Ok now.

Went to my counseling meeting and it was OK. I talked about what type of treatment I have been having and how I should budget my money.

I hate not having any money.

I hate it.

At the same time I don't know how to spend it.

Maybe I need a job and that will make things all better.

Bynthr grace of God there has to be something to live for.

Something to keep me going.

Maybe I should move to Florida and walk the beaches, what do you think?

No recreational Marijuana and I like it for mental health.

How in the world are thier so many weed dispensaries and where is all the weed coming from? Their must be grows everywhere and I mean everywhere.

This sucks.

I'm in Minnesota and I don't know what the hell to do. Land of ten thousand lakes and I don't live by one. No fishing and no swimming for me. That sucks. You think they could have gotten me a room and board by the lake.

Can that eve happen?

I wanna swim and fish.

I want to have a life here, it sucks when their is nothing to do around here.

Read the Bible all day.

Study something.

Take your time.

Find something interesting.

But what is interesting.

What should I do.

How should I feel.

Where should I go.

What do I think.