OK here we are at work.

Don't know what to write about but I just keep gathering insight on how this works. 

I have to tame how I feel and have to figure out what to do with myself. 

I mean I just keep trying to make more money. 

I have to keep pushing on with Blogging. 

It does not feel that bad. 

But still I struggle with finding the words and ideas that dont make sense to me. 

Im at work. 

Probably shouldn't be on my phone but I just keep writing trying to figure out a way though for myself.

Maybe I should hide around the country. 

Maybe I should go to a beach and run. 

I just don't know what to think. 

I have to think of a way through. 

I hope to God I can I pull myself out of poverty. 

I have to think that this is possible. 

People do it all over the country.