What's going on now?

So I know I need to post more but I don't have any ideas on what to talk about. I wonder if you can rich just by taping on your phone keyboard.

Can you blow up blogging and I wonder if people work eight hours a day on thier phone and make it out of the Maze their in. 

How are you today?

I'm just out here playing basketball. Trying to get warmed up. Nothing else is really going on, I have to walk the dog in a half an hour.

I want to get in shape and see how good I can get. I have been in shape before but I got lazy, it just seemed once I got to old for pro leagues I don't want to play anymore. In high school I started football and basketball. This was in a 5A school. I was pretty good but I blew out my knee playing pickup tackle football. Then I decided to go to homeschool. Homeschool was OK and I got my diploma but it wasnt like getting your diploma from a big high school. I wish I would have stayed in school. I went to a Christian school before that and dropped out when I was in seventh grade. I don't know what to do about it now. The school made us money and they taught us how to make money. The mistakes really add up. I don't know what to do about it now.

So I think I am done playing basketball until later and will probably cut this short for now.

Bye..... 

How am I going to find a niche?

I have no niche ideas. I just ramble on. I know that it isn't the best way forward but I hate thinking about Seo, conversion rates and any other stupid ideas that a basic page and photos and videos are really something that matters.

I'm so sick of Facebook and I have the stupidest feed. My family which is totally Christian so that I cannot post anything edgy.

I'm also getting sick of Instagram.

I just feel like people don't want to be a round me and I need to create a blog that makes money. Or maybe I should just post in Craigslist and see if that makes any money.

I could also study Amazon but I don't know what to do about that. I have opened a Amazon affiliate account. But I have yet to make any money with that. There multiple ways to make money through Amazon like Kindle and selling products. Some people are good at that but not me. I couldn't figure anything out even if I tried.

Maybe I will try it out and see if I can talk about it on here when I going with it. I just don't know.

Right now I am watching the Washington Wizards play the LOS Angeles Lakers. The Lakers are down.

I have sent out hundreds of questions asking people how do I make money online and I never get a good response. I rarely get my questions answered. I try to post in the comment section under blog posts and I post under YouTube videos but I really don't have that much of a response. I thought that maybe if I commented enough people would check me out and some of the music I post on my channel. I don't really feel like making any music tonight and my raps aren't really that good.

I think I will go for now and watch the game.

See ya..... 

How do I make sense out of blogging.

Have you ever put up a niche site? I wonder if you can rank a post for a certain category and make some money from it.

I really want to rank a post that makes some good money. I've been watching Niel Patel talk about blogging and Seo and conversions which I know nothing about, but I'm learning. I really want to get good at writing and making awesome posts.

I think I'm gonna go take a shower right now I will be back in a bit.

So I'm back and I took a quick shower. Nothings really going on around here and I don't really know what to blog about.

Their should be some good NBA games on tonight and I will watch them. I usually go to bed around nine or ten. It seems like I have more energy at night then I do throughout the day.

I have been listening to Action Bronson on YouTube and he is pretty good artist. I had never heard him before and now I listen to him quite often. There is also a blind rapper that does live YouTube events named Blind Fury. He has won quite a bit of rap battles. 

So what now.

I wonder if I will ever make any money blogging and I don't know what to do.

I've been watching videos on YouTube but I just can't find the inspiration to blog and make awesome content. I wonder how people know how to make awesome content and what they study. Do they just look at other blogs and then get ideas and then just start writing on thier blog?

I can't believe how many books thier are on Kindle about blogging and how these people are making all this money blogging.

I bought a twelve pack of Shasta cola for five bucks and now I am drinking on that. I sold two for one dollar. I figure they are about forty cents per can.

I know I'm not supposed to drink that many soda but I will probably have some left for tomorrow.

I wonder how people get millions of dollars to buy homes in California. I would love to put up a couple niche websites that make me that kind of money. 

I have sent ideas to investors to see if they would send me money to build my sites and grow them.

Right now I am watching Stephen Kings Cujo on tv, it's in the Sundance channel and it's an OK flick.

There is not much in TV right now, I know Court Cam is coming on in a little while but their is also another Stephen King movie coming on called Silver bullet.

I really want to go back to Florida and walk the beaches listening to reggae music and seeing the different hotels and grabbing a beer and going swimming. If I could just make ten thousand per month I would be able to travel thier as much as I want. I have a few e-commerce sites I want to buy domains for and that could make some money. Also I could get on Amazon and sell that might work. The thing about blogging though is I don't have to worry about shipping orders and making clients happy and dealing with refunds and storing the products I sell into a safe place. Blogging is just writing on how I think and feel. 

I pray someday all day but I don't know how to go Christian. I just can't break free into God's serenity.

I have classes every Monday and we have to talk about what we do all week. And for goodness sakes I can't seem to remember. All I do is write and click around online like the Instagram app and Facebook. I walk the dog twice a day and I get out and get some fresh air. They don't have nowhere to eat around her except one bar and grill, a grocery store and a gas station. I have been buying so many snacks and I don't want to sit here detorating in front of people. It's just not that healthy eating at a gas station everyday buying cigars and coffee and soda. It's just some days I get such a urge to smoke and drink some caffeine.

I'm having lunch here Ina bit and we're having corn dogs, patatoe oles and fruit cups. I'm OK with that. I like corn dogs and patatoe oles they are good.

I know I need to practice more self control and start running. The place I'm moving to have a basketball court, a pool, and treadmills and free weights. I would like to make some money here to pay for my membership. They offer a free seven day trial and then I don't know the price after that, I will have to call them here in a bit to see how much it is. I need money so bad some days it hurts. It sucks not having any money. I think they have a free basketball indoor gym but I will have to call and see. I will probably be playing basketball all day if they do.

I have been trying to listen to more Christian music to help with my depression and tiredness. I just don't feel like doing anything throughout the day. I know my parents are at work and it drives me nuts I don't work as hard as them or even the staff here where they are in the kitchen all day cooking and cleaning and typing in the computer.

My mom works in Downtown Denver in a big building. My dad lives Ina town in Iowa and worked at the railroad. I think he made pretty good money doing it but I didn't want to work their. I can barely hold a job and I just get so deppressed everyday and it just seems like I don't have much energy. I wish they would legalize cannibus and let people smoke. I get energy when I smoke little bits of cannibus, I clean I like going to the gym, I like taking walks and I live seeing what's going on around Denver. It's so much fun it's unbeleveble. They have gyms all over Denver Colorado and some just sit empty. All I do is life and play basketball all day and I get to chill and watching sports. One gym Lifetime fitness in Denver has huge gyms and weight room and yoga and pilates. They also have a huge swimming pool, indoor and outdoor, and water slide and hot tub. And there's barely anyone there. I love when it just sits empty and I can walk around doing what I want. I think it's only fifty or sixty dollars. They also have an organic Cafe where can sit and chill. The only thing that's sucks is Noone one want to hang out and lift with me. I just take some creatine and life and run all by myself. I do have one friend that hangs with me and I enjoy hanging out with him. I can't get my mom and dad to hang out with me and try to get in shape with me. My dad just won't do it and he recently broke his leg. Which is too bad. My mom still smokes but she is trying to lose weight on a special diet. 

