I almost have no choice but to work to stay calm.

How many people are ready to freak out? I mean thier has to be a better way and that is working.

They wanna be psychic and I wanna be working. It keeps me calm.

It makes me strong. I Understand how to get along.

I don't know but I'm hungry and I need to eat and I'm starving and I'm gonna eat.

I dont know where I would be without the state government giving me a place TO SLEEP and food to eat.

You gotta stay strong, sometimes it's hard, you think you need rest, or you need to run or you need to play basketball. Nine if these ideas are work.

Ive never made any money from basketball.

Unless I start I sports court network and allow people to bet in games and see who is gonna win.

Can I even do that, that would be like a little casino.

Ha....

That's would be cool.

Seven more minutes and dinner will be about ready. Tatertot hit dish with corn. Should be good, might have to take a picture of it. Maybe on my Facebook page and Instagram page and not my blog.

I guess it all matters on how fast this blog posts, I mean grows.

You never know.....

What if a post broke free for like ten thousand per day. I wonder how many people have broken free with a blog post.

Keyword research, I don't know, I wanna talk about anything I wanna talk about.

Talk about whatever you want. This is your blog.

You think once I make money my life will change. How could a change, by getting a place to myself.

Is that even possible?

How long should I write one blog post for?

Two hour post?

Three hour post.

Five hour post.

Can I break free with some cash with a five hour post?

Who knows. 

Ok so I have been cold calling.

I have like three leads from cold calling maybe around five hours total from yesterday to today. Will I close a deal? I don't know.

I'm watching some guy digging up his yard and there cutting down a tree and picking it up with a big backhoe.

Now they out here busting ass so maybe I should as well.

I plan on cold calling for eight hours tomorrow.

I have had some luck with smaller towns and they bought a $1500 hundred dollar website from me and looking back it kinda sucked but to me back then it was a Picasso. Maybe not now.

So.....

Thingd change and days rerange and I worry about my parents and I worry about other people and I worry for no reason. 

Does that make sense?

So I have to work and people die and it's wierd we go out like we do because we just stand around looking at each other.

Can you imagine that?

We just stare at our phones all day and think about each other. I'm tired a little but it feels good to talk about my life. 

I'm working on a site on WordPress and it has to do with sports.

Maybe I will talk about that more later.

I wonder what's for dinner.

Maybe I should go check.

Maybe I should.

Another big tractor out front is doing something, a guy just jumped out of it.

Dont really know what's going on. 

As you can see their is tractors everywhere.

I wanted to work with a keyword tool to make some money. I'm looking if their are any good apps out thier.

While I think I should stay on the phone eight hours per day, maybe I can find another way.

Talking your way out of poverty?

I mean what could be better.

Or should I just start building sites and see if they can get any traffic. I don't know.

Is blogging worth it or is cold calling a better way. What about Craigslist. Is that better than cold calling?

I dont know.

It hurts because I feel so close to money yet I don't understand how to get it.

I need money for new shoes and clothes and a car and to get out of debt.

That's what matters to me.

Now is it God's plan?  I don't know.

I need a better way to cold call people other than finding thier listing on Facebook. While they should have a good and complete Facebook page, I don't want to look at it unless I think it's worthwhile.

Dont get me wrong, I like looking at websites and see what types of businesses are out thier. I have to find a smarter way to work solely from my phone. I'm working though. They has to be an awesome way through. There has to be a way through and I intend to find it and make money with it and be explosive and awesome and brilliant and all types of other stuff. There has to be a way through. 

Making websites from your phone using the GoDaddy app is cool but I have to make cash. Can I rank and get money from a free domain and if I am a web programmer can I make better websites and Google will want to rank them?

Will I be able to rank for Fargo ND Travel agency? It's a nice site and all but will it rank. Thier are some pretty low class websites under that listing but at the same time they might be more knowledgeable of the market place. Should I try the same niche in a different city and can I put up business and open locations from my phone and staff people and offer jobs? Will this work? Is this why marketing is so powerful? I mean this is me trying to help businesses get more customers and while I'm not the smartest at it I can do some good with it and get more clients or customers or whatever.

I just got a response from someone saying no thanks after I offered to build them a website. Least I got a response.

I have a couple leads to check up on but I wanted to make sure I put in a good hour post for you to read.

I need to edit my blog and I hope it dosent deter people from reading my blog.

I see people in their own homes, kids I grew up with and they have thier own business and I just sit thier like what the heck how do I get my business rolling?.........

What was I going to say.

What do I have here?

One hour of basketball, one hour of rap and one hour of cold calling and one hour of blogging. How much should I delegate to each task and what task is more important.

I love basketball but it doesn't make me any money. I doubt my raps will make any money and it's not like cold calling. How long should I cold call everyday and how long should I blog.

Playing basketball is much funner with money and rapping in my own studio is much better than making raps up on my phone.

Msuic really isn't my Forte and it kinda makes me sick spuing out raps that make no sense and talk about gun violence and smacking woman. Prolly not that good of idea, might way on my soul.

So..........

What should I do now.

I'm hungry for dinner already and will have to go check and see what thier is to eat.

They make all the meals here at the board n lodge and they usually taste pretty good.

I'm suppose to get some money tomorrow and that will help out.

I kinda get the money issue. I don't need any more sodas and cigars. Not ok, not fun and I need to run and keep going. 

I need to stay in shape or else I will get depressed.

What was I gonna say. 

Ohh yeah should I try to make or take an hour to for Craigslist posting, is that a good idea.

Check this place out, I have it all to myself.

OK it's nice cool and chill where I'm at. They take care of me and they do a pretty good job at it.

I'm kinda tired but I know I need to keep pushing though and taking care of myself and build awesome sites and get stuff done and make stuff happen and network and do whatever you need to do to live here in piece and harmony and be somebody if you want but I wanna get back in the road and see what's out thier for me. I wouldn't mind having a dodge charger and other cars. I really want a lamb and drive that around and see where I can go with that.

Life is full of ups and downs.

I know I have to stay busy and not let my feelings, emotions and thunking get the best of me. If I'm working everything slides right off and I take things in stride. 

