Well I don't know what I'm doing.

Does everyone have a better life for you?

Maybe.... 

But keep pushing and making money. 

We can find a way through. 

What if your were Alex Hannold and basically you half way up the wall and you think ohh, this and so and so has a better life than me and they are rich from woman pampering you. 

I don't know.... 

But you have to keep going because you can't call or you die. 

So. Dorm worry and keep going.