I'm bad with money.

So I spent fifty bucks this week and the staff at the board n lodge ask me where it went and I spent it on cigars and soda. Fifty bucks and I hate getting in trouble. They keep a good eye on me and don't let me get away with anything. I laugh how some people have such good jobs and have so much money. All I can do is stay at a little petty job and barely scrape by. There's so many famous people and how did they make it so successful.

Right now I am watching Nightwatch on AR. It's pretty good show, they have a guy who overdosed on heroin. I have never tried heroin and I don't care. I wonder if treatment even 

helps people and if they actually quit. 

I don't know what to talk about and what to do with this blog. I'd love to make it out with Blogger money. First 48 is on next and I like that show as well. It's a rainy Friday today and kind of dreary.

There's nothing to do where I am at. I just don't know where to go.

I have to stop smoking and drinking soda and I feel terrible at night and I can't seem to fall asleep. I don't know what my problem is. I don't know what to do about it. First 48is in now. I laugh how people seem to figure me out so fast. I can't stand people know how to handle me so well. I need to make a change in my life.