I have to stay busy I have to stay busy I'm not Noone but a worker, I guy that made money from his phone. I work at it and you SEEK and you will find.

I know I'm gonna make it if I keep trying and work at it. 

I blogged for almost an hour now and I know this ain't the best post it is a good post and I made some errors but all in all its an OK post. 

Blog for another five minutes.

Blog for two hours a day, cold call for three hours per day. I know I said cold calling for eight hours but I don't really want to.

Well...

What about Kindle for one hour and Craigslist for an hour, that would be OK. My Dad told me to get off kindle and get a job, but people are not that friendly to me.

Should I make an hour of basketball videos where I upload raps to them and put them on YouTube?

You think that is eight hours well spent?

I don't know, maybe I should just give it a try.

Los Angeles looks cool.

I need about three thousand per month rent and that will give me a nice place, how about ten thousand per month in earnings.

That should work.

If I could just close ten websites per month for one thousand dollars that will get me a nice place and some nice rides.

I'm not that good at making money but I gotta try.

I know I said in earlier post to not serve God and money, but I need money, my parents needed money to help me and keep going.

I don't know what to think.

So it goes poppin wheelies in the road. 

Ok so I'm up early blogging.

It's three thirty a.m. and I'm up and I can't sleep.. I excited to be alive. Not really. Maybe I need to get back in shape. Just run and see how I feel.

I have to make a change in my life and really get my shit together. I know I got to do something different. I got to do something with my life but I don't know what.

Is writing a good way forward. I don't know. I wanna play basketball but I'm not exactly the best player.

What to do with myself.

I wanna work and really make some money.

Where is life gonna take me. A blogging superstar.

Should I play some game apps and see where they take me. I like playing games but they don't make me any money, but they are good to pass time.

What should I listen to on YouTube? I'm listening to Nypsey Hussle. He has some pretty cool music and it gets me hyped to write and build my blog. So.....

Eminem opened up Mom Spaghetti in Detroit, a restaurant that's serves spaghetti. Think it's good, I don't know I don't really like spaghetti. Not a big fan of it.

I wonder how long I will stay awake and try to see whats happening. It's early three a. m. and I'm not tired at all. If. I just had some money to travel and see the world that way would be dope. Right now I am using Africa's Best oil to rub on my head and moisturizer my skull. Think that's a good idea, they need to make skull lotion. Someone out there should. Maybe I should make it myself. Maybe I should try running and sweating it off so I look good. It's getting to be the fall season and I will only have so much time to run outside. So I better make the best of it.

Debating if I should have a cup of coffee this morning. I like having coffee in the morning and sometimes I don't. They serve us half and half to drink and I don't really get a decent buzz off it.

I know nooone wants to read this blog but I have to practice writing and see how good I can get.

Should I start making movie videos or music videos where I record myself rapping. I suck at it, but it's fun to do. I wanna get on stage one day and rap. Make a couple music videos and see how they go. I need a good mic to record and make songs. Using my phone to record dosent work that well with my voice, it sound corny. They have a small studio up town but they want fifty bucks per hour and I don't have that much money to spend. I would like ti make an album just to say I did and see if it takes off or I can use to as something to remember the times I've had. 

So it goes....

Miss my grandma. She was so nice to me and took good care of me. Washed my clothes and fed me. She got me working and I thank her for that. She made me work hard and she showed me what a woman does while deep in the scriptural word. She took me to church every Sunday and we had Sunday dinner and I would watch football or go outside and play basketball.

It's early now. Almost four a.m. And I'm blogging.

It sucks not to have any money and getting bullied and trying to survive and make it in this world. I'm at a board n lodge and they take care of me, the state government pays for my rent and gets me Healthcare. I go to the doctor almost all the time or I go talk to my counselor. It's OK but I get sick of people trying to get me to always do shit a little bit out of my comfort zone. Like asking for money and not doing something like make a website for someone and just let them decide what they can afford based on what they see and how they feel about what I made them to help market and grow online.

I wonder if any businesses just smack out content all day everyday to grow online, I mean have a hundred developers creating content all day and night building a reputation online. Just driving out tons of content and see how it ranks and see if people want to buy.

Can you imagine just bombing millions of dollars a year in content creation and building your comoa y online. I do notice some comoa ies doing this, maybe the UFC or the NBA. They create quite a bit of content unless it's just random developers making content off the footage posted or played on TV to watch.

I wonder if these music artists ever date the girls they have in music videos.

I don't know.... Don't see it much but I suppose it's possible.

Should I blog to six a.m. And see how big this post turns out. I might be a long post. 

It's funny that Im tryin to make money and it's hard. I know that I don't think God wants me to think about it. What does God want me to do?

I think he wants me walk to LA. I don't know why but he keeps telling me to leave. Maybe I'm not safe, maybe people don't like me or maybe I need to follow God will and do what he says. Should I search scripture?

I don't know what to think.

Should I think about making money with this blog.or should I think about what God wants to do with me today?

Do you know.

We have to work. That's what some people will tell you. I don't have that much to be responsible for and I don't know what to think.

People are forced to work. People have house payments and kids to take care of and car payments. I don't have all that but I do have debt.

I have to pay debt off. I want to get myself good credit.

I wanna buy a Lamborghini and drive around LA. And just hang out at different hotels and shoot the shit. Watch the Laker and see where that takes me. Mayne watch them win a title. Life's a funny game. I want to make money blogging but I don't know if that is God's will.

I have had Rockstar energy drinks delivered me from Amazon and they make me feel like shit. I mean I feel OK but not the greatest.

I'm getting urges to get offline and search scripture. I know I will fall right back to sleep. I don't really want to go back to sleep but I might fall back asleep after breakfast. Should I or shouldn't I. I probably will and wake up feeling wierd for lunch. I don't like sleeping or napping during the day but I do sometimes.

What else should I do?

Cold call all day?

Does that sound like fun?

I need to make a protocol for me to master different business models like grocery store cold calling, restaurant cold calling and all other types of business models that could use some form of marketing or web design.

I'm not the best web designer but I am ok at it. Maybe I will post some websites later and you can see some of my work.

