So I'm starting to get the hang of this.

So I have around a hundred blog posts on this blog and it's starting to get easier to post everyday. I can't believe how good some people are at blogging. They are just phenomenal and I can't believe how much they have to say. I'm not an authority in any niche and I don't know how to be one. I'm watching the Lakers and Pelicans play right now with no LeBron James.

I need to get outside and start playing more but my ball isn't all the way pumped up.

Some days I think people are going to be mean to me out of nowhere. Don't you think someday people will get mean to you out of nowhere. I guess I have to go to mental health for this. Some days I thought people were going to get mean to me at work and they did. They started to call me names and get pisssed at me out of nowhere. People get old quick and all they think about is money. I know I need to just sit down and read my Bible so I can make it to Heaven. Growing up I really wanted to make it to NBA. I used to stay in the gym for like seven or eight hours taking creatine shooting around and lifting weights. It didn't amount to anything. I tried out for the Aba Live in Colorado but I didn't make the team. I need to stay sober and I probably would of made the team but I liked to smoke weed and go to the bar everyonce in a while.

I can't believe people have so many problems. That's all they talk about on the Christian channel. I'd like to see or hear about how people have problems or have struggles and what they are. Maybe you post on the comments section what you struggle with or the problems you are having. I really want to grow closer to God and get my life straight and not worry about money so much. I know God's gonna take care of me if I go Christian.

Some days I really struggle with how I'm feeling. I'm diagnosed with psychoprenia. And I have to take pills for this. They don't help me really or so it seems. My caretaker really thinks it's important I stay on my pills. They didn't think I would get in trouble if I was in my pills. I don't know really what to think.

I talked to my dad for a while today and I had to call Minneapolis to get my social security and disability figured out. I hope it comes through for me, it would be nice if I got a little more cash every month to live on.

I want to rap but I don't feel good when I'm done making a song. I just feel bad if I cuss or swear. I need God to change how I think and feel. Some of my songs have cussing and swearing on them. They don't get any views and they just sit on YouTube without any traffic.