So what now.

I tried calling my dad for some extra cash and he didn't answer. I feel terrible about asking for money and I feel terrible for not having some money to spend. One thing though not having any money I don't drink as many soda and smoke as much. Right now I only have two sodas per day. I don't smoke much now but I like having a couple smokes in the morning. They are not my smokes but smokes I bum off another roommate and I think he's getting sick of me but I don't know what I'm gonna do.

I made so many mistakes in my life, that my life kinda stinks. I just don't know what I am doing. I always need help and maybe I should be reading more of my Bible. I just need to straighten out my ways.

I hallucinate alot through the day and feel like I can't get anything done. I take pills for it and it's called CAPLYTA and Prozac and they don't seem to help.

I don't know what to do with myself. I know I need to make it on my own and Pave a good path for others to follow. I just don't know what path I need to pave.i don't know what I should do but I do know I need to find a way to break free.

I need just fifty bucks a day sometimes and I laugh people can make that blogging. I made a post on Craigslist and see if that would make some money. I wish I could get ten or fifteen leads off Craigslist that would really make my day. Boy would that be enough money to live on and have some extra cash for a new car or something else. I wish I could get fifteen plus leads a day, that's not really that much money. I laugh I can't make enough leads come in and have the ability to make some money. How hard and can Craigslist be. I wish I knew how to use it better.

So I'm asking my dad for money and he's not responding. What do you think is going yo happen. It sucks so bad not having any money and trying to go out and see what's happening. I laugh people have so much money to party.