How to stay motivated.

Are you trying to stay motivated and keep going? I am and I feel a little different about it and the way things are going. Instead of not having the energy, I do have the energy and that's leaves me with a way to think that I don't know where to start.

Have you evet had that problem where you don't know what to do but you need to make some money? I try all type of stuff and try to think of a way through and make some money. I dont know what to do with myself. I want to make something happen where I feel good everday. Something tells me blogging might make me some money. I should blog right hours per day. 

I want to travel but i don't know if it's safe to travel and meet me people. I traveled to Florida and it felt good, everybody was nice. It was a little hot and I don't know if anybody really went swimming but i did got a while.

The ocean looked kinda scary and I don't know if it was safe. But I went in thier for a little while. I like swimming. There were some pretty good looking woman in Florida and I wanted to stay but I ran short on money. I only went thier with five thousand dollars and I ran out and then I slept outside on the beach and that just wasn't cutting it so I called my mom and she bought me a bus ticket back to Colorado. I love Colorado as well and their is plenty of stuff to do. 

What else is thier to talk about. I really want to travel the world and I don't know what to do about it. I really want to go places and video tape places and talk about ideas and what to do around the world. I just don't know how to get thier right away. I think maybe I should cold call and see how it goes I know that I can make money over the phone talking to people. 

This is the street I am staying on, I really don't want to give up my location and but I have it OK. I'm in a board n lodge after I got in trouble I told the government I needed a place to sleep and they put me in mental health instead of letting me out and leaving me high and dry. I walked before when I got let out of jail and all I had was foodstamps money. I was buying food and Redbull from Walmart and I was trying to stay up with no place to sleep and it wasn't working. I didn't want to sleep outside and so I went back to the jail and told them I wanted back in, could you imagine. And they wouldn't let me back in so I just walked around all night. What I ended up doing was going to the Minnesota Gophers College and falling asleep the next day on a chair in the school. Next thing I know the janitor woke me up and a cop showed up and took me to a building with beds and everything in them. So I started sleep thier and it was OK I slept pretty good and stayed thier for a while. Then I walked outside and was hanging out. I was going to the library and walking around and the cops showed up again and they stuck me back I jail. Then I went to mental health and stayed a psychiatric ward with a bunch of kids my age. I was so scared of getting new charges I barely talked to anyone and I didn't know what to do. I should have tried to make friends. But I didn't and then after I was done thier I had to go to a care center and sit thier for three months and and learned from a handbook everyday and study about drugs and alcohol and talk amongst each other. Everyday I had to do to group classes and study and hangout and after that I could sit up thier watching MTV and hanging out. Boy was Rob Dyrdek on tv all day everyday with the show ridiculous and boy did I watch it. That group home only lasted for about three months. I wish I had been blogging through their the whole time but I just got a phone after I left and I don't know what to think. I did a have a phone for a little while but I traded it in for some smokes. Now while that was dumb all thier was to do around thier is smoke. And I don't wanna smoke any more. I want to get my life back on track and feel better about myself. While I was thier everybody smoked and went to the snone shop and I barely had any money because I could cash my check from the government and that was because I didn't have a ID or anything to prove who I was. So that really sucked and I don't know what to think about that. So I had no money and I had to weather it where I bummed some some all day and that really sucked. They would let me leave the property for more than an hour so I all day is run and walk a little bit and try to enjoy myself.

After I was done thier I moved to another city closer to Canada. They drove me up thier again in a armored car again and I had to sit and stay awake in the back seat. I don't know why they had to keep me so safe. Now I am at the board n lodge and I am just hanging out. I can walk around all I want and see the big cornfields and walk through town and go to the grocery store and enjoy myself and feel at ease. I like getting a pop to drink and all I have to do is be back by dinner time and have something to eat. I have cable TV in my room and they clean and wash my bedding every week and clean my room.

I am getting good ideas from blogging and want to write down how I have been feeling and how I am feeling with mental health and understanding that I need pills to feel ok. I don't know what to think about the pills I am taking. Here are a few I am taking and I'm not a hundred percent sure about them.

CAPLYTA

ZYPREXA 

HALDOL

ZOLOFT

These are just some of the pills I have been taking and I know thier is more I just don't remember the names of them. While I don't know if I should be talking about this it is depression that I am suffering from and I know thier are people out thier that need help. While some days I think I should be taking something stronger I go and get a run in and I feel alot better and I think I am OK again. I have to evercise and I have a basketball court down the street and I can go thier and shoot around. Let's see if I can find a photo. 

Nope can't find a photo but thier is my dog and my dad though hanging out by the or in the shed. That's my dog named Hannah and I really miss her and want to hang out with her. They might be coming down in a couple days to hang out and go some places. I want to go swimming and go fishing and I can't wait. I wanna travel around and see the landscape of Minnesota and the land of ten thousand lakes. Hopefully we can go out and find some cools places and enjoy ourselves and see what happens. 