It's almost time to eat here. We eat at eleven thirty and we wait in line to get our food. They usually make some pretty good food and it's nice having someone to make me dinner everyday.

I wonder how long I have to blog for, for Google to rank one of my posts. I don't even know what niche you would rank a post like this in. I once wrote a posts bout auto dealership marketing with Qr codes and text marketing, mobile websites and Bluetooth. The post got over a thousand views. I know you only need one good post to rank and you can make cash off of it. I just don't know what type of post I should write to get plenty of views.

Well it's dinner time so I will go. 

How are you doing today?

I don't really know what to say now.

Just staying out of trouble. I went to church today and drank some coffee and had a few donust before hand. I need to quit drinking coffee. I want to get healthy and start running more. I hope that gives me some inspiration.

I texted my dad and mom yesterday and they didn't really have much to say. My mom was just hanging out and my dad was working on his car. I really wish that I can make it on my own with blogging. I just don't know what to blog about everyday.

I watched the ufc prelims last night and there were some pretty good fights. There are plenty of sports today like the Brooklyn Nets vs. the Phoenix Sun's, should be a pretty good game.

I'm going to be moving in the next two months and I will be moving to a slightly larger town. It's should be OK, I will have more places to walk to. They have a couple gas stations, a twenty four hour gym, a coffee shop and a larger grocery store.

There are also some decent basketball courts for me to play on. Maybe I can take some creatine and lift and play basketball. 

I still have some motivation to play basketball and lift. I hope all goes well and I get plenty of time in at the gym.

What's going on now?

So I don't know what to talk about and I don't know where I am going with this blog.

The UFC is on tonight and I can't wait to watch, three title belts on the line.

I rembet traveling to Florida and going to watch UFC events at the bar. Florida is so much fun and I want to go back. Maybe I will be able to go sometimes soon.

I remember going to Hooters and getting some wings and a pitcher of beer. That was super fun.

So I don't know what to write about but will keep going. I just had a smoke and a soda and I'm thinking I need to quit.

There's really not much happening here. I'm bout to eat here in about twenty minutes.

I really want to grow this blog and make something happen with it.

I have been thinking about writing some kindle ebooks and see if I can make some money from that. An extra two or three hundred a month would be ideal.

Sometimes I feel like everyone is stealing my stuff. I don't know what to do with it. I don't know how to get people to quit stealing my stuff. It seems like every time I buy some new shorts my clothes go missing. It sucks having to buy new clothes every month.

I wonder how people get such expensive homes, how can they just buy a five hundred thousand dollar house. They must be way smarter than me. I laugh they have such good jobs they can buy an expensive home. What job pays that type of money? I would love to spend two million on a home. But I don't know how I will get the money.

I like taking the light rail around Denver and see the city. It never gets old and love to do it daily. I wonder if I can make a hundred thousand a year from my blog.

When I went to Florida it felt like people from Iowa were following me. It sucks so bad that people won't leave me alone. 

So what to blog about.

I know this blog isn't taking me around the world. I laugh God doesn't give me anything to write about. While other people are pumping out big Ole blog posts.

I don't really know what to think. I would life to experiment with some inspirational posts but I just don't know what to say. I guess I will have to go to God on this one.

I have been searching around the web but have not found anything interesting to talk about. 

Watching the George Floyd murder trial.

So should have he died? I don't know, he wanted to fight with the cops. I am watching the trial now. I don't think he should have died, I don't want anybody putting their knee in my kneck. The cops are really killing people. It's a dangerous world we live in. It's just not that safe.

I like to walk the country and see what's going on. I know people don't want to be bothered but it would be cool to see what famous people are doing. It be cool to go see what athletes are doing. It would be cool to go to court hearings and go to different malls and see what's happening.

I don't have much money now and I wonder when my blog will break free with some cash. I want to travel so bad some days and go out on the town after a full day of basketball and yoga. I live doing hot yoga. I've been to so many classes.

I would love to leave the country and travel to other countries and go to beautiful beaches. I would love to do that. I have been to Jamaica once for seven days and it was a blast. All I did was drink and smoke some weed. I kinda wish I would have been sober for the whole event. They had Cuban cigars there but I didn't buy any. 

I hate waking up in the morning.

It just seems like it takes me forever to get going in the morning. I feel so uncomfortable. I can't seem to get to sleep until midnight and then I wake up around eight. When I wake up I feel terrible and I feel like I'm stuck in a cage. I just feel bad waking up in the same place everyday with no understanding of how to make money. I just don't know what to do with myself.

The UFC is on tonight and I will probably stay up late watching that. There's also basketball on tonight I can't wait to watch that.

I don't know what to talk about, I just can't think of anything interesting.

Were having chicken sandwiches tonight and wild rice, I like having hit sauce with that.

I wonder if the government will start letting commercial space companies out more. Why can't we have fifty companies trying to get us to space? 

How do people get enough money for rent?

It's two thousand dollars for an apartment in Los Angeles. How the heck and I going to pay for something like that with just ten bucks per hour. How do people afford million dollar homes? I can't find nothing in Craigslist that would pay me that much.

I live walking by huge homes and looking at people having the good life.

I was thinking about selling drones and seeing if I could make some money.

I have a few drone sites and I have a site drone media one. I don't know if drone news will take off but I do have a lot of cool videos up of people flying drones.

I don't know how else to make some money other than blogging or putting up some e-commerce websites. I also have a web agency. So maybe that will be enough.

I hope blogging is going to work out for me. I was thinking of getting on Facebook again and trying to build a following but I just don't like how Facebook makes me feel. It makes me feel so shitty someday and I don't have that great of feed. I hate some of the posts that people make. I wonder how to build an awesome feed. 

Creating a side hustle.

I thought getting online and getting a side hustle would be a good idea.

Buy was in wrong.

I spent ten years online and didn't even know what I was doing.

You know how hard it is to make a decent website, it takes forever.

Me and my family would be way better off if I had a normal day to day job.

Least you won't have the overwhelming feeling that you are getting online and people are dying in your family because you got online. When your going to their funeral you won't think did they die because I got online? There's nothing like having a job feeling good about a hard day's work. Least if someone dies you won't think it's because your hardcore job that gives you a good night's rest at night.

Have you ever worked at home or worked from home? It sucks being home all day drinking coffee. You don't have the comrade of being around people. It's fun to be around people and get out and talk to people. I used to have the shittiet job doing concrete, and while I hated it and they hated seeing me everyday I learned the value of hardwork.

