per year. That's alot of money. I would love to have all that money. Money is scarce where I am right now and I have to wear alot of handme downs. It kinda sucks but at least my dad got me some boxers to wear. It sucked not having any underwear. I have some Avia shoes and they will suffice. I just took the dog for a walk and had on a stocking cap and a head cover mask. It's still pretty cold out here in Minnesota. The temp on the TV says minus eleven. So that is still pretty cold. 

I had to spend six months at a psychiatric hospital. There were quite a few kids my age and I never knew what was really going on. Luckily I had a bed to sleep on after my dad kicked me out of the house. I left my dog at my dad's house and I think he takes pretty good care of her. 

So what to blog about. I don't really know. I am thinking about putting ads on my site but I don't know what ad company I want to use. 

So what is there to blog about?

If I make this blog grow I wonder if I can incorporate more ideas into this blog. I want to start a sports company and showcase all of the courts of the world and places to play basketball at. 

I also wonder if I could do interviews and see what people have to say. I could interview almost anyone if I can grow this blog into a big website. I know I'm on my way. 

I can't really think about what to blog about so I just keep rambling on. One guy online said he could grow his blog to a hundred thousand per year doing it for only six hours per day. I have been reading more ans more articles online and studying up on what a blog can do and how to use it. There are so many books online about blogging its tough to get through them all. I need to read more and study harder. 

I know I need to buy a domain for this blog and make it look good on mobile. Right now I am watching First 48 on tv. There is just nothing else to watch. Lately I have been using Rapchat mobile app and making and recording my own little rap songs. It's pretty cool to use. Maybe I will post some of the videos on here. 

So I want to get things going.

Today I had group and had to talk about how my week went. I didnt do much it was too cold to walk the dog.

I mostly just talked about reading on Facebook and studying my books. I want to start reading more, maybe that will help me grow my blog. I watched the Super Bowl and watched Tom Brady toss the Lombardi Trophy in between boats. I don't know if you saw that. I might post a video later. I need to start to blog on my computer I just got. 

Other than that I haven't been doing much just hanging out. Lately I have been feeling tired and depressed. I need something to lift my spirits. I have been reading alot of blogs lately and they said you can make up to 25k per year on your first year of blogging. I would love to make some money blogging. Right now I have only made eight dollars through Google Adsense. That's not much you need about a hundred dollars to get a payout. I wonder if I should try a different ad network to make some money. I signed up for Amazon affiliates, it's free to sign up.

I don't want to fill up my blog with ads. I need it to grow more ans get more traffic. I don't think my blog is that interesting yet but I hope to add more interesting content. I really want to live in Denver Colorado and get married. I wish I had more money. 

I made a few drone sites. But I have yet to turn them on or buy a domain for them. One is Denver Drone Store. The sites already built all I need to do is get some money under my belt. I used to sell Drones on Amazon but I spent the money to early and didn't save any money for returns. Cookwear sells pretty well. 

So what else is going on. I need to set some time out to blog. Maybe six hours per day. I don't know if I can do that but the more I blog the easier it gets for me to write some longer posts. I really want to make some big posts. 

I have been talking to my parents lately and I try to talk to them at least twice a week. I have been such a bad kid from time to time and it kinda hurts to talk to them. I need to get my life together. It just seems like my mind doesn't work right. I need to focus on doing the right thing everyday. I need to cut back on smoking and drinking soda. I was once drinking twenty four cans per week which is way too much.

Let's see what else is going on. When I got on Facebook a while ago I was blocked by some kids I knew in high school. Dweebs. I don't know what else to say will close for now. 

So I got a bag of chocolate today.

So I got a bag of chocolate to eat today for Valentines day. I was hungry and I almost got to much chocolate. Have you ever eaten to much chocolate? I feel stuffed. 

Valentines day has been pretty boring and I took a nap earlier. There's not much to do in this small town. I suppose I could take a walk today and see how I feel. Sometimes a good walk is all you need. 

I have been studying some books lately and trying to learn about affiliate marketing. It's pretty interesting I hope I can earn some money from affiliate marketing. I know it takes time. There is quite a bit of material to read on Amazon. Suppose I will look through it more. 

Do you do affiliate marketing? Maybe you can teach me how. I really want to grow this blog but I don't know if it's interesting enough. I really don't know what to talk about.

So I'm blogging.

So I am growing my blog with nothing to say. But I suppose I will say something. I have been drinking more water lately because I ran out of money. No money means I can't buy anything lik soda to drink. Maybe it's a good thing. All is well over here at the board n lodge. I had pork and mashed patatoes today for dinner.