I'm starting to get tired again and I might hop back into bed and take a nap. What should I fall asleep too?

What type of music?

Maybe a guided a meditation would be a good idea. I should listen to one a day at least and see how it works for me.

How big a blog post should I be making everyday?

A huge one. A four hour one? A big old blog post that takes me for ever to fix errors and that should be fun.

Somedays I wake up and I don't know if it's still night or morning. I just don't know, is that good for me waking up in the middle of the night thinking that it's time to get up and go eat breakfast, I did today and I woke up at midnight and I thought it was breakfast time. To bad that was not true.

Now I am up at four a.m. And I'm blogging from my phone thinking about going to the airport and flying around the world. Is it safe to travel alone. I don't know. But I want to travel. Bomb big Ole blog posts and see where that takes me. It's tough to know where I'm Goin with this blog. Should I take it up or take it down, I don't know but it's Thursday already and time is flying by. We only. Have like fourteen hours a day to follow are dreams. I know I need to conquer the day and get the most out of it. I been getting up so early and now I get tired around eight or nine o'clock at night. Then I wake up really early again and I just sit thier knowing I need to work on something.

I'm listening to all money in and no money out. What do you think that means?

I don't know but it might be time to stack paper. Save and save and save. But I'm not making any money so how is that going to work?

I'm trying to cold call all day today and see if I can get people to buy websites from me, I will offer them to do a mock up website to see if they like it.

Should I start building sites to get traffic? Should I try to rank a free domain?

I tried to rank a travel agency last night. Make the site from my phone and them submit it to entute web and let it submit to search engines. I should check in a bit to see if it ranks. I will check later and keep dumping words into blogger. You think Blogger will work better than WordPress? It's Blogger and it's made by Google, you think they would rank thier posts. Blogger dosent look as nice as WordPress that well. All I can do is work.

I cracked open another Rockstar energy drink, guess I will just stay up and try to get something done.

I really want to sell some website using GoDaddy site builder, it's a pretty dope website builder. I need to find a good keyword tool and see what I can rank for using thier website making platform. All I have to do is put in what type of business your website to be and it makes you one for explicitly for your business niche. I havent made that many sites but I have tried to make a travel agency. It made me a nice site to work with when I told GoDaddy tool bar what type of business I want to make.

Well it hasn't ranked yet and I told people on Facebook that I would try to rank the website and start making money strictly through or from my phone. Think that is possible. Well..... All you can do is try.

I really want to get better at blogger but I'm just not that sharp yet and I need to get better. Should I dump a ten or twenty page blog post into Google and Bing? That's what I'm tryin to do. Who read a eight hour blog post and what do you think that would look like.

Thinking about watching 8 mile again on my phone. I really want to get a phone holder so I can watch from a smartphone stand.

They are ten bucks on Amazon.

Maybe I should go back through this website or blog post and make some affiliate links from Amazon. Maybe I can make a little cash doing that. I don't get that much traffic from this site but I have made other blog and dumped a whole. How to market your auto dealership online and that go quite a bit of traffic.

Well I think I'm gonna try and go back to bed. 

It's five am and I need to be up at eight am. For breakfast. Toast and juice and then most of the guys head back to sleep and usually get up around ten and hang out. It's boring but I getta do what I want for the most part. 

Will go for now. 

Why am I blogging?

Don't know what to blog about and I have been cold calling. I need to cold call?

I don't know. Can I make it to cash through blogging.

I had one good lead yesterday and I don't know if they want to buy.

But if he does pay the $250 or $400. That's a decent days work. Quirky huh. I don't know.

I can't believe people don't want to get a website for thier business. I want to fix thier online presence. It should be mandatory. Messed up phone number, websites they don't load, it's time to get a new website. Know what I mean.

But God always provides and I know I just need to take it easy and surrender to him.

I can cold call and I can make it happen. Life can open up with blessings. I wanna work a normal job from time to time but cold calling is worth way more money.

So you know I want to get to the money.

I wanna hang out with my friends.

I wanna party and I wanna make music.

Sounds fun dosent it?

I haven't talked to my friends in years.

I dont even know any of my old friends anymore.

Right now I am waiting for my ZEST tea.

I hope it taste good and give me a little spark and makes me feel good.

I wanna move to a huge city and hang out. I live getting into good basketball games and hang out at night and stay in hotels. Think I'll make it. I've been having trouble staying in just water and it's driving me crazy. I mean drinking just water. I get so tired. Sometimes a tea does make me feel better. I don't know what to do. Should I drink a Rockstar and cold call. Should I just stick to blogging. I think I need money now. I know I have to work on something everyday.

Life is full of luck. Spark the mind, keep people warm, be inspirational, show people what's up and work hard. I know I need to work harder but I did study my ass off and now know how to make money from anywhere.

It's kinda of a sign of relief. It feels good I can Hustle up some extra cash when I need it. It's a big world out thier and you never know where you will go and what you will do.

Take photos and shine, be the change you want to be. I know that I never wanna drink again, I wanna party but I don't want to drink.

I wanna be a soberist. I know I said I wanna party with my friends but at the same time I wanna be sober. Did I just mess up, I don't know.

I miss my parents Somedays and though I'm too old to go back home I have to think and hope they are doing well. I worry. I saw them a couple months ago and they looked good. I'm so glad it's real.

I have to make it on my own with a life and make money. I wanna travel, I love flying and seeing what's going on, meeting new friends and hanging out.

Where's your favorite place to travel and site see?

I have only been out of the country one time and that was to Jamaica.

I know if I don't work harder on my phone I'm gonna get a shitty ass job and not doing anything but work.

I know that blogging will take time but cold calling could pay off right away.

Well should I hop back on the phone at 1p.m.? Should I sit here cold calling. I have thought about going state by state and calling in all types of niches, right now I am targeting grocery stores and trying to get a nice presence online. Why would people not want to get a new website?

How should monitor leads? Zoho? Or should I try Google docs until I have enough money for Google workspaces. I wanna keep everything around Google so I can log in from anywhere and run my business.

I have to buy some better email addresses and not have the Gmail at the end of my email address.

I'm drinking rockstar and I'm not supposed to

  I thought I needed them for energy but I don't really feel that good on them. 