Sometimes it not that easy to translate the hard work ethic into something else but it does work. I used to stay up all night and all day drinking coffee trying to put my side hustle together. I didn't know what the hell I was getting into. If I stayed doing concrete they might have built me a home, I know it would only take a week. I finally put my website and my company online and I started working in getting sales. I used to send out emails and cold call all day long and while I made a few thousand per month. I didn't know how much to charge. I would have all these accounts making two hundred bucks a month on autopilot. I thought charging a little more than what I was paying to handle the clients account. So if I was paying six dollars per month I was charging fifteen dollars per month. If I was paying twenty dollars per month for a website, getting hosting I would charge fifty dollars per month. This does not work. Need to up the price to a thousand bucks per month. It's just to hard to handle and maintain the account for too cheap. I had to check on the websites all the time making sure they worked and there were no glitches. Plus at the end of the month I had to have the companies I was using to build the sites debit the money out of my account and this left me just a little money left over. I had to make sure everyrhing debited all right at the end of each month. This sucked. I was living off nothing per month making sure everyday that everything was working properly.

If I had to start a side hustle again I would just blog. You don't have to mange anything and you can make money while doing nothing. Just a good passive income. If you need motivation hit up some pro bloggers online and watch webinars. You can make it happen. 

Just got done eating.

Just had some lasagna, corn, and choclate cake and milk. They always give us a decent portion to eat. I don't even know why I keep this blog going, I just don't know what to write about.

I'm listening to music and hanging out sipping a soda. Still trying to make it blogging. I don't know what to talk about.

I'm moving out of the place I'm at in the next few month, Im moving to a slightly bigger town and this will give me more places to walk to and hang out. They have a Caribou coffee. I think I will be able to sit and watch TV while having a coffee. I hope they don't keep us to tied down. I don't know what else to do and I don't know where else to go.

I'm watching First forty eight again in TV. It's on all day again. Not much happening here.

I want to move to Miami Florida kinda. There are a ton of pretty girls there and maybe I can get married if I get some money coming in. 

What's going on now?

I have no money and I'm borrowing money from one of my roommates. Isn't that sad. I don't know what to do about money and I don't know what to do about feeling deppressed. I don't know what to do about feeling down ans out. I was thinking of working on one of my other blogs. It's about marketing even though I don't know how to do Seo, I still sell it. I don't know if it will grow very well but I still try to build an online business. Have you ever built a online business by blogging? I have never did it before. I have been online for almost ten years and have made a little scratch out of it. I don't really know how it works I just thought of the idea after reading a book that inspired me to build my own business online and make it look giant. I wonder how many shitty companies are online and barely get the job done.

How long have you been online and trying to make an online income? I laugh I have to get offline because I feel uneasy about people knowing who I am. But this blog is fairly private. I don't think people really know who I am. Getting online keeps me busy instead of walking the city streets and going nowhere giving up my dreams of being a pro athlete. I tried out for a team three times and never got a call back. I don't think I'm confident enough. Some days I have a smoke and drink a beer or drink a soda and I don't think it was the best way forward. I wish I would have always stayed sober. I struggle with how I'm living everyday. I know I need to be sober and that it's the best way forward. When I was young I would always go sober and I felt good about it. Lately I just feel like I've been lazy and depressed. I talk to my doctor today and they are upping my Prozac. I don't know if the pills will even help. 

Baseball season is starting up this month and it's always on ESPN. I don't like baseball at all and I can't stand watching it on TV. I don't mind going to a game though and having a beer. I like doing that alot. I hope I can go back to Colorado and get my own place. I know I can make the money by cold calling but I don't want to really. I want to grow this blog.

You ever listened to King Von? His song is playing in the rap station on the TV right now. He was on at rap, it's sad he passed away so early. I would like to hear more of him and Nypsey Hussle. I wish I was good at making music. I like rapping on one of the beat recording apps on the Google Play marketplace. There are a ton of apps to go through and a ton of game apps to play. I can't believe how many apps are out there. Have you ever tried out the Prank dial app? It's pretty cool.

I just got a six pack of soda and now I'm all set for the day. Even though is nothing to do out here. I can't believe how low I feel, nothing seems exciting or fun. 

So I had a dream.

I had a dream that some lady made all my friends rich and left me with nothing. That's such a shitty thing to do to somebody. I wonder what would happen if that did happen. Does the government even allow that. What would you do? It's makes me want to rap when shit like that happens to my mind. I laugh at how cruel that is to somebody.

I struggle someday with having no money and it feels terrible and I don't know what to do about it. I really hope I can make some money with this blog and make a way for myself. I am kinda jumping around in my mind if I should just focus on my company or if I should just stick to this blog. I could also try to build some niche sites but I don't know if it will work. I really don't know what to think.

I was thinking about starting a dog walking business and see how that goes. I was thinking of posting dog walking flyers and do it for a couple months. I just don't know if it will work. I don't know what to do if the dog gets out of hand. You think it will be safe to walk random dogs around town?

So anyways nothing is really happening. I am just hanging out listening to some hip hop music and vibing out. I don't really know where I am going with this blog and I know I don't really blog enough. I should blog for eight hours per day and even more but I don't know what to say.

I know I need to go Christian and take my problems to God. I just can't seem to read long enough. I just have no motivation whatsoever. I don't know what to do to conquer my day. I like listening to music and trying to make money online and hanging out. I doubt any people are that good with thier computer because there are no real tight websites coming out. I wish the web was full of cooler websites but nobody is really pushing any good sites out.

I just don't know what to think. I wanna get good at making sites so that people can use them. I wonder how so many people made good sites and why don't they make more. Everything's just Google and Apple and I wonder if they will even rank any competing websites or if they just go to the wayside. They kinda control the industry and they can reign over people trying to push their awesome websites.

I have a ton of website ideas but I don't know how to make them quite yet. In high school they made us make websites and they had books to show us how to make sites. I wish they still had the same boos for me to make some real sites with. 

So what's up today?

It's one of the residences birthday today and we are having hamburgers and fries for dinner. It should be good. I'm kinda hungry. What do you like to have in your birthday? I like pizza every once in a while.

Today u just feel tired and I don't know what to do about it. I just have no ebergy for anything. I don't have a job and I don't know if I want them since I started blogging with affiliate links. Hopefully I can make some money. There are a ton of people out there that can read my blog.

I'm homeless in my minds eye and feel terrible. I don't have any friends and Noone to talk to. Some days I just feel so ugly and all indo is get robbed by people I don't even know. They steal my Jordan shorts and my shirts and shoes.

Maybe I should open one of my books that I got from the library. Maybe that will keep my mind busy. Some days my mind races with shit I don't want to see. All they do is hate me and steal from me.

I don't know how to buy anything without it getting stolen.

Im thinking of makeing some niche sites and see if I can make any money online. I started a travel agency in a small town where I use to live. I got an inquiry but I don't know how to be a travel agent and I wonder how to do it. Maybe I should read up on it more. I know that I can breakfree with some money if I keep trying. I just don't have any energy to do so and not much insight either. I used to dream about making little sites and making money from them.

I just feel like every one is flying around the world while I am stuck in my little room with nothing to do but mess with my phone and my computer and I don't know how to get started. Do you have trouble making money online? Ten bucks a day is all I need to get started. Or all I need for some chips, some soda and a few cigars to smoke on. I know I need to quit smoking and I am getting the urge. I know I need to get back in shape and run so I can get the energy for some new ideas. I want to build another company online for sports but I don't know if I can figure it out. I just need to sit down and zone in and watch some YouTube videos on how to do it.

