Pray

Can you clear out a room of bad energy?

Can you pray for sanctification.

I like being positive.

I want to feel better.

I want to clear out bad energy.

Do you think their is anything that will help.

Some days I just feel like I should be sitting outside.

I got a meeting today with my counselor.

Will have to see how that goes.

I really need to make some money.

I could use it.

It's the end of the month and I get a little tiny paycheck and I have to make that last.

I love drinking soda pop.

I love one when I first wake up in the morning.

So anyways.

What can you do but pray. 

Tractor pull today..........

So what do you know.

I'm at a tractor pull.

It's cool.

It's OK.

Not much else to do around here.

I don't know what to think.

What can we do but just blog. 

They won't like you.

So life goes on and it's ok.

Premonitions kinda suck.

A stupid movie comes to mind.

Final destination.

Whatever though.

I just gaurd myself from trouble.

I'm looking for a good outsourcer on Fivver.

I think my sister might help me out.

We will have to wait and see. 

Drone Strikes on the news.

What do you think about drones?

Crazy to think about.

I started a drone store.

Denverdronestore.wordpress.com

Not to much to it.

Think I will make money?

I dont know. 

So I'm staying up late.

Are you still up?

I can't sleep and yet I'm tired.

I just turn the TV on and now there's a movie on called Unbroken.

It looks like people got taken hostage and now they are under enemy control.

I wonder how many poeple get led into this position and God leads them out.

People in some of these stories really had a crazy time understanding a new a new way of living

I mean I don't know what God is doing in my life.

I don't know what to think.

I don't ever want to be in a bad situation but like the saying goes - Take the good with the bad and don't throw the.baby out with the bath water. 

So here we are again and I'm trying to make a big name site.

So here we are.

I'm working with wordpress.

Is it going to work for me and how's it gonna look.

I know I need to bust my ass and make it work.

Maybe spend a couple days a weeek to keep me going.

I need something to get me rolling every day.

I'm starvin for a redbull.

I also want some Diet Pepsi.

Should that happen.

I dont know.

My phone keyboard is tough to use.

I really want to become a proficient blogger and make somwthing happen.

I want something good to happen.

I want to make it in this world with money.

I want to drive around the world.

If I knew marketing maybe j could sell fifteen rvs and get one to use and one in money so that I can go everywhere.

That would be fun. 

That would be a blast.

Think that will work.

I just dont know really.

I wanna play basketball but I know I need my own money to play.

You think that will work?

I mean big money blogging.....

Isn't that what it says online.

Anyways.

I have a big site coming out and I hope it takes off. 

I would love to grow it and see it succeed. 

It gives me anxiety.

It gives me hope.

It gives me inspiration. 

People want to meet people.

People want to enjoy themselves.

They love sports.

So now I need a huge blog to rule the world.

The big city lights is so enticin. I want to live in downtown metro somewhere making little raps up and blogging and hooping.

Think that will fly?

I don't know but small town people can be shitty.

Can I get whatever I want in this world?

Will that work?

Can I make a blog post that makes ten thousand per day?

Is that even possible.

I want to look good with money.

I need money and that would help.

My parents work thier asses off for money and here I am blogging.

Maybe I should hop on the computer and see what I can do with that.

I mean is that a good idea?

It hurts so bad not having any money.

Theres football games and basketball games and concerts to go to.

I mean that would be fun wouldnt it now.

I don't know what the heck to think. I mean I need to catch a break.

Try harder, that's all I hear is try harder.

GO harder and be smarter.

Do something great with your life.

Now how the heck can we do that?

I don't know but I'm not exactly writing content that people want to read.

I mean this sucks.

I'm sitting downstairs watching some oldies television. And that's fun.

Keep going though, keep trying to make things happen.

Make something happen with your life.

Can we do that?

Can we make that happen?

I want a soda, I wanna do Yoga, I w at to hoop and I want to rap.

Frickin a.

Maybe I should go upstairs and work with Amazon.

Maybe ebooks on Kindle publishing is a better idea for money. I have no drive and I need drive. This phone and blog need to work for me.

The news is on and we are leaving Afghanistan and it's pretty deadly. Twelve soldiers died as we are trying to get out of the country. What in the heck were we doing over thier anyway. But what happens if we get attacked, what will we do.

I donf know.

I need to make money or I'm going homeless. I have to make that dinero. Boy do I need some money.

Make a big long post and see if it ranks. To bad I'm not that knowledgeable in anything.

I mean what in the world is going on? 

OK I just asked my mom for some money for soda and a Rockstar. I didn't tell her that was what I was buying though.

My dad said he has never had an energy drink in his life. I have had a ton and I don't want to stop drinking them. I want one everyday. And I don't want to quit. 

So you know how that's goes. 

One thing though is I am getting the vibe that I look better on water. 

I know it's true. 

What do you think. 

Can you look good on energy drinks? 

I dont know but I really want one. 

And they don't sound that bad right now. 

I'm dying for one.  I'm so sleepy. 

Why am I so sleepy, I don't know. 

So what now?

Don't know what to think.

What do we think.

I just roam around and I am not very special at anything.

Am I good at anything?

I used to take adderall and dribble for hours late into the night practicing.

But I still don't have the best handles.

Some people are just built that way I guess.

I'm super tired everyday and ordered some Rockstar energy drinks to sip on. I'm not supposed to have any bur I dont care. Not because I am sick, but the staff here dosent want me having any. If I don't have one or an soda I then I end up having no energy and I want energy to blog.

Been watching the Professor Live on YouTube and he's pretty good.

I wonder if they play hard or do they just mess around and put on a show.

I tried out for the Aba live and didn't make the team.

I know there are teams I can play with and get signed with but I don't have the money to go and tryout. So I guess I will just blog. 

I wanted to advertise the Aba live and thought I should just tryout or I mean just advertise in a local city.

I hate how I feel that I don't have the money to do the stuff I want and travel around making money.

Maybe I should start working on Amazon. Maybe I should do ebooks and sell products and see how it goes.

I might need a bank account.

I tried to buy or sign up for one and start doing Amazon.

It sucks so bad not having any money.

Not any of my posts rank.

This sucks.

But what can I do.

I know if I just keep this blog going I might break free with places to go.

What do you think.

I have been running two or three hours per day and it just seems like I'm fit and the runs don't feel like they are doing anything.

It's running I mean raining. And so what. So what to think. I still want to swim and fish. 

Maybe I should go read some books on Kindle. 

It's ok to read on my phone. 

I mean what can you do. 

What's there to think about.

I was reading about blogging and they said three hundred to six hundred posts were normal. Will they get traffic?

I don't know.

I don't know what to think.

Their is also a mention of writing a ten page post and that might rank for longer.

Do you ever think that the phone or smartphone and internet is just being read and then regurgitatwd into a new blog post.

I mean what are we supposed to think?

I don't know what to think.

I jogged for about a hour today.

Not very far but what can you do.

