I can't figure shit out.

I dont know what to think.

I scare myself that people are so smart. 

It took a long time for me to learn how to make money online and I am definitely not rich..... 

Hahhaha...... 

So what can I do?

Hot on woman all day and try to feel good about myself?

I don't think so even though thier might be a woman their to take care of me. 

Woman want to get married.

I want to get married. 

But what do you know I am just a poor little man on a blog. 

Will this blog take off for me and allow me to get money?

I don't know.... 

I hullacinate alot...

I know safety is key.... 

Yeah life is passing you by. 

But what your blogging? 

OHHH Google search? 

Yeah everything online is mostly blog posts and people trying to rank their posts. 

Yeah their programs and some of them are fun to use.... 

What do I think? 

I want to program from my phone. 

Yeah that sounds like fun..... 

I don't know what to program but what I do know is that it is possible. 

You know what i think about? 

Downtown Denver with Mercedes benze all around and high rise condos that costs millions. 

What I'm supposed to blog to millions? 

How the heck am I supposed to do that? 

I mean geeze louezze..... 

This is tough to figure out. 

I want to go to bed. 

I work all day long at hauling furniture. 

But I have to make a side income. 

I have to make extra cash. 

Their is no other way through...... 

Yeah blogging might take forever but what I do know is this. 

Lets make money online happen.... 

I have to budget... 

I have to really only spend little amounts. 

I have to save. 

This has to happen. 

Yeah I'm hungry but I can wait. 

I can survive until my next meal.... 

But what else. 

Should i just pray all the time? 

Should i sit in prayer all the time and delegate to this world. 

Yeah I don't know. 

But I want to know....

What do you think about getting richer than your parents? 

You think that will sit well with them? 

Yeah I want to travel and drive Jaguar. 

I want to party like a Rockstar.... 

I have to pull it off.... 

I have to go to Vegas and party and swim.... 

I might have to drive around in a range rover. 

Yeah that's what I think. 

Or should I find a woman that will pay my way... 

Maybe that's pthe key to the future. 

I have to maintain and I have to work on my looks.... 

I have to be smarter. 

And yes that means getting exercise. 

Even though at times it feels like a waste of time. 

I don't know what else to say.... 

Im taking a plane trip Saturday.... 

I will be helping my mom move. 

Yeah I have a little money this time but not enough to start a family and buy a house. 

We have to find a way through. 

We have to be smarter. 

Yeah I want to drive around major cities and stay in nice hotels. 

But how? 

But what are we going to do? 

Stay sober and stay vigilant.