I just don't know what to do or where to get started.

I wonder what would happen if the world ended. What if everyone died and what would happen to the earth. I thought about it for a while and think reptiles with land on earth and roam the earth and take over the earth. You think reptiles are real? And what do you think that would be like. You think cameras would keep rolling and keep a time line of what happened?

I wonder what life is like in other planets and what would it be like to live there. If we could create a spacecraft that flew us around from planet to planet and we had special suits that we could walk around in that would be awesome. We would just travel planet to planet having the time of out life. What do you think fruit and vegetables would be like on another planet. You think we could live off it and make a life for ourselves? 

Can you make $200 per day from blogging?

Have you ever made two hundred per day online and how do you do it.

Maybe all you have to make a Craigslist post that Nets you two or three hundred per day.

I don't know how to make this happen with a blog but I will keep trying. I wonder who makes two hundred a day blogging. If I just have one post with six or seven sales from Amazon Affiliate sales this could work. But I don't know how to make a post with alot of traffic. I once made a post on a different blog that had a thousand views and I was blogging so hard I had forty thousand views on it. The blog was called mobilegenius.net and I took the blog down. I wish I would have left it but I just had the wrong people talking to me. I should have kept blogging in it and growing my company online and see what happens.

You could also start a e-commerce business online and you only need to get so much traffic to get some sales everyday. I know there is a way. You could use WordPress or Shopify to make the sales on. How do you find the products? Just look around on the web at some stores and see if you can drops hip from them. They might let you. 

So what is there to do now.

I'm just watching TV and hanging out. I know Noone probably wants to read this blog as there is nothing interesting on it. I don't know how to make lots of money and I have been feeling down and out lately. I just can't find any inspiration. What do you like to blog about. I have been listening to music alot lately as there is nowhere to go in this small town. I might go for a walk later and get some fresh air. I really need some fresh air and need to get some exercise. Do you need exercise and what helps you to stay motivated. I have no motivation right now and there is Noone to meet in this small town. I guess I will just ramble on for a while. There are som basketball games that start later today. Milwaukee Bucks vs. Atlanta Hawks and Boston Celtics vs. Los Angeles Lakers. LeBron James won't be playing tonight and neither will Anthony Davis. LeBron has a ankle injury and I don't know what's going on with Anthony Davis. 

I haven't talked to my parents in awhile and I don't think they want to talk to me. I need to go Christian and get closer to God get deep in the Holy Word. Maybe I will find some inspiration. I really need to find stuff to keep me busy. The First 48 is on right now and it's the only show that keeps me interested. I don't find interested in much. I have some books from the library but I don't really want to read them. I just don't feel like doing anything but laying in bed. And it drives me nuts that everyone is busting there ass at work. I know my mom has to work everyday to stay alive. I don't have to do anything but to live off the state government. 

What about Drake.

What do you think about the rap artists Drake? Do you like him and the songs he makes. He makes one pretty good music. I don't know of any songs or that many but Started from the bottom is a good song. I like listening to him everyonce in a while and it gets me motivated. I need to stay motivated throughout the day and keep going.

I like his freestyle lemon pepper freestyle with Rick Ross, that's a pretty good song. What are some other good songs?

I don't know what else to talk about. I like music, I miss Nypsey Hussle and really like the music he made. I miss that he can't make any more music.

Right now I don't know what to say. I listen to a little of everything online and like to look through new artists. How do I find new artists I just search for em and try to see who's out there. I have found a couple good artist and maybe I should check out Hip Hop dx to find more. I like Raxx he is pretty cool in YouTube. He has some decent songs on YouTube.

I don't know what else to check out really. If you know of any new rap talent that you would like to share please do so and leave a comment with thier name and YouTube link.

I wonder how people make fifteen page posts and how do they come up with so much to write about. I know that learning to blog will help me write better but I don't know what to think.

We are have taco salad for lunch and pork chops for dinner, I hope it is good. I eat three to four times per day and am trying to get fit again. I don't know what really to say about. They have a kitchen and that's where they cook all of our dinners. There are six of us that eat here everyday. We are moving here soon and they might serve us from the grocery store, little food plates. I hope that the place is nice and we have our own TV and wifi. I really hope they have wifi, I don't know if I should even be talking about it on here. 

Then I can listen to Drake all I want on my computer and my phone.

Some days I get myself in so much trouble doing the wrong thing here. I want to share a smoke and there covid and I don't care I fiend for one. I know it's not right but I don't know what to do with myself all day.

So I just keep blogging. I asked my dad for money yesterday and he hasn't responded and I know he wants me to get my own money and make it on my own but I don't know what I'm doing. 

How do you make it your best year ever?

How do we have a good year I don't know. I know what I need to do but don't always do it. I know I need to get up early and jog for a bit.

Read my Bible and meditate for a while. Are these things you hate to do as well. And you don't always know how to get started?

I know I suffer from the same procrastination. Right now I am stuck in a small town and don't always know what direction to head. It sucks not knowing what to do to get ahead. You don't know what to do to get rolling into some money. I have all the free time but I don't know what to do.

Do you know what to do every day to make some cash and go to the places you want to go. I hate being in trouble and not know what to do. I got in some trouble and now I'm stuck in a small town and I hate that I don't have nothing going for me. Maybe I need to read more and study more. Knowledge is power and maybe I need to study some new materials. I know everybody is at work right now and some people are having the time of thier life. They are out partying and making friends. I never had the money to go out and party and travel. I laugh people are so smart that they break free with lots of money.

I like doing yoga and that keeps me fit and I like going to the gym that makes me feel good. When I wake up in the morning I don't know what to do. What should I do to make some money. Will blogging make me any money? Will it work out for me. I don't know. 

Do you think to much?

Sometimes I think I'm psychically seeing things or people and I know that's not the best way to go and live your life.

If you work hard everyday then you'll probably won't be psychic. It's not fair to people that work hard everyday to have to know what's going on in thier mind everyday. They have to focus on work. They have to focused on what thier doing today. And I don't know what to think when people hate on you or me. But you can't focus on them everyday.

What can you do if you don't have a job. Probably know focus on the negative everyday and worry about what to do and not what to think. I play basketball and it's pretty hard to sit their thinking about people that don't like me. I just don't know what to think. I have to stay focused when I work. I have to pay attention to the ball when I'm hoopin.

I laugh people get pissed off at people just by thinking about them. It's sad to see these other country's wartorn from not understanding what they are thinking about. They may just be so angry inside. I wonder why we think the way we do. We have to maintain and control our emotions.

I am watching basketball right now and I laugh they have to spend eight hours a day on basketball. They have to maintain complete control. They have alot of money to let loose and attack someone who doesn't like them or doesn't like the way they are being treated by them or someone, or whoever.

You have to maintain completes control. I'm not one that gets to caught up in my emotions as I do when I think. Focusing on something else to pay attention to something else is way more important than getting caught up in emotions. I guess I don't get to caught up in what I feel as I do when I think. 