Just he nice to everybody.

That's my motto.

Some people can get on my nerves and I have to just take it in stride. 

Funny thing their is alot of gossip going around and I better just keep my knose out of it. 

Should I blog or should I rap?

I don't know. I want to freestyle rap for a little while but I don't want anyone to hear me.

I have sat there in my room freestyling and some of or one of that staff heard me and yelled upstairs and said can you please keep it down.

Now..........

Maybe that was moment that I would be someone great in hip hop music or maybe I just suck.

I want to rap for at least two hours per day.

I want to get good at freestyling and hop on stage and bust a few concerts for people to go to.

I have no network in rap. I know really no people in the music.

But I do have a phone and I can send my music out to famous artists and I don't know if that will work. Maybe they will like me and maybe they harasse because I sound like an idiot.

I don't know.

What I do know is I have some passion and maybe that's all you need. You don't need the biggest, I mean you don't need to be the biggest and the baddest to. Succeed.

I don't need all the money I just need a couple hundred hundred thousand per year to have a nice life. 

I mean is that so much to ask? 

Slim Shady raps.

So I'm listening to some Slim Shady.

Is that OK?

I don't know, sometimes it hypes me up to do something.

I just dont know what.

I ordered some redbull from Amazon and I can't wait to get it.

I mean I'm dying for an energy drink and I really want one.

People are idiots.

I just dont know what to think.

I'm bout to have a cup of coffee.

I kinda feel bad for some the guys here, their old and can't go anywhere.

I mean all they can do is hang out all day with nowhere to go.

That would really suck.

I want a car so bad and I need a job for that if my stupid blog will not make some money.

I mean it sucks with no money and I gotta make some money.

I can't get a job here because there is nowhere to work here in town.

This just really sucks.

I wanna go back to Colorado and chill, there are some pretty woman in Denver and Florida has some beautiful women as well. 

So nobody has a phone?

Well. Not much to say.

Does everyone have a phone.

I know that they are pricy.

My mind be on some other stuff.

You know what I mean.

I got drafts that need published and I'm doing all this from my phone.

All from my phone, posting photos.

I like having a Ggogle account to save all my information.

It's really fricking cool.

And that's just how it rolls.

I wish I would have just stuck to using Google to build sites and save them and build mobile apps.

Am I getting off track and I know I should be just blogging, but I feel like I want to make something would WordPress.

Should I would I could I?

I don't know.

Many things to think about.

I think my car got stolen and they gave me a different one.

That's really sucks.

I wondered if I knew someone that knew this was true.

You think the dealership is stealing the car back and I really don't want to think about that.

This is just sucks.

I have no real home and everything that I buy gets stolen and I don't know who steals it.

Thoudand of dollars in clothes and Jordan shorts.

I mean I can't make sense of it.

And I wonder how that works.

Some people steal like crazy.

I wonder how long I have to live with nothing.

How long does it take to blog to something.

Blog to an income. Blog to money. 

Making digital products? What the heck does that mean.

I don't know what a digital product is since I'm supposed to sell them online.

I can't figure it out.

I have no idea what kind of digital product I should I design and I don't even have nothing to sell.

What about membership sites. What am I gonna even talk about.

What am I even gonna want to charge for?

I don't know..........

Dont know what to think.

What I do know is doing the right things.

I don't want to get sick when I get old and I don't want to get Covid when I'm young.

Some things I can praise God about that I'm not sick.

I hope God keeps me safe.

What's more important anyways.

Trying to make money.

It's hard.

Following Jesus that's hard.

Doing what he wants me to do everyday it's hard.

Why?

I don't know what to do about Jesus.

I don't know what to do about money.

I wanna go places.

Will Jesus let me travel.

I'm not a perfect Christian but I'm so banged up from fights and tackle football and other sports I want to be protected. I wanna feel safe.

Does that make sense?

I'm hungry for knowledge and It makes sense that I search for it. I love to day dream but in don't know if that's what God wants.

I just don't know what to think and that's why I want to blog and talk about it.

I know I don't know what to really sell as a digital product, maybe I can write some books in Amazon Kindle and sell thoughts, are those digital products.

I don't know.

I try to read my Bible first thing in the morning and it's too hard so I read it in the evening.

You know it just seems like nothing works in my favor.

It seems that I am always in trouble with dilemmas every where I think.

I just don't know what to think about.

How do I stay safe and how do I stay commited.......... 

Pile drive your way out of poverty?!!

Can you pile drive your way out of poverty?

Can you take massive and decisive action?

Is this really possible?

Can we get out of poverty using solely our phone.

I am trying and usingy phone and I don't know what to think.

There more excited I am for something the weirder it gets.

I have to train all day and try to make something out of myself.

But a pro blogger?

I don't know and I don't know what to think.

I want a soda and I want one now.

I'm thirsty for caffeine.

Is that even possible.

To have caffeine right now.

Boy do I want a soda.

I'm scared my parents are gonna die before I give them any money. 

I'm sick of thinking I need to write a ten page post every time I start to blog. 

Work and there's nothing to it.

So. I ordered some Rockstar from Amazon and I'm not supposed to have none and here. I am I can barely type.

I know I'm not supposed to have none but I can't just sleep all day.

I want them bad and I like how I feel on them.

This is rough typing on the phone.

And I don't know what to do about it.

I just turned the light on.

I can see better now but it is still tough to type.

Can I get good at it? 

Looking THROUGH Google Play.

Have you scanned Google Play for hours.

I haven't but I have scanned through it for a couple minutes at a time.

My phone is full of me downloading apps.

I noticed that there are some really cool apps out there and I like downloading them and playing them.

I go through phases.

I wanted to cut and edit video and then I wanted to play games after that.

I guess it just depends what kind of mood I'm in.

I want to be productive.

I want to make money from my phone.

I don't know what apps to use.

And I need to find that out.

And what can you do.

You just keep going.

Keep searching for answers.

Is it worth it in the end?

Did we leave a legacy or did follow a religion.

Some people want to figure things out, solve mysterys and some people just wanna follow thier religion.

Who is to know.

I dont know.

I wanna run and hoop and make music and blog.

There is nothing else for me to do. 

OK what else aby mobile apps that are cool?

What's one of the coolest apps out thier? I don't know but Cash App is pretty cool.

Should I even write this post?

Idk........... 

It sound kinda corny to me but I do want to use Cash App.

You can send and receive money.

You start trading with just one dollar.

You can trade Bitcoin with just one dollar.

You know what sucks though is I am just not a hard enough worker if I work on my own.

And something keeps me wanting to or needing to keep blogging.

Should I time it and spend eight hours on the computer. 

I can make websites and use Cashapp to send and receive  money. 

I want to make some money. 

This friends and family technique in which you ask for money like Amway is just not a good enough money. I mean it would make me feel like an idiot. 

And I don't want to feel like a complete idiot. 

And that would suck. 