I'm outside now.

It's warm and I kinda got dizzy. Not good.

Scrolling though Facebook. Nothing much to read. Nothing much very intetesting. 

So be it then, what's the day hold.

Here we are again and I'm feeling OK.

I know blogging is worth something to me, I just don't know yet. I know I need to work harder on my blog. I have to reflect. I have to sit here and think about all the stupid things I did, how I skipped school and made a mess of myself. 

I have to mess with myself a little different, I have to make amends with all the people I hurt. I really have to reflect. 

God keeps us safe.

Some days I don't feel safe.

What do I do?

I open up my Bible.

I try to weather it a little differently.

I try to notice what makes me feel not ok.

I have to be mindful.

That's how I feel.

Then I read my Bible.

I turn the Christian channel on.

I want to feel OK.

I want to feel safe.

Was gonna write for a while but I want to get some exercise.

I want to enjoy the nice days while the last.

God keep me safe. 

Reading

What are you reading? I don't know what to read. What books should I open and garner inspiration from.

Somedays I feel like I do all the wrongs things, uninspired. How do we become inspired?

What do we have to read to get inspiration.

I read the Bible and it feels like or I read that God will punish us and send famine and pestilence. I mean life is hard enough already.

What do we have to do to get out of the way?

I don't know. 

I don't even know if God condones me blogging and speaking my mind freestyle writing.

I know this is a problem.

For me anyways.

I have to appease God is that my problem? 

Sunday blogging...........

So here are again on another wonderful Sunday morning.

Dont know what to talk about but might as well make the most of it.

Life can pull you in so many different directions.

Dont really know what to do.

I want to work eight hours but it's Sunday.

Can't cold call and I have to keep myself in check I mean I really have to keep myself in check.

I ordered some Rockstars and I know better. But it was the only thing on Amazon that didn't have such high shipping costs.

So here I am with twenty four in the way and it's supposed to arrive tomorrow.

I know I have a problem. I keep wanting to chase that high. I have a problem and I don't trust myself around drugs.

I have asked for help in my own little way but no one knows what to do with me because I'm grown ass man.

I mean I really dont know what to do.

I have to be on point. I can't go to the bar and I know damn well I can be around cocaine.

But I do like chilling with friends.

Who should I talk to about my problems?

You?.......

Life funny and it flies by. Will this blog even mean anything when I'm done. Will you even miss me and what should I do. Put out music. I mean cmon now is YouTube gonna look back and let people know that I was here and this is what I'm about?

Watched part of the UFC prelims last night and it keeps me busy. Pro football is on all day today. Who should I watch?

Should I go check?

Let's see.

Five games on today and I don't want to list them all out.

Man looking back I wish I could get on a team. Nobody thought I was good enough even though I started in high school and the only thing I took serious was hanging with my friends and partying. The more I tried getti g better at basketball and doing yoga and. Practicing. The more people I saw to play against didn't matter. I used to play at the Iowa City field house. It's an awesome gym and has like eight basketball courts for you to run games on.

There are some pretty girls and boy were they pretty. I mean man and I didn't have the guts to talk to them. They were always at the Yoga studio. I love hot yoga and my mom put me onto it. I love working out but it's not really worth any money. I know I have to find a job and make some money. I need to make money and I don't know if blogging is gonna get me thier.

Should I go to church today and what do you think about that. I mean how do I get right with God.

How do I make something out of my life. What do you want to be.

Can we make little rap concerts and go to them and get paid a couple hundred per night. Would people even want to see me rap and what a pipe dream that is.

Dont have thatany people talking to me on Facebook. Except on Facebook messenger, all types of girls on their. I wonder if Mark Zuckerberg thinks its some type dating app with all the girls posting sexy photos of themselves unless thier all fake accounts.

I get a lot of messages from girls but I don't know if they are real accounts.

Well it's almost breakfast and I want a coffee and a piece of toast. I know I need to take better care of myself but I like a cup of coffee and a diet coke at the same time and a piece of toast and maybe one smoke in the morning. I know it's not the healthiest breakfast but it makes me feel better for a limited time.

Nothing but sports on ESPN maybe I should turn the news on and watch that.

I just never feel good and I always have to power through and make the most out of my day.

Covids still an issue on the news and I don't know what to think about it.

I hope the coffees good this morning. I know I shouldn't have none but it tastes good and keeps me warm. It's good to stay warm?

I don't know, is it about keep other people warm? Is it psychic and I don't know what to think I get pulled in so many different directions and I dont know if anything is gonna pay off.

Whats life all about and why do people pick the occupations they do. It's mind blowing that people want to be in the occupation they do. It's a funny world out their and some day I feel like a alien and I wonder what we're doing here on earth with gun violence and fighting and brawling and stealing and I don't know what to think about it.

I mean I surely am not that cool. I'm no fool and I know it to a certain extent. Maybe I should just get a small part time job and stick with it and enjoy it.

I mean it dosent take much to make me happy. I just need little piddly stuff like a couple sodas and a basketball gym and maybe a smartphone and I feel alright.

I just don't know what to do with myself.

I have to do what I love?

Is that the right way forward?

What does God want with me?....

I don't know. 

Blog for one hour? Think I will make it?.. Will try......

So what to talk about. I know a good book would strike some good ideas. I know that's how it works.

You really have to practice writing to get good at it. I like commenting on people's Facebook posts. Is that OK.

Hard to hide.

I have no idea what to talk about, I just thought I would write whatever I feel like writing..

Nick Diaz is coming back to the UFC after a six year suspension for smoking weed.

He will fight Robbie Lawler, I thinks that how I spell it.

Should be a good fight, hopefully it is.

Does it ever feel like people are doing jokes on you. I can never figure out anything. 

I want to buy the six ninety a month ESPN plus.

It looks like it would be worth it.

Everythings moving to the phone and I don't know what to think. I gotta make something out of this phones thing and see where it takes me. It's gotta take me something.

Kanye West is playing on the music channel right now. Let's see what song it is.

Jail

Kanye west

Donda

I kinda like the album, I bet it would be fun to drive around and listen to it.

I love making music.