I hate get caught up in what I think. I noticed first thing in the morning if I have a ciggerette and a coffee my mind seems to run wild. And not only that it just seems like my mind goes haywire and I can't focus in and get something done. I can't sleep even though I'm tired. And I don't know what to do with my self. I just feel like sitting there and watching TV.  It's very uncomfortable in the morning and I'm thinking I should start sitting in meditation. I try to get stuff done throughout the day and I don't know what's going to make money. Maybe I should cold call, maybe I should work on coding a company, maybe I should just blog, maybe I should take a walk, maybe I should read the Bible. Maybe I should have another ciggerette, maybe I should try to get another cup of coffee. I just don't know what to do in the morning. I know that I seen posts on Instagram that I should meditate for five minutes, but that just doesn't seem like it will do anything. I can sit there for twenty minutes and still feel like nothing is happening.

I laugh people get so rich and get to drive around in their new Mercedes and have the time of thier lives going to clubs, basketball games and other places. I never got to go anywhere and I made all types of money and still can't go anywhere. I don't know what more I need to do. I have money in the bank and they said they lost it and can't find my account. Well they didn't say they lost it they say they can't find any account under my name. So what's the deal. Is the world picking who can be rich and who can have money and who can't. It totally sucks that people just sit around patrolling us for money. That just insane. They decide who can live and who can't. Everybodies got to go Christian and can only have a certain amount of money. One time money came into my account and I wondered where it came from as PayPal prepaid doesn't tell me where the money came from. So now I have money in my account and I don't know where it came from. I asked my dad if he sent it and he said he did not.

I really don't know what to think. I hope so bad this blog will make money so I can travel a few places and maybe meet a girl and get married. I need to meet someone. I laugh people date so much. I couldn't even get if I tried. I don't even know how to talk about woman. Let alone talk to them. How do you meet woman and go on dates and get your food paid for and someone to take you out for meals. Wouldn't that be nice. I met woman at yoga but never had the nerve to hang out and I had been around them for six or seven years. I just don't know how to talk to woman.

I'm done for now. I hope you have a good night. 

So what now.

I tried calling my dad for some extra cash and he didn't answer. I feel terrible about asking for money and I feel terrible for not having some money to spend. One thing though not having any money I don't drink as many soda and smoke as much. Right now I only have two sodas per day. I don't smoke much now but I like having a couple smokes in the morning. They are not my smokes but smokes I bum off another roommate and I think he's getting sick of me but I don't know what I'm gonna do.

I made so many mistakes in my life, that my life kinda stinks. I just don't know what I am doing. I always need help and maybe I should be reading more of my Bible. I just need to straighten out my ways.

I hallucinate alot through the day and feel like I can't get anything done. I take pills for it and it's called CAPLYTA and Prozac and they don't seem to help.

I don't know what to do with myself. I know I need to make it on my own and Pave a good path for others to follow. I just don't know what path I need to pave.i don't know what I should do but I do know I need to find a way to break free.

I need just fifty bucks a day sometimes and I laugh people can make that blogging. I made a post on Craigslist and see if that would make some money. I wish I could get ten or fifteen leads off Craigslist that would really make my day. Boy would that be enough money to live on and have some extra cash for a new car or something else. I wish I could get fifteen plus leads a day, that's not really that much money. I laugh I can't make enough leads come in and have the ability to make some money. How hard and can Craigslist be. I wish I knew how to use it better.

So I'm asking my dad for money and he's not responding. What do you think is going yo happen. It sucks so bad not having any money and trying to go out and see what's happening. I laugh people have so much money to party. 

Who do you think should be MVP of the NBA

Don't you think LeBron James should be MVP of the NBA since he won a NBA title. How can anyone even come close to be the MVP.

Giannis won the MVP last year and just a while back he couldn't make a free throw to win a game, that's something that wouldn't happen to LeBron James.

I don't know what else to think and why wouldnt Stephen Curry be in the MVP hunt since he scored fifty points in a game from time to time.

I'm not a very good sports writer but I just think. Baseball is on now and I hate baseball. I can't stand playing baseball against my friends. 

What should we talk about to break free with some cash?

Are you trying to break free with cash and how do we do it. Most people on earth want to get out of thier house and into a brand new home.

I have started a web agency and mobile marketing company and know it's the quickest way to some cash. I just don't think my blog will get me anywhere, it takes to much time. 

So I took a nap.

I just woke up from some nightmares. I had a dream that I met people and people I knew in high school were hooking up with whoever I met in other cities and they were supplying each other with houses and cars and money while I sat with no money. Doesn't that suck and who the hell comes up with this crap. It just never ends. God just keeps supplying other people and leaving me with nothing. I'm afraid of meeting people and having them disrespect me. I hate that, that happens to me and they work so hard against me. 

I hate that I can see people that I email in my minds eye. What is this all about. I never get a good day. Everything seems to work against me and I don't know what to do about it.

Maybe I will turn on the TV and see what's on. I have nothing to do and nowhere to go.

I just feel helpless. I wonder if I can break free with my blog and make some money. I know I have said this to many times already. 

People just do me so dirty and I can't catch a good day. What should I do all day to make some cash. I was thinking about selling websites on Craigslist for three hundred dollars a piece. I just don't feel that safe on Craigslist. Have you ever used Craigslist to make money and how did it go.

There are some good basketball games on tonight, one is the Brooklyn Nets vs. The Philadelphia seventy sixers. I hope that it is a good game. Both teams have pretty good players.

I got some books from the library and I wonder if they are any good. I got two of them. The library selection isn't that good and they only have a limited selection. Do you like to read and how is it going for you and what do you like to read? I like mystery novels and true life stories. They are fun to read and I really enjoy them. 

So what should we talk about today?

Is anyone making any money online and how are you doing it. I was thinking of doing little piddly stuff to make money. Post a blog post, make a Craigslist post, mess around with Twitter and do other little things to make money. Some days I just have a lack of inspiration. I don't know what to do.

I contacted some one in Instagram and I am supposed to call them back. They are talking about making money with YouTube. I don't know if I should call them back. I wonder how they make money on YouTube and I don't know how to do it. I have hundreds of rap songs on YouTube and I don't get no views. Maybe I need to fill out the description and fill in the blanks on my YouTube video.

There are some ways to make money on Amazon but I don't really know how to do it.

I have written a few ten paged books on Amazon Kindle but I didn't make any money with it. Maybe I need to sit down and write longer. Do you have any books and are they selling, are they any good?

Nothing much is happening here today. We have to move in late June to a new location and I don't know how it's gonna go. I wonder if my stuff will be safe and nobody's gonna take it. I wish I could make a little money off my computer and laptop but I just don't know what hat to do.