I already ask my dad for some money and that sucks. I feel bad. I asked my mom for money and that sucks. Even though these are streams of money they are not my idea of a good idea. 

So it goes. 

But I really like the Cash app and will have to see how I can get money in it. 

This shouldn't be to hard. 

You know how I will do it? 

I can cold call and request money. 

I can do AMAZON Kindle and see if I can sell a few books. 

That might make me a little money even though my dad freaked out and didn't want me to do it. Yet he didn't have any money for me and I'm deppressed if I don't have any money. 

So it goes... 

. 

Spacebook One

On I just played Dead Trigger and had to fight some zombies.

Should I start playing with apps and games in the app market and see if anyone is interested?

I don't see that many blogs or websites that talk about the app market.

Nothing I could find.

Maybe I will take another look.

Dead Trigger 2 I just played.

It's an OK game might go through it alittle more later.

Zombie Fighter game.

Just tried to find on Google search on my phone to see if thier are any blogs that's discuss mobile apps in the app market and not just advice on how to make a mobile app.

While thinking about making mobile apps is cool. It's not like talking about the cool apps that are already in the app market and especially the games.

Let's see if I can pull the screen record in tried to make with my phone.

OK I don't know how to find the screen record I made with screen recorder that's already on my phone.

But I do have this cool photo of a Skull thats a shaver and you can shave your head with it.

OK I can't take screen shots yet will look through it more.

I'll come back later and start discussing apps in the app market. 

Are you bored? I don't know...........

Money's gotta come my way at some point........... Don't you think........

I just blog.

Scared of the web...

Anyone have any bad experiences.

I'm terrified of going outside and I don't know what to think.

I'm scared.

I don't feel safe.....

I must have to ride this one out trusting God.

Trust God.

Life can get scary.

Should I start calling the cops. 

They will probably start throwing me In jail.

You think social media is a good idea to talk about your problems. 

Blogging seems safe, least nooone will read. It lol... 

I've been through quite a few fights and I'm sick of reading scripture everyday to keep me out the way. 

Dont know what to think. 

I wanna rap but I don't want any bad Karma. 

Wouldn't it be awesome to hop on stage and rock a whole.crowd.

That would be bomb. 

Do you love getting robbed? 

I have nothing to show for all the hours I worked and busted my ass to make money. 

Absolutely nothing to show for it. 

Who else can I talk to about this. 

God loves weak and meekness. 

I'm weak and I'm trying to be strong. 

I wanna rap and make music. 

I don't want bad feedback. 

I don't know what to think...... 

Life and premonitions are a funny thing. 

How do we keep everybody safe. 

I'm scared of my parents dieing. 

My roommate is like sixty and and his mom is still around and she still drives. 

Life's funny. 

You never know what your gonna get. 

I wanna make some money. 

Blogging?............ 

Running............ 

Typing......... 

Listening to rap music.

Is it safe............ 

People are mean and unfriendly. 

Dont know what to think. 

Dont wanna read scripture all day. 

Will I die if I don't go Christian. 

We have to go Christian to feel safe? 

I really wanna rap and I don't think they really mix. 

Maybe I should start cold calling........... 

Let's check out my other phone and see if it still works.......... 

OK it need to charge. 

Nothing like hopping in the phone and cold calling. 

Marketing? 

What about building my own business and market with that. 

I mean grow my own business and not worry about monitoring customers accounts. 

It kinda sucks. 

Cold calling. 

Who should we talk to. 

Just getting started. 

Just getting motivated. 

Who came up with sports?

Have you ever wondered who invented different kind of sports?

I dont know I suppose we can Google it.

Let's go and check it out.

OK here we are with the inventor of basketball.

The history of basketball began with its invention in 1891 in Springfield, Massachusetts by Canadian physical education instructor James Naismith as a less injury-prone sport than football. Naismith was a 31-year old graduate student when he created the indoor sport to keep athletes indoors during the winters.^[1] The game became established fairly quickly and grew very popular as the 20th century progressed, first in America and then in other parts of the world. After basketball became established in American colleges, the professional game followed. The American National Basketball Association (NBA), established in 1946, grew to a multibillion-dollar enterprise by the end of the century, and basketball became an integral part of American culture. 

Looks pretty interesting. Who could even come up with such an idea. 

Asking your parents for money. How does it feel?

So I asked my mom and dad for money tonight or today.

I don't know what to think.

I feel bad.

In top if that I'm ugly and I don't think my parents want me anywhere around them.

But like I said I asked for money.

I wanted to use the cash app and I went down to the gas station and asked the clerk if my mom could pay for my stuff over the phone with a debit card.

I dont know how good a idea that is.

But I did it anyway.

I dont even know if it will even work as I probably jinxed myself by writing this post.

But what do you know.

Redemption.

We make mistakes and learn from everyone.

I know I need to work and make my own way in this world.

I dont know what to think.

I have no kids and I'm too ugly and nobody wants me and the state government has to take care of me and that's what it is.

I don't know what to think.

I want six Rockstar and a case of Diet coke to drink.

I hate going without a coke during the day, it keeps me energized. 

Mindfulness meditation and how does it work.

So I am trying to make this work.

I have been doing mindfulness meditation for quite a while now and we have a group based on it.

I don't know what to think?

Or should we be thinking at all.

I noticed at group that my mind wants to wander and hallucinate.

I day dream and don't know what to think.

I wanna make money but how does that work.

Here are son keys.

Mindfullness - if you see your mind start to hallucinate bring it back to what's going on around you in real life and pay attention to what people are saying.

Money - I had a epiphany the other day and here is what I noticed. My money sources aren't that good and I need to pay attention to who I am using to get money. Mom and dad, other poeple around me.

Who should I get money from?

Maybe this blog, Amazon, a job, Craigslist......

I don't really know.

But think about it.

Do you like where you are getting money from.

Pay attention and watch things change for you. 

OK what to think about today?

So maybe I should run a little more today and see how I feel.

I don't have any money right now and I really need a soda.

I want to drink soda everyday.

Six even and a gallon of water.

Is that wrong?

I don't really know.

Feel funny though.

I wonder how people's life just takes off.

They music their media just takes off.

I guess it takes hard work and dedication.

I don't know.

I asked my dad for some money.

Is that wrong.

I mean I don't know what to think.

I only get a hundred dollars per month.

It's not enough. 

Life is funny.

I want to chill in downtown Las Vegas and stay in a hotel and smoke some grass.

That's would be fun.

I seen two chains do it.

There is just nothing else to do.

I need to get a girl and some money.

There's so many people out their.

What to think.

I just dont really know.

I gotta make something happen.

But what though.

It's a Monday.

I have to make some money.

Before I jumped right for money.

A Craigslist Gig or a Kindle book.

I don't think my parents want me anywhere near em.

I want to hustle out and get a car.

I don't even know if I should post this as it is nothing but me whinin.

Whine whine whine.

What can you do? 

Need inspiration?

While I don't always know how to find inspiration and if we do where will it take us?