While I'm not in the FBI I do have a app that makes it look like I do and that's all I can say. Thier are alot of cool apps in the marketplace and I like to go through the app market and see what's out thier for me to mess around with. I have crowded my phone with apps and I havent been able to get through them all and I have just been looking through them.

Should I keep posting pictures or what should I do. I don't even know if anyone even wants to read this and listen to me ramble on about my life and I don't really care either. 

Here is me acting like Eminem off the reface app where you can put your face on other peoples bodies and make you look like them. 

Have you ever sold anything on your blog and how long did it take to make that happen. I have signed up for Amazon affiliates and it's pretty cool that you can get traffic on your blog through typing and add little store icons that you can sell like you have your own little store to sell through. Who wouldn't want thier own store and sit thier and enjoy people buying from you with automatic shipping. 

Here is my dad and my dog again. She has been gaining a little weight and I think she needs to run it off.

Here is another photo where I put my FACE ON eminems body and while I don't think I'll be that famous it is kinda funny in its own little way. 

Here's is a picture of me going to play basketball or just dribble around and hang out and I like to put the videos with me rapping in the background where I can listen to the music as I watch myself dribble.

I don't know how to make music videos yet but I really want to and I think it will be cool and fun in its own little way. Do you know of any apps to make music videos on the phone and post them online!?  Right now I am using power director pro and I don't know how to use it very well and I need to learn.

What else is going on. I have just been hanging out and walking around town and seeing what's going on. I really want to sell little responsive websites through the Godaddy platform. Where I can have hundred of sites at my disposal. I still have to build some sites for other people. Maybe I should just focus on building sites just for myself and making money that way. I wonder if I can publish a free Godaddy web domain and get traffic and make money just by using the free site publisher. I will look through it and see what happens. I know that I should work eight hours a day on my blog so I can break free with some cash and start making money online. I just don't know what I should blog about for eight hours and I don't know how it will go. Can anyone even want to read a eight hour blog post and while it's boring to write it is easier than pouring concrete for eight hours per day. I know I need to buy a domain for this site and I don't have the money right off the bat but I figure eight hours a day blogging and writing might be good for me and I might start enjoying more and more everyday.

I will be moving in about a month and it will be interesting to see how things will go. I will have my own room and a spot to myself. If I just make some money I will be free to travel the world and maybe I should find some people to travel with and see the world with. I don't really know what to think. I have friends but I don't know what to think and I haven't talked with them in a while and I don't know what or where to go with them. How am I going to write a eight hour blog post and who would even read such a long post and where should I go with it and how should I feel about it. I know in due time blogging will make money and I want to put in eight hours per day and I want to make it happen all on my phone and enjoy myself. Can you please tell me can your make a million dollars just from your phone and what would you do to make it happen. It sucks so bad not having any money coming in and have no place to go with yourself. I use to just hoop all day and it made no money and I know it wasnt the right way to go and even though I struggle for money I felt good at the end of the day getting that exercise. But it just wasn't make me any money. I love basketball and wanted to join the Colorado Kings basketball team and play for them. I don't think they get paid very well but I don't really know and while I love basketball I have a knee injury that I need to get fixed and that's a problem all it own. I tore my meniscus, my PCL and my MCL and I really want to get it fixed. I have been talking to or I did talk to a hospital, Sanford sports medicine and asked them how much will it cost and they said they need all the documents I have when I got the mri at the hospital and other documentation. 

I want to start running more and while my knee dosent hurt as much as it did I can really play tackle football and I don't want to get hurt by people way stronger than me while I play basketball.

So what else is going on. I have been trying to run more everyday. Or I mean sprint. I walk a block and then I sprint a block and then I walk a block and then I sprint a block and that's pretty much how things go and I feel ok when I'm done and I dont know what to think about.

I wonder what people think about all day in thier homes and do they ever think about busting out of thier homes into a even bigger home by working at things that make money and what do you think makes money. What can you do on your phone that makes money? Here is what I came up with.

Facebook live and make your own videos cache of photos and videos on your site. Maybe you should make a Facebook page and start loading little videos on thier. I was thinking of a doing YouTube live and messing around with that, but I need a thousand followers or subscriber before I can even go live on YouTube. What else can I do. I can blog. Like I'm doing now. I have made videos on my phone and uploaded them to YouTube but I don't know how that works when Noone wants to watch. How can I get a thousand subscriber on YouTube to do YouTube live and try and make some money.

I like watching some of the basketball videos online and that is a good time and I might click on one or two in a bit. I know I need to make bigger blog post but I know thier has to be another way to make money from your phone.