I've been all across the country and didn't make much sense of the economy. I didn't know how to figure out how to make some doe. I even slept outside and it sucked, I was afraid of falling asleep because I didn't want anybody to hurt me while I slept. It was suck to be homeless and have no where to go. I would rather just go to jail. They gave me a place to sleep and didn't make me go homeless. They were pretty nice to me. I don't want to sleep at freind house because they would get sick of me. I laugh there are so many five hundred thousand dollar homes. They must be way smarter than me. I wonder what they do to get one of those houses. My parents work full time and still can't afford a place we can sleep.

I live driving around and seeing new places, I need to make around ten grand to make a payment and buy a car. That's should last me about ten years if I treat the car right. I wonder if I should call around and see if any auto dealerships want me to do some marketing for them. I wonder how people are so smart. I mean how do they get the money to start a car lot and how do they make all the money. I would love to own a car lot and hire people to work for me and drive around in new cars everyday. My buddy's dad used to own a big car lot and let his kid borrow a car like a Cadillac and let us drive around and bump music and smoke some weed. His dad though had died and I don't know if he still has access to the cars. His kid I am talking about. There are so many car lots out there and I wonder what they do to stock the car lot with cars. I have been to a dealership with no money asking them how to buy a car and they looked up my information and said I couldn't get a car. So I just stay walking. It really sucks I have bills and bad credit. I laugh how they never let it go. I had a bank account and I told them to stop my bank statement and I called back on day to get bank money out and they said I they couldn't find a account with my name on it. I mean how could they lose my account. It really sucks. I should have pulled money out when I had the statement and money in the bank. I thought they would shut off my account and wouldn't let me access to it. I just thought they would steal all my money and not let me access it so I just let it go. Dumb idea. I wish I had a time machine and could go back in time. 

What's going on now?

So what should we blog about and how are things going? I really want to break free with some money and go some places and see what's it like. I don't know what to do online to make money. It's just I don't feel like I have any inspiration. I don't have any motivation. I just watch ESPN right now and I'm getting sick of sports. I don't know how people blog for eight hours per day. I don't know how they do it. Should I get in Craigslist and try to make some money I just don't know. 

How do you you make money?

How do you make money and what ideas do you have? Have you ever tried to have someone on Fivver make you a company and how did it go? I have built a web agency and found a mobile app dealer and was selling mobile apps for a while but the mobile app dealer disappeared. I called the old phone number but could not find him. I don't know what happened to him and all the apps I sold are not in the app market.

Fivver could work for you and make you some money. I wrote a book for Amazon Kindle and bought a five dollar book cover and published it. It didn't sold much but made me a little three hundred per month which is nice for some spending money. The books just make money on autopilot. It's not a bad deal at all. 

So what's going on now?

I'm watching the game and two players just got kicked out. Lakers vs the Nets. I don't really know what to think about that. They got pissed off at each other.

I hope I can go fishing this summer. Lately I have just been feeling weird. I don't know what's up with me. I can't seem to stay out of trouble and keep a good path. I know I need to do the right thing everyday and stay sober. But I just feel like a bum.

I hope Google doesn't shut off my blog after I build it for a long time. That would really suck and I wonder if I can save the posts and information I write down. 

So what's to talk about.

When I created this blog I didn't know what I wanted to write about, and I still don't. Right now I am listening to the Christian Music Channel. It's pretty good but I have just been so depressed lately and I don't know what to do about it. I just don't know what to think and I don't know why I feel tired all the time.

I have been taking pills for my depression and I don't think they are working. It really sucks and I don't know what to do about it.

I don't even know what to blog about. I can't come up with anything. Maybe I should try harder and see if I can garner any inspiration. I know people are I inspired and don't have no problem with blogging on their blogs.

How do we make money? Do you ever get in Craigslist and try to make money?  I have made a little money doing gigs.

 I spent a hundred and five dollars in ten days and they were wondering where all my money went. I spent the money on cigars and soda and that's not a good idea. I don't know what to do about myself.

Right now I am watching the UFC prelims and it's OK. I will have to walk the dog and I might miss some of the matchups. Right now the event is on ESPN but it will be on ABC after the prelims and have the main card. It's starts at three p.m. I think. 

I miss walking around town and where I am at right now there is nowhere to walk to. I want to get back in shape but I just don't feel like exercising. It gets easier as I go along but that is just not the case. It sucks being outta shape and I don't know what to do about. There is a gym around here but right now it is closed because of Covid I think. Covid really made things miserable. I don't have to have a job right now so I can spend all my time writing. I feel like making little raps songs that I record on my phone and I load onto YouTube. I'm not that good yet but I am getting better and I have almost five hundred songs online. That's not alot ot make it making music on YouTube. It's kinda of fun to me, before I couldn't even rap for two minutes without messing up but now I can make a whole song as a freestyle for a whole song.

I just walked the dog and I freestyle while I walk the dog and sing little songs. I think I need to rap for around six hours and maybe I will start making money in YouTube. I'm just not that good at putting words togther and I want to get good at and see where it takes me. I usually get a soda for walking the dog and I have a diet coke and a cup of coffee and a little snack.

So the main card is on ABC now and I'm bout to watch it. I don't know if there are any good fights but I hope it is a good card.

College basketball is all over with and now it's just the NBA that's left and the Lakers play the Brooklyn Nets tonight and the Lakers don't have any of thier stars and I doubt it's going to be a very good game. We will have to watch and see how it goes.

Right now I am watching Drugs Inc. And they catch all types of people smuggling in drugs. It's amazing what people try to do and get away with. Otherwise there is nothing really on tv to watch. I want to go do yoga but I just have not been that mature. I still want to have a smoke and drink a soda and I know it's not good for me. When I was in Denver I went to chdck out new gyms everyday and some were fun and some were not. Otherwise there was never anybody in it or playing basketball. I wish the basketball scene in Denver was better. I went to Lifetime fitness and it was pretty cool, they had a huge swimming pool and a huge basketball court and really nice weight room. The cost was sixty bucks per month and they have a organic restaurant in the gym. It was pretty cool. 

Do you know the best way to build your company?

I don't know how to build a company online. All I do is think a blog will get me there and I know nobody wants to read this shit. I don't really know what to think. I wish I could make more money with my company but I don't know how. Maybe I should start cold calling and see where that gets me. Some people make big money blogging. I laugh they have so much to write about. I can't think of a damn thing to write about. And I don't know what to say. I just wish I could get better at writing and putting sentences together. 

Do you make any money with your blog.

I wish I could break free with interesting content. I wish I had something to talk about. I just can't seem to catch a good flow. I don't really know what to say. 

$200 per day.

You think you can make two hundred per day blogging. That's all I really need to survive for a while. I'm not trying to get rich but it's more than I get payed at a normal job. I worked concrete for a while and it sucked how hard it was. Some weeks I worked fifty plus hours. So I had over time on my check and after I had taxes taken out it evened out to be around four hundred per week. Which is not very much money. They hated me so bad at work I laughed what it did to my mind. They just hated me. I wonder what would have happen if I had stayed. I got in so many fights at work I couldn't believe how angry they were. 

I love how God keeps on inspiring me to keep moving forward and take action. I know I can reach two hundred per day and even more.

What should I write about for fifteen pages, I don't think I can blog that long everyday but I will try.