Sometimes reading can give me inspiration.

Maybe I need to read more.

Will go check out Google Books.

Maybe I can make something happen and will find a way to make some money.

I don't know.... 

Is there a highrise apartment for me?

I don't know but I wouldn't mind moving to New York and see how it goes.

I could hide around town and go to movies, get a cup of coffee, Blog....

I know I need to get on the computer and spend eight to ten hours per day.

I know I need to get back in shape as well.

I just don't know what to think.

I really want an ice coffee and enjoy my night.

Am I doing God's will or what's going on?

I don't really know.

I have to get it togther and how do I do it.

I just don't really make sense of it all.

How much is a highrise apartment cost in New York.

I don't know but let's go check.

So how much does it cost, maybe three to five thousand per month.

That's a little more than what I have right now. 

I know people are trying to make me feel bad again. 

If I had money I would clean myself up and see where life takes me. 

I'm not very attractive and I need to do something about it. 

I mean I just have to break free and make myself look good. 

How am I going to do that. 

I don't know yet. 

...... 

Are you watching the UFC?

I have no friends) but I have the UFC.

I HAVE THE NFL.

I HAVE THE  FIRST FORTY EIGHT

I HAVE JOGGING

I HAVE GOOD RUNNING SHOES.

I HAVE FOOD EVERYDAY.

I HAVE A BASKETBALL. COURT

I HAVE MY PHONE WITH MUSIC

I HAVE A LAPTOP

I HAVE CLEAN CLOTHES

I HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE

Bombin on them..........!

So I'm bombin posts but maybe not really though.

Do you know how to make good or awesome title tags.

Good titled posts.

How do you make a good titled posts.

I mean after blogging for so long I just bomb a title and see what it does.

Why would Google even rank this post.

It sucks.

Can you imagine bombin a post and then typin in the title of your posts and seeing it rank in search on your phone?

Can you even imagine something so cool.

UFC is on tonight and NFL preseason is on tonight with the Vikings playing the Indianapolis Colts.

Are the Vikings good while I'm chilling in Minnesota?

We don't know, let's go check. So it's a commercial.

Make your own way in life. Have your dad or mom ever told you that?

They did it to me and texted my dad tonight and he hasn't said anything back.

I'm on my own now and the government wonders why I can't make it on my own.

I don't know.

I really want to go back to Denver and live.

I need a hundred thousand per year from working online.

I did marketing and I know it's a money make but I really want to build my own company.

I want a company that makes money on its own.

What should I do?

I don't know.

People are mean.

I hate how poeple try to ruin my life for no apparent reason. 

Thier mean to me.

And it goes all the way up the food chain. 

You just can't tame the world.

You have to keep calm and be responsible.

We have to make it in the world or should we just focus on serving God.

I don't get it.

I know God is different. 

I want money because I need money for fines and rent and food and a car. 

While you might say that's not important but I have been without for at least five years.

It's time to move on, it's time to get going. 

I think about God everyday but I'm getting deppressed and I need to get out and drive around.

So here I am not understanding the internet and commenting, also I stole four cans of soda out of the fridge and I might be in big trouble.

Think they will notice and will they call the cops?

I owe them four dollars and I really want to steal my creatine out the back and sip some of it. I want to get rolling.

I'm studying WordPress right now and it's kinda hard but I'm figuring it out right now.

I don't know what to do.

Dont feel that comfortable right now.

Do I want to try and put up a bug name site and hide or put someone in charge of it.

I don't know what to think.

I dont know what people will think and boy do I want a energy drink right now or some money to buy some sodas.

Should I blog more.

Maybe.

My commenting and knowledge of the web has not been that great. Like asking what Seo is and how it works. I know it's Search Engine Optimization. But what is it really.

We try to add keywords in certain places and what not. I need to make search engine index my website and my data.

I don't get it.

We have to rank.

We have to look good online.

So here are so problems.

Do a website for some guy and or I mean do a mobile website for some guy and all of a sudden he dosent rank anymore. That would suck.

Sell so much of the users product that they run out and then in turn run our of money.

That would suck.

So I guess their is something to it.

So I guess I have to study longer.

Maybe take some Google courses.

Maybe rank online and make a full time income.

Uhh ohhh

Cherios..... 

Are you the only one that is anxious?

Should we be anxious?

How should we feel?

I don't know but after waking up to the world I see there is plenty of people insecure about a job interview or meeting someone new.

I don't know.

What I do know is I snagged a couoke sodas out the fridge and I didn't pay for them.

Am I trustworthy? What happens when I steal and what do I do.

I don't feel that good about it.

But what I did do is go take a poop and grabbed some reading material.

What is it?

A simple explanation of Christianity.

What does it say?

It was written in 1529 by Martin Luther.

What am I reading?

You shall not steal. The seventh commandment.

What does that mean? We should fear and love God so that we do not take our neighbors money or possessions, or get them in an I honest way, but help him to improve and protect his possessions and income.

What does that mean?

It means I must liked getting rob.

If you rob someone dont hey have to rob and steal just to stay alive?

I don't know.

The fourth caommandment.

Honor your father and mother. 

What does this mean?

We should fear and love God so that we do not despise or anger our parents and other authorities, but honor them serve and obey them, love and cherish them.

So we listen to God and not our parents?

Should we listen to our parents or should I listen to God.

Is God really talking to me? 

So I wanna have fun.. Can you make enough money from Blogger to live in a downtown home?

I want to live down town somewhere. Preferably Denver Colorado and I don't know how to get the money and what do I do about it. This stupid blog is going to work after thinking some blogger is psychic to me and wants me to make the money from Blogging.

I don't know.

I don't know.

It sucks having no money and hanging out with no money and trying to make money.

Me typing on my phone keyboard is supposed to take me somewhere?

I dont really know...... 

Still woopin people in Basketball.

OK....

So some people think I suck at basketball and that's sucks.

But I'm really not that bad and I can woop some asses.

I've been watching people on YouTube hoop and I wonder if I went down their with some money and started hooping them up.

Why don't more teams or players try to schedule games with some of these teams online.

I mean getting to watch you woop some people and see it on YouTube. 

Cold calling and building your agency..........

Hello world.

Do I know how to make an app yet?

No...

But I have designed my own web agency and used to cold call.

Cold calling works?

It's the only way to make some money. I guess. Unless you know a different way.

I don't.

Maybe I should learn to make apps.

Maybe we should learn to make something that makes money and there has to be a way.

The phone has nothing but money making videos and tutorials on how to make money.

Youtube ads are on all the time with people pushing ways to make money.

I mean it's full of ideas.

Maybe we should make use of it?

But.....

Maybe they won't make money for us it will just make them money.

Maybe it will maybe it won't.

I don't know.

Who even wants to read this blog. 

What was something I wanted to do?

Maybe make a company on Fivver and have them make me a website, design me a few apps and have them cold call for me.

Think that will work?

Let's go check and see if I can..........