But I'm not that good at it.

What else is going on.

Think I should read a book. 

Life is pretty boring and it's night time. 

I don't know....

I don't have that many friend's. 

Nobody wants to hang out with someone who has no money and big money dreams. 

Guess who's going to jail tonight. 

Kanye West 

OK does that make sense? 

I don't know. 

We really have to find a way through this mess. 

We have to be understanding and smart. 

Funny world out there. 

Funny things work out the way they do. 

I have no desire to blog for eight hours a day or even a day or even an hour. 

Think I will open up a book. 

Cash app

Have you ever used the cash app in the app market?

I'm trying get it to work for me but I don't think they will send me a card at a po box.

I don't know what to think.

I really want to start making some money and  sick of using PayPal.

I know I should blog here for an hour but I don't want to.

All these people with more drive and better work effort are getting way ahead of me in this world.

You ever understand what happens to a city after a hurricane. How do we recover and why would this happen to us?

I don't know what to think.

I might need to read more scripture tonight and I don't really know what to do.

Maybe God will lead me into a path of prosperity.

You think?.....

I want to make over a hundred thousand per month, no I mean year.

I don't know what to think. 

I know I have to go sober and let's see in read something in a church bulletin we can go to Holy Spirit through water. You think that will work? I know it's the best way forward. 

I'm watching neighborhood wars on AE. 

I like the shows but I also know I have to make something out of what I'm watching and I don't think the TV is doing that for me. 

I know I need to get deeper in scripture and even though I might seem like I'm getting off base I know that it's the only way through. 

I know I got to do it to lengthen my life and the way a youngan can cleanse his way by heeding to the word thereof. 

I don't know what to think. 

What am I missing? 

All these dilemas sitting in your chair, none of them are real. We just have a kid sitting thier and he has nothing, so maybe it's time to read. 

I don't know.......

Not many people like me and I get this pull that I should come to Christ with them. 

This is the best way forward for me. 

You know what mean. 

I don't know. 

I haven't had that good I'd life and it's always about having the wrong people around me. I know I got to get better friends but I do know that I still want to party. I wake up and everybodies thier and their is noway to make some money and it drives me crazy. 

I don't know. 

So many ass holes and people talking shit. 

Or maybe thier not. 

Maybe it's here to strengthin me. 

You think that works. 

I hope God gives me a good life. 

I hope thier is a good life ahead for me. I hope so. 

So much bad inner talk and psychosis. 

I was diagnosed with Pschoprenia and it sucks. I take Caplyta and it dosent see like it makes a difference. 

I just don't noticed a difference. 

Well... 

Blogging for an hour and I don't want to. 

So will let you go. 

Do people break free with tons of cash blogging and stay at the tightest hotels?

I don't know but it sounds tight.

It sounds awesome.

I wanna do it.

I wanna make it happen.

What else is going on?

White label nutritional supplements.

Should I brand some and try to put them on Amazon or on a website.

How do I know what's in them.

How do I know they are good for you.

I don't know but companies want me to sell them.

I'm gonna go have a cup of coffee and head to church.

Sit for Wednesday service.

I have to shower tonight as well.

I wanna get one more jog in before the night is over.

Nothing else is really going on.

I'm dressed up for church. 

Just had dinner.

Breakfast burritos and hash brown patty.

Maybe they will have desert at church.

A cup of coffee.

Watching court cam right now.

Some real weirdos out there.

Not friendly.

Designing your own apparel and custom clothing.

There are quite a few ads on my Facebook feed that want you to design clothes with them.

I wanna do it and make my own e-commerce site and see if it sells. It's kinda of a good idea and I wanna see if it works out.

I wanna get stuff, like clothes that fit my style.

I wonder how many people will make thier own clothing system and get people to buy it.

What else should I do.

With Shopify they let you to design your own store using Printly to make custom clothes for your business.

What if I just took a thousand bucks and ordered my own clothes.

What do you think?

I don't know.

But some of it looks like a good deal.

People just dont have the money.

I mean its tough.

Life is tough.

Life can hard.

Living in downtown Denver it just seems like everyone has money and gets to drive around while I struggle for money.an it would be awesome to get some money coming in.

My parents just ain't that rich and I have to keep that in mind and know that they struggle and they are smarter than me.

I mean smaller than me too.

It sucks.

What I really want to do is save up money and win a Aba live championship. That means I need to study and market and run and lift everyday. A true champion.

I can never smoke again.

I have to keep it clean and struggle through.

Man it just sucks that it's so hard to make money.

I dont know what to think.

Should I just look for a job and forget all my dreams.

Nobody wants to forget about thier dreams.

Who can do that.

I missed out on like ten seasons.

I don't even know if the coach will let me on the team.

I don't know what to think.

I have it pretty nice where I am and I don't want to get too comfortable.

I really need to stay busy and not get to complacent.

I mean I don't know what to think.

I just struggle. 

Some people are so successful and I wonder what they do everyday. 

I need to make money. 

I need toake something out of this. 

I really want to hoop. 

I really want to make it happen. 

I love basketball and rapping and I do like blogging sometimes.

You just don't know. 

I try to understand what God wants me to do and no so much what God has in store for me. 

Scary to think about. We have freedoms and freedom of choice. 

God just watches over us. 

I don't know. 

I'm listening to Pop Smoke and it's to bad he died. It's too bad that we lost soany great people in this world. 

Kobe Bryant

John Mcfee

Nypsey Hussle

DMX

My grandma

My friends dad

 Nicki Minajs Dad

Just to name a few but at the same time to many great people with just that list. 

Ohh yeah and my friend named Heather died and I have no idea what happened do her. 

I was just with her before she died. 

So many mean people out thier.

It helps me make sense of it all a little bit different when I write about it. 

It makes me see people different and maybe I could of saved them. I should of did something about it. I should have called and see what these people are doing. Wonder what they are doing and how they are feeling. 

It's just so tough to say. 

It's so tough to know. 

It is so tough to understand. 

I wanna ride around doing stuff to keep busy and in reality I should be home studying and working on the phone. 

I wonder what apps make money? 

How long does it take to search through the app market and see what's out thier. 