What to talk about. I am watching First 48 right now in TV. I know I have talked about it before and but I don't know what else to say. 

You think I can make money just blogging on my phone? I like typing on my phone better. It's easier to write with other than using my computer. But I can post affiliate links with my phone.

I'd love to go back to Colorado, Denver and walk around and see what's going on. Maybe I should get a job on the side. I love to go to different brewerys and check out thier beer selection. It's so much fun.

I hope the John Jones - Francis Nganou fight happens. John Jones think ten million dollars for the fight is to low and I wonder if the UFC will offer more money. I can't wait for the fight to be happen. It should be a good one.

The Masters is on ESPN right now but I'm not really a big golf fan and never really got into it. I used to live on a golf course but never really played. I used to ride my dirt bike all around the golf course and I don't think that was even legal. The golf course was really hilly and I loved sledding there as well in the middle of winter.

What else is going on, I'm just sitting here drinking a soda and watching TV.

I wish there was some basketball on tv tonight but there isn't. I'm glad I'm not in jail with covid protocol, they won't even let us out of cells and it's so freaking boring I can't stand it. There's nothing to do in jail and I don't like the food they serve. It does give you time to think though and make all types of plans. I wish I wasn't scared of the real world as I am in jail where I feel well protected. It's so easy to dream in jail and make all sorts of plans. 

I'm bad with money.

So I spent fifty bucks this week and the staff at the board n lodge ask me where it went and I spent it on cigars and soda. Fifty bucks and I hate getting in trouble. They keep a good eye on me and don't let me get away with anything. I laugh how some people have such good jobs and have so much money. All I can do is stay at a little petty job and barely scrape by. There's so many famous people and how did they make it so successful.

Right now I am watching Nightwatch on AR. It's pretty good show, they have a guy who overdosed on heroin. I have never tried heroin and I don't care. I wonder if treatment even 

helps people and if they actually quit. 

I don't know what to talk about and what to do with this blog. I'd love to make it out with Blogger money. First 48 is on next and I like that show as well. It's a rainy Friday today and kind of dreary.

There's nothing to do where I am at. I just don't know where to go.

I have to stop smoking and drinking soda and I feel terrible at night and I can't seem to fall asleep. I don't know what my problem is. I don't know what to do about it. First 48is in now. I laugh how people seem to figure me out so fast. I can't stand people know how to handle me so well. I need to make a change in my life. 

So I need about five thousand to find a place in Denver.

I have seen some one bedroom apartments for around sixteen hundred per month.

I don't have sixteen hundred per month. So how am I going to get this money? I will have to find a way. Do you you think I should get on Craigslist. I don't really know if that will work.

I have made some money in Craigslist but I didn't know what to do with it. I know maybe I should try harder on making money with it but I don't know if I feel safe using it.

Right now I am just watching movies and hanging out waiting for dinner. We are having sloppy Joe's and onion rings. With a little lettuce salad. It should be good and I kinda enjoy the dinners here. They are pretty good. 

So what is there to talk about?

The Ncaa national championship is tonight.

Gonzaga plays Baylor for a title in men's basketball. How fully is will be a good game and exciting to watch. 

The board n lodge is going out of business and I will have to go to somewhere new in July. I hope the place I go is just as nice as this place. They don't make me do much around here and they usually leave me alone to blog. I hope everything goes OK.

Right now I am watching American Greed in TV. It's a pretty good show I like mysteries and watching them steal and build fake companies. I don't know if I should watch them but they are interesting.

The George Floyd murder trial in on tv right now as I flip through channels. It's wierd seeing the cops on tv and have to take the stand. They really get grilled.

What else is going on. I don't know what to write for fifteen pages and how to kick some knowledge and facts. If I leave the board n lodge I hope there are places to walk and not be bothered. I love to walk and see things and check stuff out. There are some restaurants in the town I make go to and they have a fifty cents soda machine where I can buy some pretty quality soda.

I just sneezed. Let's head over to ESPN and see what's going on there. I wonder if they will have some news about the game tonight. It's below in the ticker right now and they are talking about the Woman's National Championship is woman's college basketball.

Arron Rodgers is hosting Jeopardy tonight and I don't know if he still playing football. He played for the Green Bay Packers and was the quarterback. I think he is retired and might host jeopardy full time.

There is a Subway about ten miles out of town but they haven't let me go eat there. Maybe I need to save up some of money for I can go eat there.

I miss Denver Colorado so bad some days and chilling at the Train Station and having a beer and working on my computer. They are tons of people in there on thier computer. I want like to take a trip across the country and enjoy the sites and sounds. It's so fun and busy down there and I really enjoy it.

Some days I just feel like people are out to get me and don't want to treat me fairly and it drives me nuts. I can't fire back and laugh they hate me so bad inside. I don't know what to do I just exists. They just can't stand me and I can't believe they are so mad about. I just take is day by day and moment by moment.

I can't believe I'm in such a situation, all people do is hate each other. It's like they can't stand each other. I want to move to Moorehead Fargo and see if things will be better. At least thier will be something to do. I really want to get a job and get on my own. I want to buy a big Ole house and just sit there watching TV and travel a little bit and see how things go. I dont know if this blog will make me any money and I don't know if people will really want to read it. I would live if I could just travel and blog for a living. Just sit on my computer and collect cash every month. I would love that and I think I would have a good time. I know I need to go Christian and have been putting it off and I need to get my life straightened out so I feel good about what I am doing and I can handle the area economy. I know there is money out there somewhere for me. All I see is nice trucks everywhere you look around out here and I know they have to be earnin a little bit of money and have a nice life. 

So what to blog about now?

The Ncaa National Championship is on tv for men's college basketball and I hope it's a good one. I know I need to push through and watch this game.

Lately I have been feeling like I have been getting trashed by people for no reason and I don't know what their problem is. I know I need to work harder at this blog and make some cash happen. I might start cold calling and see if I can make a little cash doing that. But I don't have a website up and I think it's still in Sqaurespace database but I don't know if I still have the email. I will have to use McAfee password finder which cost like twenty bucks. Otherwise I will just build another website. I just don't know if blogging. Is going to make me any money. It just seems like it takes forever to make any cash blogging. 

So what should we talk about?

I'm watching the final four right now with Gonzaga vs Ucla. Hopefully it will be better than the last game.

Myley Cyrus is singing before the game.

So the game is about to start. 

I was thinking of making a little rap song but I don't know if I feel like it.

We had pizza tonight, I had barbacue chicken and chicken bacon ranch. It was pretty good but we only got to have two pieces. They usually give me the right amount of food to tide me over. I usually have two cups of coffee a day and sometimes a six pack of pop. Is that to many, I don't know, but I don't get the same high from soda as if I drank it only once a week. Sometimes I just think I need energy to blog. I need to get energy to get something done. The staff work so hard here cleaning up after us and doing lunch and making dinner it makes me think I need to work just as hard as them. They work thier ass off and I need to work my ass off blogging. My dad worked forty plus years at the railroad and he would be in call and they would call him at two or three in the morning. He worked his ass off.