OK I can see that Fivver does offer cold calling services and I have yet to try them but I don't know maybe they will work.

I know people want big money in return just making a nice life with a decent amount of money in return is all you need.

I mean what else can I say.

I don't know....

Should I make a site with them and order a website and some mobile apps, maybe I should. 

So am I doing something?

I mean what is there to do. We have to do something.

One hour of doing something is ten hours better than thinking about it.

What's there to think about.

We need inspiration.

We need patience.

We have to figure out a way through.

We have to study, we have to meditate, we have dream, we have to learn, we have to exercise.

We have to make good movements towards the future.

We have to be better.

We have to be smarter.

But why?

Maybe the real question is how do we get better than everyone else.

I won't to get so much done before I get old.

Do we follow are dreams?

Are we moving in the right direction when we do that? 

Focus

I have to focus and not look at Facebook.

I have to grow my blog.

I'm getting faster at typing on my blog.

I'm doing it on my phone.

I want to get really good on my phone.

What else is there to do but mess around on my phone.

I don't know but I need to make some money and what do I need to do it is make my phone make money.

I really need to make money and I hope it makes it that real quick. 

Who are we here and what keeps us alive and why do we search so hard for money?

We live by the grace of God.

How do we stay alive.

How long will I live and what do we need to think about.

Can we serve God and Money and how is that going to work.

I don't know how to make a dime.

All I do is blog and nobody wants to read it.

I was reading New York Times and was looking at the Afghan war or whatever it is, they are wild and I don't know that much about it but Shariah Law seems pretty important to them. They are all walking around with huge guns and wow that looks dangerous.

But what can you do.

You just keep reading and studying and trying to make a way in the world. We have this phone with tons of news sites and what can you do but read.

Do you think I could make this blog like a news site and post pictures and video and words of how i see the world. I mean that's what the phone is for isn't it?

Isn't pretty? I took a jog around town and down some dirt roads and I really enjoyed the beautiful landscape.

It's pretty outside at sunset.

It's a great place to run. 

Wake up and do something.

Are we really making sense of everything.

English Bulldogs only live for eight to ten years. That's a pretty short life span.

What is really going on here and what are we supposed to think.

I don't know what to think.

I know I need to read the Bible more and I don't know what to think.

I know that's what I need to be in this world.

I need to make sense of it all.

We need to make sense.

I don't know.

I wish I was walking in downtown Denver Colorado with money going to a coffee shop and watching the news. There are so many places to go in Denver Colorado to get a good cup of coffee and blog. I really like blogging more.

I know I need to do some guided meditation and see where it takes me.

I want to sit in meditation everyday at least for a half hour.

That's would be a good amount of time.

What else is going on and what do you think.

I'm watching cold case files and who knows who these people are.

I mean what else is thier to think.

I'm thinking what should I blog about.

I got a cup of coffee but I don't really think it taste that good. 

Basketball.

I can't wait to get knee surgery and start hopping again.

I really want to start getting back in shape in ways you can imagine.

I want to juke and speed up and juke and dribble and go up for a dunk.

I dont know.... 

I still run and I don't know what to think. 

I like running.

Maybe five miles per day or even sometimes ten.

I mean what else is there to do. 

OK are we making sense of our blog titles and how is that supposed to work and it dosent work and it drives me crazy.

Who are you?

I mean who are you really?

Does that make sense.

I mean who are you, I know who I am none.

I have no idea.

All I do is hang around and watching TV, the government gives places to sleep and it's not so bad. They feed me. 

They keep me healthy and it's better sitting on the couch with nothing.

They give me a little money every week I mean every month and everythinh works out OK.

I love sipping a soda everyday.

I love having a redbull or a Rockstar and sitting back and writing something stupid or brilliant or what ever. 

So........... How are you today?

Blogging.

Got a meeting here today in 45 minutes and I don't know what to think.

I wonder what types of things they want me doing today.

Before she had me doing guided meditation, yoga and deep breathing.

Is that good.

It feels good but it feels like I have to ease into it.

You know what I'm saying. 

You have to know what I'm saying.

Think I'm gonna turn in the news now.

Watch some news about the Taliban and Afghanistan.

Should be interesting.

I want to move back to a bug city and watch the news. I love sitting their on a cup of coffee and watching TV.

Biden wants our troops out of Afghanistan.

That's the only thing interesting on tv right now. 

Is blogging worth a dime?

What now.

Everybodies pullin me in a different direction.

I don't have a job.

I just blog.

It isn't that hard and what do you know it's supposed to be worth all this money online.

Blog to millions.

What can you do.

I feel funny.

Dont know why.

What should I do about it.

I'm listening to rap music or hip hop.

I don't know what to think.

I'm hungry and Im hungry for money.

I don't know what to think.

I'm thinking I might start getting on the phone and talking to people about money and marketing.

Won't that be fun.

I really need the money.

Nothing is gonna work if I don't get my money and I gotta do what makes the money and that's getting on the phone and start talking.

There's money moving.

People are jealous. 

Dont want to be rebellious.

Make something out of your life.

I mean what can you do.

Write.

You can write and you can stay hungry writing. You can keep goin in life and see what happens. You can stay alive just to see what's going on. 

We just keep going and stay calm. 

We can jog.

We can sip soda and be happy.

I love a cold soda when I'm outside for so long.

I should run.

I should get some exercise.

I mean what else is their to do.

I might get a part time job and see what happens. 

We need to make money.

I have to make money.

Sunny days.

Is keeping in shape really worth it.

Do you got to look good the whole way through. 

So I'm not making any money and it's driving me crazy.

Hoq do I get more cash and what do I have to do?

Craigslist ads?

Amazon Kindle.

These are the only two ways I can think about making money and having a life here where I can go sit in a air conditioned McDonald's and enjoy myself with the sweet nectar of a Cola Cola and succulent fries and a scrumptious Big Mac.

Dosent that sound good.

I moving in a couple weeks and they have a A and W and a Dairy Queen and a Subway.

Subway dosent sound to bad right now.

They also have a pizza and Mexican restaurant.

Who knows what I be eating.

But it's kinda hard to eat with no money and I don't know what to do about money.

Should I give up on blogging.

I get no views and nobody wants to hear the bulls hit I have to say. 

How is everything?

You ever get on Facebook messeng and try to meet woman?

Or men?

I haven't tried but it did cross my mind.

There are some pretty girls online in Facebook and I dare myself to meet one.

Some want me to send them a hundred dollar gift card and I haven't yet but I am thinking about it.

Why would Mark Zuckerberg make such a idea happen?

I don't know.

But it's interesting to say the least.

There are so many beautiful woman online and I don't know what to think.

I try chatting with some from time to time and I don't know what to say.

Having trouble falling asleep.

I'd everything OK?

I think I drank to many sodas and I can't sleep.

I don't know what to think.

I'm getting it and I toss and turn.

Sodas...

No energy drinks

Have to quit.

Nothing in TV.

