What no Christmas presents this year?

I know that feeling and I actually can say just a small gift from anyone is nice.

It's nice having a life here with no money whole everyone is out driving around. 

I have to hustle and it hurts a little bit differently. 

I want to make money. 

I don't have much blog traffic and I study this idea that if I keep typing I'm gonna break free with money. 

I know that's its tough.

It sucks never having a good Christmas. 

It's sucks to robbed and all your shit stolen. 

I don't know what to think. 

I just keep working my blog and going to work delivering furniture. 

My whole paycheck will probably go to Christmas presents and I will have to live in the air and take what ever they give me to eat. 

I guess God provides for everybody in thier little way.

But boy it'd be nice to drive around. 

I want to help my mom and dad and sister andnatepmom with money but they barely ever gave me a place to sleep. 

I have to find a way though. 

We can find passage ways but who wants to read the Bible all week every week with no money while everyone drives around laughing they have money. 

That really sucks. 

We have to find a way though. 

So what do we do?

We stuggle and hustle.

We try to find a moments of clarity. 

And what we have to be poor forever. 

That's no fun. 

But we just take what we can get. 

We just keep writing and telling our story.

We keep making music. 

We just keep moving. 

And yes I have to write I guess. 

Everyone around me is poor. 

I doubt they ever thought of writing out thier ideas. 

Dear God give me air. 

I need it. 

We have no where to go. 

We have to struggle.

We have to be smarter. 

But how!

How do we get a house and a family.

How do we find a way though?