Sunday blogging...........

So here are again on another wonderful Sunday morning.

Dont know what to talk about but might as well make the most of it.

Life can pull you in so many different directions.

Dont really know what to do.

I want to work eight hours but it's Sunday.

Can't cold call and I have to keep myself in check I mean I really have to keep myself in check.

I ordered some Rockstars and I know better. But it was the only thing on Amazon that didn't have such high shipping costs.

So here I am with twenty four in the way and it's supposed to arrive tomorrow.

I know I have a problem. I keep wanting to chase that high. I have a problem and I don't trust myself around drugs.

I have asked for help in my own little way but no one knows what to do with me because I'm grown ass man.

I mean I really dont know what to do.

I have to be on point. I can't go to the bar and I know damn well I can be around cocaine.

But I do like chilling with friends.

Who should I talk to about my problems?

You?.......

Life funny and it flies by. Will this blog even mean anything when I'm done. Will you even miss me and what should I do. Put out music. I mean cmon now is YouTube gonna look back and let people know that I was here and this is what I'm about?

Watched part of the UFC prelims last night and it keeps me busy. Pro football is on all day today. Who should I watch?

Should I go check?

Let's see.

Five games on today and I don't want to list them all out.

Man looking back I wish I could get on a team. Nobody thought I was good enough even though I started in high school and the only thing I took serious was hanging with my friends and partying. The more I tried getti g better at basketball and doing yoga and. Practicing. The more people I saw to play against didn't matter. I used to play at the Iowa City field house. It's an awesome gym and has like eight basketball courts for you to run games on.

There are some pretty girls and boy were they pretty. I mean man and I didn't have the guts to talk to them. They were always at the Yoga studio. I love hot yoga and my mom put me onto it. I love working out but it's not really worth any money. I know I have to find a job and make some money. I need to make money and I don't know if blogging is gonna get me thier.

Should I go to church today and what do you think about that. I mean how do I get right with God.

How do I make something out of my life. What do you want to be.

Can we make little rap concerts and go to them and get paid a couple hundred per night. Would people even want to see me rap and what a pipe dream that is.

Dont have thatany people talking to me on Facebook. Except on Facebook messenger, all types of girls on their. I wonder if Mark Zuckerberg thinks its some type dating app with all the girls posting sexy photos of themselves unless thier all fake accounts.

I get a lot of messages from girls but I don't know if they are real accounts.

Well it's almost breakfast and I want a coffee and a piece of toast. I know I need to take better care of myself but I like a cup of coffee and a diet coke at the same time and a piece of toast and maybe one smoke in the morning. I know it's not the healthiest breakfast but it makes me feel better for a limited time.

Nothing but sports on ESPN maybe I should turn the news on and watch that.

I just never feel good and I always have to power through and make the most out of my day.

Covids still an issue on the news and I don't know what to think about it.

I hope the coffees good this morning. I know I shouldn't have none but it tastes good and keeps me warm. It's good to stay warm?

I don't know, is it about keep other people warm? Is it psychic and I don't know what to think I get pulled in so many different directions and I dont know if anything is gonna pay off.

Whats life all about and why do people pick the occupations they do. It's mind blowing that people want to be in the occupation they do. It's a funny world out their and some day I feel like a alien and I wonder what we're doing here on earth with gun violence and fighting and brawling and stealing and I don't know what to think about it.

I mean I surely am not that cool. I'm no fool and I know it to a certain extent. Maybe I should just get a small part time job and stick with it and enjoy it.

I mean it dosent take much to make me happy. I just need little piddly stuff like a couple sodas and a basketball gym and maybe a smartphone and I feel alright.

I just don't know what to do with myself.

I have to do what I love?

Is that the right way forward?

What does God want with me?....

I don't know.