I have been watching quite of cartoons lately and what's on is Tom and Jerry. Tom just can't seem to catch that mouse. It's an OK cartoon. Wish I had more to say but my life is pretty boring. I am watching the cooking channel right now. It's called Biazzare foods. And the foods are pretty unique. 

I have been watching quite a bit of basketball lately. Tonight the Lakers play the. Nuggets but it's not on tv. Guess I will just have to watch through more phone. I won't be able to watch the game. Just be able to see the score. 

So what is there to talk about?

I want to make my blog grow into something special. But I don't know what. You think you can blog your way into Space? I would love to go to Mars. I wonder if we will have multiplanetary travel or habitation soon. Why don't we build a base on the moon. You think we can blog to the moon? I have been around the country and seen some pretty cool places. I enjoy walking through different cities. But it's hard to do with no money. I have to earn some money somehow. I don't think many people want to read my blog as there isn't much good info in it.

I need to quit smoking and get healthy. I have also been drinking to many sodas. I want to blog for at least six hours per day and really get something out there for the world to read. Right now I am watching Tom and Jerry on television. I got to watch some of the Ufcs events on Mmashare. It's a site that uploads videos for people to watch. I wonder if I can blog my way out of poverty using my phone. Lately I have become disinterested in amything. I take pills for it like Zoloft and CAPLYTA. I haven't noticed any side effects but I really don't feel like doing anything. 

How do you make a blog grow and make something people want to read. I don't really know ans I am still trying to figure that out. There has been some pretty good basketball on tv lately and I have been laying down watching it. 

Just watching videos.

Blogging from my phone and listening to music. Maybe I should use my laptop. The phone automatically fixes my spelling errors. 

I like listening to Nas and writing my own music. There is much to write about I have been staying inside lately due to Covid. I can't really go nowhere since I don't have any money. Been talking to my dad and mom on the phone. I hate asking them for money. I really need to break free with money but I don't have any informative to write about. 

Who wants to read a blog about nothing. 

The Golden State Warriors play the Brooklyn Nets tonight so that will be something to watch. 

Right now I am just watching First 48.  That usually plays all day on AE network. AE has some pretty cool shows to watch and I really like the channel. IOWA Hawkeyes are playing right now also. Do you have a growing blog I would like to see it and study it.. Do you have much traffic and where is it coming from. Do you have some pretty awesome posts. 

Blogging

I'm having trouble starting my blog and keeping it going. I don't know what to write about. I would like to travel some places and take it easy but with nothing to blog about I don't know what to do. 

What countrys have you been to and where have you traveled. I wish I could provide more insight into how the web works but I just can't seem to come up with anything.

I want to go back to Florida and stay by the ocean but I don't have the money.

So I am watching Blade on tv right now

 Have you ever seen Blade, its on Syfy right now and its a pretty cool show.

He kills vampires and it stars Wesley Snipes.

There have been some pretty good movies on tv lately.

I watched Forest Gump the other day and Taken 2. 

Those are pretty good movies.

What else is going on? I have been just hanging out lately and reading blogs or websites full of insight.

Do you read through blogs? I enjoy it and want to learn more about SEO. 

Do you study seo?

 I barely even know what its about. But I do know that web pages are just words, photos and videos on a page. Whats there to know? 

So what else is going on, my dog is getting up there in age and i want to see her again.

I really miss her. I loved having her around.

We used to take long walks and play games with each other. 

She used to chase me around the park when i tried to hide from her.

She is missed. She is at my dads right now because i cant take care of her where i'm at.

So what to blog about and what should we say.

 I don't really know what to blog about but so here it goes. I have been reading about niche sites lately and have been studying up on them. I want to get good at blogging and building niche sites to make some extra cash.

Have you ever built a niche site and if so how did it go?

There are quite a few sites out there talking about it.

I have been building this blog but i don't know what to do to keep your interest. I want to spark some debate and get things going but i have yet to figure out where I am going with this blog.

I have been watching some webinars but have yet to find a good one. I had some old marketers i listened to in the past but i cant find them anywhere online they had some really good insight on how to market online. I owe some people some money and i lost my Spaceman Mobile account and have yet to get in contact with them.I owe one guy $5,000 and another $750. I don't know how i am going to pay them back yet as i need to get this blog going. I made the money on Craigslist. I wish i could go back in time and redo how i spent the money and use the money differently. I wish i would have spent the money differently. I would have bought myself a good computer room. Instead i went to Florida and stayed in Hotels. I had a good time but the money didn't stretch that far and i barely did anything.