But I do know I need to study harder. 

Feeling like I should blog for eight hours per day. You think? 

That's gonna be a long blog and I doubt anyone is gonna wanna read a blog post that long. 

I'm listening to music on the TV and it sucks and I need to change it. 

I nned to stop drinking coffee but I dont have any energy in the morning. 

I want to run and get some exercise and see how I feel. 

I really want to take on life in a whole new way. I want to order creatine but I don't want to get in trouble for it. Even though I want it bad. 

Think I should order it anyway? 

I don't know. 

This is beginning to look like a big Ole blog post. 

You know what I could do is. 

Design my own shirts, order a bunch of them and then sell them for more on Amazon and a e-commerce site. 

This might work. 

What do you think? 

It's not a bad idea. 

Just got back from joggin and I tried to do some yoga in the field down the street. 

It's a big Ole field for sale and there is usually nobody in it. 

Anyways...... 

What else is going on? 

I think I saved some of the apparel companies that will let me design my own clothes on Facebook. 

Will have to check them out later. 

I'm bored. 

I dont know what to do. 

I need money and their has to be a way to get it. 

Should I start doing more with my blog?

I dont know. Maybe use it more then using Facebook? 

I wonder how many people made a full time income on blogging?

I love to go to the major cities and head to the suburbs and go shopping and hang out. 

I love doing that. 

I love hanging out and seeing new people. 

I mean it's just so much fun. 

Blogging is cool.

What to write about. Thinking making podcasts is easier even though I don't know what to think about.

Not much going on with me and I'm just hanging out.

I don't know what to think.

I don't want to blog but I know I should.

I just don't feel like I'm getting anything done.

I need to find stuff to do.

I need to make money.

Does a good money even could or would happen...........

HI how is everyone and what is their to think about today?

I don't know I feel like I'm.being coached by people that aren't thier.

I feel like think are never gonna work out in my favor. 

I want to travel, I want to see the world. I want to travel and see the world.

I don't know what to think but blogging for a full hour is not my Forte.

I need to drink more water as every morning is me on coffee.

I like coffee but the stuff I got isn't that strong.

Nothing like a strong cup of coffee.

Not thing makes sense.

But blogging.

I'm looking at Jake Paul videos and I don't know what to think.

Prolly not my Forte to get famous on YouTube.

I know I have to get up to a thousand subscribers to do YouTube Live even though I'm not that good looking.

It's wild that we can advertise in the phone.

We can video tape ourselves and let the world see who you are.

You can talk about whatever you want.

What is their to talk about anyways.

YouTube videos that people want to watch?

Thi hs like me don't really make sense to people but making money solely from my phone is really up thier.

I can't wait for basketball this winter, it's looks exciting. I wanna see how the Los Angeles Lakers stack up to the Brooklyn Nets. This should be real awesome.

Stupid phone keyboard is hard to type with and I running through typos. 

Should I try to make a living solely from my smartphone.

Think that could happen?

I know I need to write better blog posts but I am just getting started.

I need to write for another half and hour.

Nothing to write about.

What do people want to hear me talk about.

I don't know.

I get no traffic in my blog.

I get no visitors.

I want to travel the world and see everything.

I want to see what the world has to offer.

What the world wants I mean what is going on out thier.

Should I buy my own plane and travel.

What do you think.

Will blogging get me thier with money.

I was looking through Ecommerce sites and the biggest ones and Alibaba is the biggest worldwide and Amazon is half the size of that, interesting to know.

I have been dreaming of making big sites and cashing in. Maybe it will work and maybe it won't. GoDaddy has a good Ecommerce platform and it's pretty fun to use.

It's about breakfast time for me and I'm not hungry. What should I do.

Maybe just eat a piece of toast while people want to take over my life.

Where can I even go with no money.

I'm dying to make some money here and think I should cold call all day and see where that takes me.

What should I use to keep track of all my calls and where should I log data. ZOHO?

I don't know, I think I am going to look at Google workspace. See what that's all about.

Should I do everything solely on my phone?

I mean what should we do.

Maybe I should make it happen today with money and have a good life here. I mean I just don't know what to think.

I wish GoDaddy would make a mobile app builder. That would be pretty cool to use.

I like GoDaddy for making websites and trying to sell stuff even. I live the dashboard even.

What should I make a Ecommerce site out of?

Should I make it to sell watches and where I gonna source the watches and what type of watches should I sell?

Rolex

I have seen some pretty cool watches for sale but trying to sell of another Ecommerce site is kind a hard, you never know how to sell without the fear of something happening and them running out of their watches or them changing thier site and not knowing where the watch went. It seems like a lot of work.

But if you sell off of a big e-commerce site it's much easier to sell.

Least you know the site will not somehow go down.

It's almost breakfast time and I'm not hungry.

I'm not thirsty and I have pills to take this morning.

I just don't know what to think. 

Blog for one hour.

Yo.

I'm blogging and every touch of the keys on the keyboard is worth millions.

Wouldn't that be awesome?

I don't know but one hour of blogging while everyone is working and making a living and here I am with no money and how do I stack a couple million to spend and ride around with.

I'm so bored and blogging just sucks. 

But their has to be a way through.

I'm not feeling the best and I know I need to write for an hour but I just don't feel like it.

I'm watching Dateline on TV right now and it's pretty interesting.

There are some cool ideas out thier and I don't know.what to think. 

Do you think a giant e-commerce store is the best way forward?

Well drop shipping is cool.

Have a site that let's you sell thier stuff and has a huge portfolio is cool.

I want to sell and I want to build my own e-commerce site. Sourcing the product is the problem. Making sure you have the product on hand. So you can sell.

I wanna sell.

What if I built a huge e-commerce site and started selling. I kind of get the angle.

It's nice to have a huge store.

I mean it can be hard to run but who knows where a huge store online can take you? Maybe your own physical location.

Is e-commerce where it is at for you to start a brand and make money online.

Drop shipping from China I don't know.

Building a big ecomerce store and making it work so people want to buy and people want to come back.

How do you get traffic.

Well I posted a blog post FROM GoDaddy if you figure out what I am saying. Or hat it is saying.

