I mean what can you do.
I just sat in a thirty minute guided meditation and I feel a little better.
I know I have to work harder for me money but I don't always know what to do.
I was thinking of building a website for condos for sale and pitching a condo website for two thousand per month to help sell condos. I don't know if it will work.
It's worth a try.
I mean I have to learn more about the ins and outs of the web.
I wanna get good at web marketing.
I want to get awesome at it.
I wanna build sites for myself so that I can just make money that way but I don't know how yet. Thier has to be a way to do this.
Anyways what's up with you today?
I think I have a appointment with my counselor today and will have to see how that goes.
I'm hungry for money.
I wanna make some money.
I don't know if this blog will do it.
But I will give it a try.
Sometimes I just feel like the world is baring down on me and I don't know which direction to head.
I mean I don't know what to think.
It's tough out thier and people are working thier life away for little to no money. And this sucks.
So what should I do?
Cold call today and see what I can come up with?
Maybe the cold calling idea is the best way forward.
Maybe I can make a couple thousand per week.
I'm tempted to look at some of the business cards at the gas station and see if I can sell a website or two ad I won't do it for much but I will try to make something out of it.
I wanna help small businesses grow.
I want to see if I can get some of these businesses money.
What else is going on.
I don't really like using my computer as much as my phone but I do want to build a big site on WordPress.
It's cold and windy outside and I can really hear the wind blowing.
I don't know what to do with the cold.
I feel bad for people that have to work outside and tough it out.
I did concrete before into winter and my hands would freeze trying to tie rebar and it sucked.
Inhave had some pretty tough jobs and I have to learn the value of hardwork.
My dad worked his whole life at the railroad.
He really busted his ass.
Somedays I feel bad that I didn't stay at the same job all the way through.
I have to pump myself up as a entrepreneur and keep going and keep struggling to find answers. We have to search things out I guess and look for ways through life.
Should I listen to music like rock music or should I stay listening to guided meditation.
I mean what can I do.
Rock music has me thinking all over.
Makes me want to call a major artists and see if I can go to concerts.
I can contact people on Instagram.
I have hit up Eminem before.
I'd like to go to his concert before he retires.
I have only been to a couple concerts throughout my life time. They were pretty good. Even though I can remember who they were because I just remember thier faces and being in the crowd.
It was fun.
Nothing much else to do but think about concerts and blogging.
I make my own with Offtop rap app and write some poetry. It's fun, but I have to do it outside because I can get to loud.
Their are so many artists out thier and I don't know what to think. Tons of them. How do they get good and how do they get noticed?
I want to get good at music just using my phone. Studio recording can reach fifty dollars an hour.
So that's a little pricey. Think I can sell enough copies of my album to cover the cost?
A thousand dollars to make an album? How many copies you think I could sell. Can you imagine selling fifty million records? I don't know how to do that.
But it's worth a try.
What else is going on?
I buit a couple jails here in America.
America.
That's a funny word isnt it?
Pretty cool though.
America...........
So I built a couple jails and what do you think.
They staff from the county journal where they advertise jobs. I'm not a police contractor I am just a concrete laborer. Uhhh..... They aren't people from the police academy.
Does that make sense.
I don't know.
Anyways I don't really want to talk about it.
Thier are a ton of girls our thier that I wouldn't mind dating, I gotta get myself looking fresh.
How do I do that though?
I don't know, sit in meditation and try to look good and act cool?
Whats better rap, country, rock or guided mediations.
Maybe guided meditations.
I don't want you to know what I think rap music is doing to my mind. I guess I can only handle it for a hour or so a day. I know it's not good for the human mind.
Well Alot of rappers die young. What they are thinking or why they hate each other I will never really say.
Or understand.
They are mean.
I don't know what to think about hip hop music. People want to be cool through and guess that's how they like it.
I like Drake, his raps are pretty tame and they don't make me feel mean inside.
I don't know.
I wonder how these artists got so good at what they wanted to do.
Anyways..........
Did I say I am moving in a couple days or in a week. Will be something to think about. I don't want to meet anymore mean people.
I want a part time job.
I wanna make some money and send my parents and step mom and step mom some goodies when I feel like it.
Can you imagine getting your whole family Christmas and birthday gifts everyday?
That's a lot of money or time, could I handle that? I suppose I could if I had enough money. That would be pretty awesome.
I wonder how many families talk to each other about money? My family has never talk to me about money. It sucks we just leave each other high and dry. I hate the idea of being homeless. Food thing the cops take care of us.
Believe it or not I actually just said that.
I wanna get my own place though.
I need to keep a schedule.
I want to get good at coding too.
I'd like to code my won website and see how good I can get at it.
I stopped using Facebook for a while.
I don't really like it.
I don't like how they can go behind your back and make friends with people you hang out with.
Facebook sucks.
And now its called Meta.
What the hell is Meta? A place to steal friends and girlfriends?
I mean what type of shit is that about?
I don't know.
I'm debating if I should go to the gas station and get a cappuccino and sit their for a little while.
I'm not hungry but I have to eat breakfast in a hour and that's always fun.
I don't know.
I wonder if you know anybody that stole websites and got rich of them?
Thays such bullshit that you can build a website and some guy comes in and steal them.
Do you want to steal my blog?
Im so sick of getting robbed.
I'm sick of this shit.
Well i think I will go get me a cappuccino because I like to go spend money that I don't really have and sit thier whinin and worrying about life.
So anyways.
What else is thier to talk about.
I'm not rich but I have been robbed blind.
I'm hungry for money.
I mean what else can I say.
It's one big theft ring.
What else should I talk about instead of sitting here wondering why I'm broke.
Why are my parents broke?
I mean what's really going on?
We just work and live with nothing but hand me downs and footlocker shorts that get stolen.
I mean what does that mean.
I'm mad.
I want to maybe go back in meditation.
Sit thier for an hour pissed off.
I'm so sick of working for nothing.
I mean what can I say.
I have six bucks and I'm sitting here all day long long thinking about money.
I guess I have to make myself stronger.
You ever have a person turn on you and start hating you to the point you have to get in a fight?
I have and I guess I just have to fight everybody.
So many haters.
So many people that want your stuff.
It sucks.
I just want to get some good hoop games in, not steal everyone's stuff.
I mean what the hell is this.
So what can I do.
I'm hungry for money I know this.
Listening and hanging out.
I mean what the hell is going on.
OK I want some coffee now.
I wanna wake up from a nightmare where I have to step lightly just to stay alive.
I'm not hungry.
I want money and I want it now.
I have to say, now. I am using what money I have to make me happy.
All these micromovements to keep each other alive.
Isn't this fun.
Well anyways here we go, looking for the coffee.
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