Trying my hand at blogging.

Some days I feel like I'm getting old to fast and I don't know what's worth while. Do you ever wake up everyday looking for new insight? Some days I feel so down and out I don't know what to do with myself. I wonder how other people get motivated and what do they do to stay motivated. I have no motivation whatsoever and hurts terrible. This blog is all I got and I try my best to stay inspired with it and give people something enjoyable to read.

Maybe I just need to get a job but there's no jobs really in this small town. It sucks all there is to do is walk as I don't have a car and can't afford one right now either. I have no place to sleep as I got kicked out of my parents home and I don't want to go back either as I'm too old and I need to make it on my own. Some days I just turn some music on and blog. It helps to blog as it feels like I'm getting something done everyday but I doubt it's gonna pay off. I need money so bad and I can't seem to get qualified for Adsense. I wanted Adsense on my blog but I know it will take forever to make some money.

I have Amazon affiliate account open and have posted some ads but I don't know how long that will take to make some money. I guess it's better than Livin on the streets with no place to sleep. I have seen some homeless and it just seems like that their life is terrible. I wonder how long it will take to make money with blog. It would suck to be homeless, one guy pissed on himself and just layed in the alley way.

I know my posts need to be longer but I don't know what to blog about. I hate how I feel right now, it just feels like I can't do anything right. I just feel so down and out everyday. I take antidepressants and they don't seem to help. I want to get back in my. Adhd medicine called adderall and see how that feels. I'm sick of being tired during the day.

I know with this blog I have to work just as hard as everyone else

 I know it will pay off.