Can you rank free domain and get ecom sales? Can you build and sell online with out buying a domain?

I don't know but we will try to figure it out. 

Ok I'm going fishing.

What should I catch.

What should I do.

I wanna fish and catch something.

The first of the month I have money coming to me.

I'm hungry for money and I really want to make it.

I think blogging is the only thing to do.

I mean this just sucks.

I tried to order off of Amazon and I cant buy shit with out super high shipping fees. 

Ok I can blog for a half an hour..........

Don't know what to think. Not a while lot of money, thinking about ordering some soda and doing it off of Amazon.

I hate how I feel when I don't drink enough caffiene. I dont know what to think.

I'm bored and I don't feel like doimg anything.

This sucks 

aok, I'm blogging at 7:30 for two hours. You think I'll make it?

I don't want to die. I don't want to die young.

I want to make better decisions.

I have to make better decisions.

What do I do? 

Monday night football is on tonight.

Is it gonna be a good game?

I don't know.

I'm double spacing my sentences, I'm trying to be smart when interacting with people.

I know I'm not that smart.

Maybe I  should  be more ballsy.

I don't know.

I can't figure out how to make good decisions.

I'm mean jeeze their are so many dickheads in this world and they love to take thier shit out on people.

This fucking sucks.

What can I do.

Write about it?

Or what the fuck is going on.

This shit sucks.

I got people I don't know telling me what to do and who I am here. 

I mean cmon now. 

I'm mean who are you.

Your way fitter than me, you stay healthy like me? I run and hoop that is the deal.

These people love to point the finger. 

What should we do with them.

Everybodies gotta take me down.

Everybodies gotta tell me who I am here based on some Universities teaching that I'm psychophrenic or something. I'm not sane. I'm this and that. I'm corny I'm honery and I love to get in trouble.

Well if that's the case that means I'll travel the world. What else is there to say.

What do we do? Nothing we just blog. I'm trying to be cool but nobody likes me.

I have no friends and I don't know where to go. I have to work on something. Seventy dollars to go to Minneapolis and try to get a job their. Think I should and just skip town and see what happens with me?

If I saved enough money to live on it might be better. I could travel and hide out around the world.

You think I could blog to that amount of money? How many hours per day should I blog? I mean hide around the world. Where are some of the best places to hide?

You think I should hide around and blog about it and it won't really work if I take pictures.

Everybody will know where I am.

Unless they never read this blog.

I will just travel.

Maybe thinking I should go inside and watch football now. Nothing else on TV.

I can't sleep this early and I have to get something done. I am at a board n lodge in a small town in Minnesota. I'm hibernating and hallucinating and it feels like I can't hide. 

Can you even hide. Anywhere in this world.

What do your think.

I can't stand I'm not on the road traveling.

I'm getting tons of feedback I don't want.

I'm terrified of people that don't like me and I have met some mean people on Craigslist and it's messing with me.

I got to go to a class every month, I mean every Monday and it's all about me talking about how my week went and what I did. I have no ride anywhere so what I do is sleep and watch TV.

People are dying around me and they were older than me. I think I am a bad influence. Maybe, to many sodas and to many cigars. You have to be careful with people. 

You have to be smart.

Should I go to bed? I still told myself I would blog for another hour and a half. What should I talk about? What do you think I should talk about. Could you I imagine blogging for eight hours per day?

You think that would pay off? I mean is that a good occupation? Is that worth it?

I don't know, making a living from blogging is something in an of itself.

It is what it is.

Somedays it feels like everyone is out in the road doing what they want. I want to travel and hang out at different hotels. Just hanging out and enjoying myself. I still go forty dollars in my Amazon account to spend. What should I buy with such high shipping and handling fees.

I want some soda.

I might have a little job this week and maybe that will pay off. If I can earn some little money and see how that goes.

I want to listen to some new music?

What is good out thier?

I don't know what to think.

I don't know where to go.

I have to make a life for myself somehow.

I have to find a wife?

How am I gonna do that with no money.

Nobody wants to marry a broke joke and hang out with losers.

I mean I got to break free with some money and that means working on something for eight hours per day.

I wish there were jails that let me sit for a couple months and let me work on my phone and feel safe and motivated to follow your dreams. It's weird in jail I got all these ideas to get something, write about something and study something. I have dreams I want to accomplish but the outside world is just to dangerous. It's to nasty to even know what to do. 

Ok an hour and fifteen minutes left and Monday night football is on and both teams are tied or almost. Aaron Rogers and he's trying to get in the end zone.

Apple just advertised the new IPhone 13 and you can video tape and make movies and do what you want to. It looks kind a cool and I wonder if Android will come out with something better. It will be cool to see where thing are going. The industry will change and the world will see new and unique ideas coming around from people who have just enough money to buy one. 

Do you think people are getting rich from thier phone and what do you think about this.

Are people making a living from thier phone and how do you think this is happening, I mean what are they doing.

OK I can't quit now, one more hour of writing. You think I should reread this and fix errors and make sure everything makes sense.

I don't even feel like I made sense.

A while back I didn't care about my phone but now I do. I used to go to phone store all the time and try to get my parents to buy me a new phone. But I dont do that now I just hang out and keep my phone safe and I rarely take it with me so it dosent break. I never will lose my phone again and will take as much care of it as I can.

That's reminds me I want to get my mom a phone case and send it to her through Amazon.

I wonder how much some people pay for their phone if they are rich. Water proof phones? Phones with tons of power and ability to take video and record for ever.

Sometimes my phone won't easily upload long videos onto YouTube. It just freezes and I have to record shorter videos. 

Can you imagine making movies on your phone? That could disrupt the movie industry. Youtube will take off and who knows what people will watch nice days.

So I don't care about rereading this and fixing it. I just don't care. But what I do want is to blog for two hours straight and see what I come up with.

You think I should blog for eight hours per day?

Or you think I should get on my laptop and make an effort to make some money on that?

You think I should do that?

I really don't want to do anything other than conquer the phone and see where it takes me.

It's stressful but at the same time it is worth it.

I wanna make music and have used some of the music apps like Offtop and rap chat and try to rap to some beats but I suck at it. And it drives me nuts that I suck at music so bad.

