So I am blogging.

Just got chewed out by my dad for not having a hard nose job. I guess blogging wasn't what he was talking about. I feel terrible some days that he worked his ass off at the same job for forty some years and I can't even hold a job. Right now I am drinking to much soda and smoking to many cigars and I feel alright but I know in the morning I need to go sober cuz I just don't feel right spending my money on soda and chips and cigars. I know or I wonder if the gas station clerk wants to see me deteriate in front of them with redbulls and cigars. What a gross habit.

I know just how to piss my dad off and make things worse for me. I just don't know what to say to him and I feel bad about it. I couldn't hold a job if I tried. I want to get paid somehow and see how it works for me, I know I can make money online whether it is doing Kindle, cold calling or blogging for a freakishly long time and I can't even begin to think what type of website I could make this in to. Maybe a store, I just have my own little store and sell items from Amazon, or I could just sell consultant services and see how that goes. I don't k ow if anyone will buy into what I'm saying and I guess I can teach them through this blog. 

It's nice outside right now and it's a little rainy, beautiful Minnesota weather. It feels great I just wonder if I can figure out how to enjoy it more.

I know it's almost time for bed and I don't really know what to talk about. I just texted one of my old friends in Colorado and wanted to see what he is up to. He graduated from college, got married and now bought his own house.

I need to get my own house but I don't know if my blog is going to cover that amount of cash and I just don't know what to do about. How long do you think it would take to buy a one million dollar home and live in it with all the fixings. How about a Range River, a Camaro and a Subaru and live with those kind of cars and drive around. There are so many cool places in Denver and Florida is awesome, St. Peterburgs Florida is fun with all these awesome Hotels in the beach and reggae to listen to. I would they pass recreational Marijuana laws, it would be fun to get high on the beach. I live being in the cool ac temperature in a hotel room looking out at the hot samdy Beach. I didn't see that many people swimming but plenty were walking the beach to get exercise. It looked like there could be some sharks in the water. I still went body boarding though and it was OK. The beach at night is so beautiful and the huge cruise liners in the distant traveling through the water. I would love to take a cruise around the world. I would love to meet a beautiful girl. I saw two girls at the hotel I was at and they were very good looking. So I walked up to one where she was sitting and sat down by her and as soon as I said hi she got up out her seat and left. I go OK. Boy was she pretty. 

I don't think I have ever been to Miami. I want to go though and see and stay at all the nicest hotels and hang out on the beaches having a drink. Man if I knew what I was I was doing I would leave tonight and take a bus and a plane down their. I love how cities are twenty four hours per day and I love staying up late going to the store and getting something to drink and eat. I love it. I don't know what to think. Do you think you could break free on your phone and make a hundred grand to go down to Miami and hang out and sleep in a nice posh hotel with the ac full blast just snacking and enjoying yourself.

I live having money and trying to figure how to make money, I really need to bust my ass and see where this blog thing can take you. 

Right now I only have one hundred dollars and it supposed to last the whole money, so I need to figure out how to make more money.

If I could make a hundred grand per month I would buy homes all over the United States. 

I wonder if someone ever blogged all night and all day to break free with some cash, I wonder if people are doing this all over the country. I would love to break free with money as soon as possible.

I wanna want to travel the world and see new places but I need to find someone that has the money to travel with me or maybe I should just pay thier way too. I like meeting new people but I don't know how good of idea that is.

What else should I talk about. Should I start reading something to maybe garner some inspiration. I read some books and they seemed to lead me in some good directions but I don't really know what to say about them. I used to use so many drugs, Xanaxes and coke, beer all night long and hanging out talking. One kid kept going to court after staying up all night doing blow. I dont know how good of idea that is. I bet there is a ton of coke in Miami. Boy that would keep me up and I don't really know what to think about those times. I have been sober off that binge type partying for over ten years. I feel ok now but like I said I some days I still want to chase the high with a couple Rockstar energy drinks and a couple cigars. 

I have to get up at Eight in the morning and if I go to bed right now I will have eight hours of sleep, but something keeps telling me to stay up late and blog and see if I can break free with cash. I don't even know how that is going to happen. I wonder if I can rank a niche post that makes money. I wonder if I can make a niche site that makes money and I wonder if I can make it with a free domain. I wonder if someone made ten million dollars from a free domain? The basketball game just got over and the Sun's beat the Lakers by blowout.

I need to get the mentality that I have no choice but to make it. I need to have that drive. I need to be explosive and be resilient. I need to make it mandatory that I have to make it in the world with a woman and kids and my one house. My dad just chewed me out for not working hard enough. I can't take my dad worked so hard for his money and the railroad. He busted his ass, being on call all night long and making a living here. I really need to get my ass in gear and make a life for myself. I have to try harder and blog for eight hours per day. I know its about my bed time but maybe I should stay up late and blog for a while and see if I get any ideas. I just talked to my friend and he went to school for six years and now he works at a new company and has purchased his own house. He really is in his way. I need to get on my way and try my hardest to make it Ina city that never sleeps.

There's so much to be had out there and so many cool places to go. I want to get my own car and drive everywhere and stay in hotels. I wanna be happy too and I want to do things that make me happy. I have been watching some videos on David Goggins and he just runs and gets so fit and healthy and never stops moving, jogging in the middle of nowhere. I need to get back in shape and get to feeling good again. I may have some bad tendicies and I need to fix them, I need to break free and break down barriers.