I sit in the quiet.

I'm blinking off a eye irratation.

Can't see that well.

What can you do?

Good night..... 

Are you making money and what are you doing for it?

Have you ever thought someone else was shadowing you to heavily. I don't know, but what I do is people want to know how to make money.

And how do we do that?

Work a nine to five.

We have a job that never ends.

This is tough to talk about because my dad worked the whole way through at the railroad.

Forty some years.

I could barely keep a job for three years before I quit and thought I should follow my dreams. What dreams is what he would say.

Pipe dreams.

Ha.....

Maybe they are but what can you do.

You gotta do something. I'm not the type to want to sleep all day.

I just can't do it.

I'm trying to change my brain to think positive, let the good Lord lead us. 

Think God has gotten me to write this post.

Am I gonna be OK.

I have to go about my business.

What did I do?

I started my own web agency.

I started my own Ecommerce stores.

I started my own blog.

I made money selling on Amazon.

These are just a few things I do to make money online.

YouTube is full of ads of people that want to teach you how to make money and live the life of your dreams.

It might work.

Cold Calling could put you on an island.

You could have a good life cold calling.

Can we have a good life blogging I don't know.

I don't know what to think.

I know I have to focus on the money or do I. 

Does God even want me having any money.

We don't know.

I guess we will have to find out. 

Getting blog vibes.

Should I be blogging I mean what the heck is the point.

No interesting content.

Nothing really to say.

Not worth a while lot of money.

Not blogging for eight hours per day.

Huh

..........

I can hoop for eight hours per day and never get sick of it.

I can ball all day and feel like I haven't accomplished shit.

Pardon my French.......

So what do I think about this?

Momentum.

I might not make it on a pro team but I can blog.

I can get the momentum to blog.

I can work at it.

Truthfully.....

I wish I had a blog going the whole time. 

I mean it makes sense.

I'm getting better at writing. 

I'm getting better at smiling.

I might go shave my head.....

Maybe not though maybe I should let it grow.

Ohh boy it's fun to have money I bet.

Misery lives company I bet.

Ohh yeah because we can't have anymoney honey.... 

We just struggle through.

We over think everything.

We don't know what to do.

Could hoop dreams make me famous?

Maybe but they can also make me homeless.

You know why I am not homeless?

Because I went to jail and they wanted to know more about me and I told them I was homeless and needed a place to sleep.

What happened next?

I had to go to a psychiatric hospital for six months while they diagnosed me and Im not gonna tell you what I was diagnosed with but it was different.

I got huge bouts of anxiety in my legs and I was afraid to talk about because I thought they would keep me even longer. 

After that I had to go to a care center where I share one apartment with three other guys and their were two apartments on top and two downstairs where there were girls living their. 

That was fun I guess. 

We had meeting everyday and had to go through a huge workbook. 

I had to stay their for three months and then it was over. I met people my age, some of them cut themselves and some smoked meth. I guess that's what was going on. 

After that I had a armored car pick me up and take me to a board n lodge and I got my own room with cable. I was happier but I didn't know what was going to happen. 

They gave me a hundred dollars per month to spend and I got to sleep in my own bed and room and then they fed me three times per day. At first it kind a sucked but it got easier. 

I got to mewt some people and they were nice. They were all older gentlemen around sixty and seventy, so no groups or meetings we just hang out. 

They watch a lot of TV and I do this blog. They hang out and smoke and I watch. I quit smoking. I feel good but I still get urges. 

We are moving here soon and will have to see how things go. 

I guess some of the older gentlemen will pass away where we are gonna from old age. I wonder what they think of it. 

I wanna die in my own home or a assisted living where I have my own apartment. 

Should I get married or just blog? 

No girls really like me and I'm not that good looking. 

I don't know what to think. 

I should rap to myself I kinda got a headache. 

Should I go get some aspirin maybe I will. 

I want to go fishing. 

They said I might be able to go fishing in a boat this week sometime. 

What to write about? 

I don't know. 

I got a headache and I just took some aspirin or ibuprofen. 

Hopefully that works. 

I think maybe I should run some sprints.

I wonder if that will help. 

I'm trying to think how I can hack open a atm and the only thing I can think of is making Kindle files and maybe cold calling. 

I don't know how the card knows it has money on it. 

I mean how does that work. 

I might have to come up with a invention myself. 

Maybe I can be a great inventor. 

Maybe I don't know. 

I don't know what to think. 

I'm listening to music and just switched from Drake to J. Cole and that's that. 

I get weird ideas some days and I don't know what to think. 

Things like what happened to the dinasaurs. 

Are we gonna be dinasaurs? 

Should we invest in space travel and go to another planet. I don't know. 

What the heck is Mars gonna be like? 

What the heck are we gonna do their. 

I mean this is crazy and I don't know what to think. 

We just sit here dreaming up stuff and what for. What should we do with out time? 

Just sit at work the whole time? 

What does it all mean. 

It feels good to talk about it. 

I wonder what other people think about it. 

Not much feedback and I don't know. 

Do we even want feedback. 

I know most people will deny it or give me any good feedback. 

I gotta stay on track. 

What is their to do? 

What is thier to think about. 

Can you tell I'm bored?

Sprints...........

So I am trying to run some sprints and get back in shape.

I have a little bit of a gut and a gut feeling I need to get some exercise.

I usually run around town and see how I feel and sees whose out walking and enjoying the weather.

It helps clear my mind and makes me feel better.

I would like to meet some people and see what's going on.

I really want to get my license back so I can drive around and go to different fishing spots.

But who knows........ 

Just blog........... See where it takes you.

Do you know where your blog is going to take you and do you feel safe and boy wouldn't it be nice to earn some extra cash.

How can I earn extra cash?

I don't really know but it weighs on me that I don't know if that's what God wants me to do. I mean making money is no easy idea.

The idea of God is way different.

Maybe I should even think about money and just do what God wants me to do everyday.

I don't know but I sat on the computer for quite a while today.

And I came up with some pretty cool ideas. I mean I found some pretty cool companies..........

One is a white label bank that allows you to provide a online bank and crypto currency bank that runs itself or at least I think it does. Can you imagine running your own bank?

Ecspecially crypto currency bank.

I know that looks cool and I asked for some more information on the product. I wonder what they will say or did I just jinx it by writing this post?

What else looks cool?

White label casino and it gives me a page to put my brand and let people gamble on my site.

Will have to research further. 

So I'm thinking I should take sime time offline and see how I feel. Do you think I should or what's your perspective?..........

Intuition kicks in?

Or how does this work and what do you think is going on.

Should we be intuitive?

I mean.........

What the heck does that mean?

Should I let the blog float around for a little while, while I take a break?

I don't know.

But what I do know is doing work we just power through everything and who cares what we think we got work to do.

What comes to mind in blogging?...........

What if I mess up.

But at work who cares I dive right in and fix it as I go along.

Funny world our there.

Fun n games and people like to have fun.