I worked concrete a while back and they instilled good work ethic or at least I knew what hard work was. We would accomplish in one day that looking at I thought it would take a week. Sometimes I didn't want to work so hard but I did anyway. We would build huge concrete hog barns, pour driveways, and build jails. Which really sucked because u got arrested and went to the exact jail I built. I didn't have to stay long and it wasn't so bad, sometimes I like feeling safe from the outside world. I'm not saying I don't want my freedom but six or seven days in jail watching TV and eating bunny buns and drinking coffee.

I don't know what to talk about and the games just to start, maybe I will set the phone down and come back to this post.

I can't believe it is so hard to get a girl to hang out with. When I was young I got acne so terrible I didn't like anyone touching me let alone girls. I hated that I had that problem. I couldn't stand it. Now I don't even know how to hang out with girls without feeling ugly. I couldn't get rid of my acne unless I took drastic matters. I started running and playing basketball non stop and I didn't have a job. I started doing three hours even sometimes four hours of hot yoga a day. I started eating nothing but fruit, big boxes of bananas for twenty dollars from whole foods. I would eat nothing but fruit and sometimes chicken and patatoes. I had foodstamps. I would sometimes get a chicken wrap and a organic energy drink from Whole Foods. Sometimes I would go to Dazbog or Starbucks and drink two or three cups of coffee to get a little buzz then walking around dreaming about how to make money. This was in Denver Colorado.

I also smoke a little weed which would give me anxiety to chug water. Marijuana really helped or cannibus helped me to drink more water as I didn't like the anxiety it gave me when I had a energy drink or coffee.

I thought I was Arnold. Smokin a little bud and lifting weights. Sometimes I would have a muscle milk and or some creatine. On a side note do you think George St. Peire drinks creatine? Anyways I would lift like crazy and if I lost my high the gym had a rooftop parking lot and I would go hit another bowl of weed and look at the cars pass by and stare at the mountains. The gum was twenty four hours and two minutes to downtown. I love Colorado.

Should I get a job or keep blogging?

Should I go look for a job or what should I do. I don't really know. Maybe I should just blog and see if I can make any money blogging.

I was looking at ideas related to keywords and doing Seo and I still don't understand. I don't think this blog is supposed to rank for anything or trying to find a specific niche. All I do is write and try to grow the blog.

I really don't know what keywords I want to rank for. I can't believe that the internet is built that way.

I have been looking though other blogs and I still don't understand how they build so much content. How they come up with things to write about and understand how to keep us busy everyday with reading.

I'm watching the Final Four on TV, Ncaa Basketball. I'm doing this while I blog. Hopefully it will be a good game but CBS doesn't show the score board that often on TV. I wonder why.

There's another game in after this. Right now its Baylor vs. Houston and Ucla and Gonzaga play afterwards. Think we are having pizza tonight for dinner.

I really want to make my blog grow but I don't always know what to write about. I have been all over the country and I just walked around. I smoke some Black and Milds and walked and even slept outside some nights. It was terrifying. I wish I could me a girl and ride around with her. I don't know what to do about getting a girl. I need to find one to hang out with. I wouldn't be so homeless if I had a girl to hang with and go out to eat with and watch movies.

I don't have a home right now and have been living in a board n lodge for the last two years. And I just started my blog and I hope to grow it big, I wish I could get ten thousand dollars a month from my blog but I don't really know how yet. I haven't qualified for Adsense yet and I hope Google approves me so I can see a little money come in. I have about eight dollars and some change in their right now. I know that my blog is new so I don't know how well it will rank.

So I'm back at it again.

I started drinking to much pop again. Ten cans of soda and I feel terrible. I didn't go to bed till around twelve thirty last night. I reached out to JesusCares.com and told em my problems in a email I sent them. I was looking to chat but Noone answered. Somedays I just want to ask for help but I don't know who to talk to. I suppose I could talk to the hospital or my peer specialist. I don't know if that will work. I'm supposed to budget my money and write it all down in Microsoft Excel but I have been putting it off because I have been buying nothing but soda and cigars. My parents smoked thier whole life and I wonder how much life they have missed out on. I wonder if they had a good life or not. I don't want to smoke my whole life and end up with nothing.

My trash can is filled up with pop cans and I don't want Noone to see it. I want to get back into a yoga studio but I don't know where to go. I think I need to read my Bible more and maybe God will give me a way through. 

So what's going on with you now?

I see alot of posts on Facebook and Instagram about investing and making plans. Do you have any goals in mind that you want to make happen in the next one, five, and ten years?

I don't have any and maybe I need to get some. There's alot to be grateful for and I need to think about that everyday.

I'm alive and well I can go places and I have a good working body. I want to be thankful for that.

What are some things you are thankful for? Least you can read this blog post and you have free time to read.

So what else is going on with you? I just have been hanging out and I just walked the dog. The dog loves to walk and pee every where. He could walk forever.

I just got a six pack of sofa today so I am drinking that. I love soda and want to have one every day. I love to have a couple black and Milds everyday as well. But I know my conciousness is telling me to go sober. I don't want to die young. I need to quit smoking, but like I said I love a black and mild. I love talking to people and seeing how things are going. 

I owed someone five bucks, I just got my check from the government today. Most my friends are former athletes and they don't want to play no more and it drives me crazy. I want to play for the rest of my life and stay in shape. I wish my friends were more outgoing. I hang with em and I haven't done it in a while. Maybe ten years, and I miss them, I still talk to them on Facebook every once in a while. They don't have much to say.

I have bank money and I don't know how to get it out. I told them to stop sending me bank statements and now when I call back they say that I don't have an account with them. You think they should be able to delete my account just because I didn't want my bank statements?

I'm on my own now and could really use the money. Right now I just hang out by myself and walk around town every once in a while. I like my life some days and some days I get depressed.

I want to freestyle a rap track but I get no views. I have over a thousand subscribers on Facebook and Noone talks to me or leaves a comment. I don't know what's going on. I don't think anyone likes me and there's nothing I can do about it.

I miss my parents every once in a while but I don't have any money to do anything about it. I wish I could make money blogging and enjoy myself a little more.

Will go for now. 

So now I'm blogging again.

I watching the TV and really want to keep this blog going.

There's some good basketball games on ESPN tonight that I will have to watch.

I usually fall asleep around when the second game starts, it's around ten p.m..

Right now I am watching the Mystery Channel on TV.

The world's a dangerous place and I don't know what to do about it.

I don't know what to do today, I think I will buy a twelve pack of soda and split it with my roommate. I like having a soda all day.

I took a nap earlier and want to start staying up to get more blog posts written and get something done. Maybe I should blog on my computer. I haven't talked to my mom and dad lately. And I maybe I should give them a call.

I was in Grand Forks ND a whole back and I just hike around the town with nothing to do. I wanted to get a job at Ruby Tuesdays and work thier. I love their salad bar. They have the best salad bar and it taste great. I haven't been to one in a while.

Im bored now and don't know what to do with my days. I think I will take another nap.