Florida  was fun but it was only fun while it lasted and i spent the money to quick. I have to make some new sites and get something done. I am not that good at making sites but i will try my best to get better.

Whats up.

What's going on? Anything worth talking about online? I don't know really what to say I am just hanging out at the Board and Lodge. I just checked my Adsense account and I have eight dollars in there. I hope to install adsense to this account and hopefully make some extra cash. I was looking at click bank but I don't know what to sell. I don't know if it's a good way to go or not. I also looked at Amazon affiliates and maybe I could sell from there. I want to be the best blogger I can be and.not start over and not delete my blog.

Lately I have been deleting my blogs and I don't know what for. I need to keep up with my blog and keep it going. I just get frustrated and I don't need to be. I want to build a blog that someone wants to read and can help people through their bad moments in time. I need to write more and I desperately want to be a good writer. 

Writing is fun if you get the hang of it. Writing everyday can build stamina. I just have to deal with the inhibition of not wanting to do anything. I just don't feel like doing anything some days and I just feel depressed. I take medications for my depression but they don't seem to help. I take Zoloft. And it doesn't do anything for me. I need to make my life better and get a hold of my life and become what I want to be. I have dreams and passions. I would like to earn a full time income through my blog and travel. I have never really been anywhere. 

What is there to blog about.

So I started my own mobile app company and the company I was using to build mobile apps disappeared. Now I don't have a mobile app company to build my mobile apps.

I like mobile apps do you? The game mobile apps cost more money and can range anywhere from twenty thousand to a hundred thousand dollars. You'd think more people would buy but I didn't make that much money at it. Nobody was buying. 

Lets see what else is there to talk about. I have been WATCHING NBA  basketball lately and I hope the Lakers win it all again. I would like to see LeBron James win five titles.

Wouldnt that be cool to see. 

So I checked my Adsense money and I have made eight dollars and so much cents. Not very much but it's a start. Have you ever made any money with Adsense? Do you think you can make a full time income with Google Adsense? It might be kinda tough but I'm sure there is a way.

Right now I am just writing random blog posts until something sparks my interest and I want to blog about it. 

A while back I went to Florida and saw some beautiful woman. To bad I couldn't stay there long. Florida is a pretty cool place but there seemed to be some sharks in the water so I didn't swim long.  There didn't seem to be that many people swimming at all and so I stayed mostly out of the water. 

You think the blogger app can make any money. Do people open Blogger and make an income. I still don't know how they do it. I would like to make a life for myself blogging. Maybe this will work out for me. I like blogging I just don't know what to talk about. 

Lately I have been looking for good marketing webinars. I found some good ones a while back and now I can't find them. I want to watch them again and learn more about online marketing. 

So I'm blogging.

So I'm blogging and I don't know what to blog about. Do you have anything to talk about? I have been struggling to write posts and stay busy. I know there are things to.bloh about I just can't think of anything.

Right now I am just watching the first 48. I know that it isn't the most good show to watch but I like watching homicide investigations. 

What to blog about. I don't really know.

Can I grow this blog into something nice? I don't know. I want to learn how to code and maybe I can code something into this. I just got done eating dinner and I had fish patty and patatoes. Sounds good right. It wasn't that bad.

I went to library today to see if I could add Adsense but it didn't work. I was thinking of adding ads to see if I could make a little money with clicks but I might have to find a different ad company. I don't have a big blog yet but I am working at it and I want to grow this thing so dang bad. I want to figure out a good site. Do you have a good blogger blog to show off. I want to see it.

I am just watching the news and the covid virus still seems as dangerous as ever. I hope I don't get it. 

Have you ever looked at the Aba live? It's the American Basketball Association and it's pretty cool. I tried out for it but did not make the team. I really wanted to make the team but couldn't find a way.

I have been looking at Noel Patels site and he has alot of good information to look through. I think I have to make longer blog posts. Maybe a fifteen pager everyday to really get some traffic. I really need to grow this blog I really need the money. 

I have been drinking diet Shasta and I need to quit drinking soda. I will try to go sober tomorrow. Hopefully this blog will hold me to it. I need to better myself and I want to quit smoking as well. Smoking is so bad for you. I have been smoking black and milds. 

Have you looked through the app market and tried some of the games. There are some pretty awesome games out there. I have played Antarctica 88 and Death Park. Both are really cool games. I have been playing them quite frequently. There are so many games out there it's unbelievable.