Onw of my friends died and I was with her like two weeks before. 

I don't know if she overdosed or what happen to her.

I mean she was such a cool friend.

She was always friendly to me.

She would let me sleep over at her house. 

I mean she had a bigger house than my parents. She had a nice huge four wheel drive truck.

I hung out with her whenever I could.

I miss her.

People die young and I don't know why.

What's really worth your time?

What's this life really all about?

I read scripture but it just leaves me wanting more.

I wanna see what other countries and thier religions are like.

I mean what else is there to do.

We look for ways to be safe?

We look for ways to make money..........

Money is a dangerous game I guess.

The pursuit of money and the pursuit of status. 

Can we  manipulate the outcome.

Who knows when death is gonna come a knocking.

What the hell are we gonna do about it.

Who are we even and where did we come from?

We have to see things clearly.

We have to make our own little way.

I guess that's just how life is......... 

So I'm up, don't know if I should be blogging on Sunday?

Are you married?

I'm not and I don't kno what to think.

Should I get married?

I don't know if I missed all my chances.

I just worked.

I met a few dames.

I'm older now and I'm in mental health pills. 

Dont know if anyone wants to stick around me and I'm not that good looking to myself.

Been known to break the rules.

Dont know what to think.

No baby for my mom to take care of from time to time.

Maybe had a few to many redbull.

Stayed up late.

Marry the woman of your dreams?

I don't know if I know her.

Funny world and I don't know what to think.

Should I read the Bible and meet woman in Christianity.

How do I stay Christian?

All I do is blog, not a whole lot of money coming my way or so I think.

Vision is blurry from writing and reading raps on my phone.

No, I don't have a kid.

Do I want one?

Yes I do.

But these little tiny blog posts are not making any money.

I have to train myself to blog for hours at a time.

Alot of my friends are not married.

Maybe we aren't good enough.

Maybe we aren't smart enough.

Life is a funny thing and I don't know where to go with it.

Should I get married?

Yeah maybe.

I can just sit at home being married.

If I just had money to travel then I might find someone that wants to stick with me and I can pay the bills. 

Are people really making fifty grand per month online?

Can you make fifty grand a month?

I don't know.

But how would I do it.

Blog to it until you understand how the money is to made.

I know that buying or putting togther twenty Ecommerce stores that you rank and get traffic to everyday with sales could net fifty grand per month.

What is that per day?

50 divided between 30 is what?

It's like fifteen hundred per day.

Now that might seems like alot it is possible I am sure of it.

All you have to do is niche in their and see what happens.

Want niches, just blog all day everyday and see what happens.

It could be huge for you and that would set you straight on money.

All you have to do is make money.

I have Ecommerce stores and some do rank when I turn on thier domain.

It was no problem making the sites and I like having a extra income coming in.

That's just the way it goes. 

OK so what now?

My teeth are grinding and I want a couple sodas and a couple cups of coffee.

I have smoked in like week. Smoked ciggerettes.

I quit, I told myself I quit. 

Everybody in front of me is smoking and I quit.

How do I do that.

By saying no.

Man......

There Is alot of music online and who can look through it though.

Boy.....

I just made a Fivver Gig. If I can get to a little thirty dollars perday that would be fantastic.

It would be nice to have a little extra cash and money to get a cup of coffee and a soda.

I asked my dad for money and I feel bad about it.

I need to just stick to the money ideas that make money. 

But my dad just trashes everything I do.

So what can you do.

Nobody has any money for me. Nobody's told me how to make any money.

All I do is keep getting the job.

And I make a little money but not enough to buy a place in a major city.

Nine dollars per hour for Sam's Club sticking shelves.

$10 for working in the flower garden in a Home depot.

While it can be fun, I should have not quit. Instead of creating a side hustle in the side I just kept quiting my job and that wasn't that smart. So here I am blogging about my problems. 

So I'm still working.........

Where will blogging I mean working take me?

I'm about to go downstairs and refill my water jug.

I am working on a site and I don't know how to build it.

It could be a cool site.

But I don't know how to code and make the site I want to look at everyday.

I'm listening to some music by Lizzo.

Not cool, to profane.

But what can you do?

I might have to make some music and see what happens.

I don't know.

I need to rap some good clean music and that's how it should be.

I'm looking online at people that, or what was I gonna say?

I was looking at businesses and warehouses on the side of the highway and I was wondering if they made all thier money through Ecommerce. I don't know.

I was looking at thier websites and they do have Ecommerce.

They also fill a niche though for the local area.

I guess if I I search for keywords like FosstonGolfCarts for sale. 

I don't know but I could look for niches and see if thier are looking in the local area for something I can to find.

Maybe niche in there with an Ecommerce website. I will have to buy into a keyword tool. 

We just power right through.

Having a tough day?

I do when I have money and I want to buy something to drink.

I like energy drinks, preferably Rockstars. Man they taste good and they give me good energy.

Five dollars per day for a Rockstar is $150 per month. That's for a three pack of Rockstar every day.

It's better than sleeping all day and that's all I do is sleep with no money.

That's not something I want to do.

Coffee does not keep me awake.

Money keeps me awake.

Money keeps me excited for the day.

Money keep me moving.

Money makes the world go round.

Not chasing money but having money.

That's a good idea.

Having no money.

There has to be a way to make money from the phone or from the Library computer system?

What is the way?

I have no clue in reality but I also dont want to be homeless. There has to be a way to get money.

What's one thing I can think of?

Well, having your own Google account or Gmail for that matter. Least you can login and see what's going on.

If you have a Gmail account that you can keep, maybe your only choice is to blog your way out and tell your story.

That's kind of how I saw it.

While I wish I could find a better way.

A phone will cost money. Maybe you can save up fifty or sixty bucks and blog from your phone or run a couple Craigslist. I don't know.

Do I know how to make money doing these things?

No......

I don't make a dime.

It's a crime.

What's gonna happen?

I'm gonna get a job and buy a car.

How do these people start thier own business. I have no idea. 

There is so much land out there I don't know why I can't build a huge warehouse like the Fantasy Factory with Rob Dyrdek out in the middle of nowhere, somewhere.

Maybe in the rockies.

I don't understand how they get all this money and maybe I should call around.

One thing though....... 

I mean I just thought of it.

I could call a warehouse that I see along the highway and ask if they sell solely online.

If they do then maybe I can find something to sell online.

Should I, could I, would I.

I don't know.

It might be a good play to start... 

Can we make money cold calling?

Can we make money cold calling?

I don't know.

Have you ever tried it?

I have and it does sort of work.

I have some experience cold calling.

I have made money and truth be told if I don't make no money or a passive income from the web, from things like.....

Amazon Kindle

Craigslist

Blogger

And that's all I can really think about right now.

Or think of.

Amazon Kindle does kinda work for me.

Craigslist I have made some cash and it does work and I have gotten some pretty good leads and it does work.

Buy not so much.

What am I talking about I have not used it in a while.

Blogging makes me no money and I don't care, I mean I care but it just isnt working for me.

Even though I'm gonna stick with blogging and see if it pays off and see where it takes me.............

I don't think it's gonna out do cold calling.

And I don't know what will.

I make make three to five grand cold calling per month.

What do I sell?

Well.....

I sell mobile apps, text message marketing, websites and that's about it.

Apps don't sell that well but what does is websites.

Websites can really sell.

Am I good at building websites not really.

But I can outsource and yes I have built some pretty good websites in my day but I'm really life they might have sucked to the buyer.

But I treat like pouring concrete. You might pour some pretty shitty jobs, but the more you pour the better you get.

I have a long ways to go.

What do I charge for a website?

$1500 per website if I am cold calking. And yes they are responsive websites and they work on desktop, tablet and Smartphones.

They are not that bad of sites and they look OK on the web.

If I sell on Craigslist I will charge around $5000 per site and I think that is worth it.

What do you think, is that a OK price and I know you have never seen the websites but I assure you, they are OK. One thing about the web is I have lost stuff and I know I have to keep track of things. You should put all the information of the client in your Google documentation system. You need to keep their information safe. You live and you learn. I have lost my phone and they gave me a new phone and I got a new number and I don't really know what to think. I lost the customers information. So now I have debt and I can't find the buyer and Craigslist doesn't show you shit. So now I have to find this guy and get him his website for agriculture. 

That's sucks for me. 

I asked one of my Counselors what to do and they said just let it go. 

So that's what I did. 

Another thing about selling is you never really know who you are buying from and they is a chance they can turn off there site and disappear. This did happen with a mobile app company that I got started working online with. I sold three or four apps and all of a sudden they disappeared off the net and the app that I sold were gone out of the app market. 

So play your cards right. 

Should we be scared of the internet?

Are you scared of putting yourself out there?

But what should we be scared of?

Weirdos?

I dont know but there are plenty of people out there that are famous for getting online.

Can you imagine having your own special Google card when people look up your name?

I don't have one, but maybe I should get one.

I don't know.

You think blogging can get me there and how so?

I don't know how to get one and maybe I should start looking it up. 

Can send ideas through email make it happen and hoq would that work?

People or the cards can say that I came up with these ideas and that I famous for em, would that work?

I don't know but I want another cup of coffee. 

One more post.

I might make a go of it.

I make take a break from my phone.

I really am getting excited for blogging and Im excited to get some traffic.

I have been working on a website and I don't know if it's a good idea.

People come out of nowhere wit money and that makes me laugh. I don't know what gets into them but man do some of them have money now.

I've tried my hand at music and am not that good.

I have to do something to fill my time. I know I need a break at the same time and see what happens.

Blogging is not making me any money and now I'm watching TV.

Boring. 

Work.

Is it always safe to work and what about Deja Vu.

I don't know what to think.

I don't know what to think.

How do we stay busy as entrepreneurs?

Do we worry about what we think or do we plow right through like we do at a normal job?

I get scared when I think to heavily.

I get nervous, I get afraid, I over think everything. Is that better than a normal job?

I don't want a normal job, yet I don't want to over think everything either.

It sucks.

Eight hours a day working on your businesses.

Your an entrepreneur.

Your a person that learned how to make his or hers own business.

I figured out how to get the island life.

I cold call.

I started my own business.

I made it happen. 

That's all I Really wanted to is to travel and see the world.

Is that OK.

Stick to your own guns. 

Clean up your act.

How do you clean up your act?

I don't know.

Dont pick your knose and don't fart.

Lay off the caffeine and soda and ciggerettes.

What else can we do?

We can try harder to be ourselves.

We can start running and thinking and making positive ideas and thoughts happen.

Right now in one of my mindfulness groups we are studying how to associate mood and feeling and behavior.

Some people have had it way worse than you think. Abusive husband's, drunks, beatings, you name it.

How do you get out of that situation? 

The situation where you have to understand what to do.

Now we are not that far in the book, we have to change our behavior, we have to take a step back and try to understand the situation.

Will touch on that later. 

Publish this.

Another day....

Waking up and try to see what I should do for the day.

No sense of direction. 

What do you think is a good idea for some ideal days at the Board n Lodge.

Not much to think about.

Dont have a job because of Covid.

Would like a little extra cash.

Would like to get a car.

What should we do everyday with our time?

I don't know. Is blogging really gonna pay off?

Any testimonials?

I mean how does this work.

Blogging seems like the only safe bet for me to do.

I just don't know what to think.

Making a living from your phone is no easy task.

Who can really do it?

How does it really work?

Do we just keep searching?

I don't know. 

So here I am again blogging.

I have been thinking about building a bigger cache of private notes.

It just seems like some days I lose focus on what I want to do.

I wanna make music, I want to build a blog and I wanna hoop.

Now most people will think that is a joke or I will never make it.

But who knows.

Maybe I will.

How do I save my private notes?

Google docs.

But that can be annoying.

I am looking at coding my own website but I have no idea how to code a website.

So I am watching videos on YouTube.

There is also a code program on Google developers portal that shows you how to code.

Google does everything.

Using it is another story.

I really want to make money with Google and all the programs it offers.

Dont you?

One thing that sucked was using other companies that u had to remember the passwords for.

Remembering passwords and emails associated with your accounts can really suck.

But what can you do?

But what can I say.

I was thinking today that thier are some pro bloggers out thier that if they even mentioned my blog in one of thier articles it could make me rich.

But who knows, I might be a long way from that.

I'm thinking about buying some Rockstars even though I'm not supposed to have them.

They give me energy all day.

I want energy to blog.

I do not want to sleep during the day.

I don't want to conceal.

But I would have to hide my Rockstars.

They are three for five dollars.

I'm in a small town and they might talk about me. Who knows what people are thinking of me.

If I go to jail I suppose I will just sip coffee.

Think they will send me to jail for getting a Rockstar after they told me not to buy anymore?

I hope not.

My dad and mom came down a while back and they noticed that I wanted to drink a couple sodas and have a couple cups of coffee in the morning.

They did not like it and it hurt me that I always chase that high.

I want to get high.

And I know it's not OK with me and other people.

I used to get so stoned and the anxiety was thier.

I smoked all the time with my friends since highschool.

I did it before school.

I had friends. 

I still do have friends and all they want to do is smoke and drink and do it everyday.

While it's fun to play video games all day I don't know what to do about money.

They just keep me going.

And that's all I Really know.

I miss my friends and I don't know what to do about.

But now I am sober and just for the record Rockstars and Mountain Dews and teas might not be the big of deal indo know that I'm not drinking and smoking. I did have a fetish to smoke some cigars, swisha sweets and Black and Milds, I smoked to much, since I was in highschool. It's a big deal that I go sober on water maybe.

I just don't want to sleep all day.

I wanna make some money.

I might go hoop for a little while and run.

I feel good that i quit smoking.

That's just how it is I guess.