I just can't figure it out. 

I have made over four hundred songs and think maybe five thousand songs might be better.

What should I do.

Think I should dig deeper into the app market?

I wanna go back to Denver and hang out and go to clubs. I wanna go bad. I wanna club and travel and hang out and meet girls.

I can't take the anxiety and listening to music drives me nuts that I'm not on the beach hanging with woman and seeing whose out thier for me. I don't know. 

I've had chances with money and failed.

I wanna meet so many woman and see what's going on down thier.

I fuckin hate that I'm such a week bitch and not a hard worker that travels the world.

You think I should blog or build people websites and maintain them. I don't want a regular job at all and all I wanna do is work from my phone and go to space. 

I want to build my own space company and fire little Rockets deep in space and see what I can see out thier. 

I mean does that make sense.

I wanna meet people that can make a full time income strictly from thier phone?

How do you think I can pull that off?

I got forty minutes left of blog time and I don't know what to write about.

Should I buy a cheap little house in a small town and then just buy a couple cars and travel all around or take the bus places and just hang out and see what people are doing on. 

How fuckin hard can be to break free with money?

Pardon my language.

I need to make cash and I need to make it quick. I really want to make the most of things.

I have no idea what to think.

I love yoga.

I might have to start practicing in a field down the street. 

I like stretching and feeling good. I have to make myself ready to play the game.

I have to conquer this world in my own little way. I have to conquer. 

Do something with your life.

Make something happen.

Be peculiar.

Be powerful and be honest and real.

Be you and stop trying to be somebody else and be a powerful human being and make a life for yourself in high rise condos and enjoy yourself.

I mean what else can you do.

I mean I just don't know what think.

I'm evil.

I'm. Not.

I'm sincere.

I'm. Cool.

What are you?

I wanna meet new and powerful people and see what they are all about. 

I don't know. 

I'm tired and lack motivation. 

I hate music and it makes me want to go out to the club every night.

I dont think that is the best idea.

But I wanna do it.

I wanna drive a Lamborghini and enjoy life.

I wanna fly around the world.

I wanna rock diamonds. And look cool.

I wanna wear awesome and pricy watches.

I know how to do that.

I know that I can get a business to pour marketing money on me.

I wanna market and get my hands on all types of stuff.

Nobody wants to do what I want to do.

Think I could sell houses and get my own houses.

Evem though three hundred thousand per year is enough to get me a couple awesome houses and let me travel. 

Will that work.

I don't know.

I have to buy into myself and really learn how to sell from your phone.

People want to buy from thier phone. 

They want to make a life here.

I want to make a life here.

Twenty five minutes left of blogging for tonight even though I should blog all night long and see if I can blog way out of poverty.

Can you even do that?

Can I even make that happen.

Blog your way out of poverty.

You think I should make a podcast tonight?

Maybe a twenty minute one.

I doubt Noone will listen.

The internets a funny thing and it works for some people and not Alot for other people. 

Sleepy is what I am getting around right now. 

I don't need to sleep so early.

Well might turn it back to the game and I'm watching Mental Health and its on AE. 

I mean thats how I feel. 

I need mental health sometimes and I know that can be the best way forward.

Watching people getting stuck in mental health would kinda suck but I went to Sioux Falls mental health and it was nice and I should have stayed thier. 

It's nice. 

Well let's go see what's going on with game. 

Green bays up by four and they are playing the lions and its pretty close game. 

I don't know. 

I don't know what to think. 

I have to treat myself better. I drank to much coffee today and it dosent do shit for me and I can't stay awake. 

Maybe I should just sleep for a while until I feel good again. 

I don't know. 

Searching for money and searching for God. 

I mean should we just focus on God all day and hope he provides or should I hunt down money and have a real life here with a wife and children and cars and a house to live in. 

I mean what is the deal here. 

Money is no issue here. 

I mean I need money. 

I don't want to get old with no money. 

That would suck. 

People provide for me. The government provides for me and it sucks. 

I like living here for free and I like getting fed everyday but I don't know if woman will want a man like that. 

My battery's going dead. 

Ten more minutes. 

A two hour blog post. 

Should I work day and night on building my company and making it work. 

I mean what is really important here. 

What really matters here. 

What is it like to be powerful. 

What does it feel like to feel loved.

Nobosy talks to me. 

Nobody likes me and maybe like Drake says I'm losing friends and finding peace I guess thats a fair exchange. 

Maybe that's important. 

Find friends that want to make money. 

I mean does that make sense. 

Can you even find people online that want to make money. 

I got scalp oil I use and it smells. 

Where I am going thier is a gym to hoop in and a. Swimming pool and a movie theater along with what looks like a nice library. 

I will have to find ways to stay busy. 

I can play basketball all day but it isn't worth any money. 

That's sucks. 

I almost have to make money and making something happen. 

You think I should build with GoDaddy site builder? 

It let you publish and use free domains.

Its pretty cool. 

I'm thinking about making a beer distribution channel. 

I don't know yet. 

It might work and it might not. Will.have to see. 

I don't know if its a good idea but it came to mind. 

They want to make apps to sell beer and maybe I can build a niche site and see if it sells. 

It's a decent idea.

Maybe I should just sell stuff I want to buy myself.

Maybe that is the best way forward.

You think?

One minute left.

Ooohhh it's nine thirty.

Bye. 

I just blog.

So here we are again. I don't know what to talk about. But there has to be something to talk about.

It just makes no sense I have nothing to say. Peopke are making millions on blogging and I have not earned even a penny.

I mean what is the deal.

No traffic and I don't have nothing to say.

How does this work and what do I need to do to make this work. 

Ok back at it again.

Ok I'm blogging.

It's storming. 

Want to mice to LA.

Want money.

Maybe moving to fast.

But at the time we went to get paid for the time we put in.

What else can we do.

We want to get paid for our shift online.

How can we do that.......... 

Money sources

Have you had trouble with money? Maybe you need to figure a different way through life.

I know I need too. Asking my dad or mom just isn't working. Money isn't that easy to come bye and saving money in the bank just feels fishy.

Where can you keep your money safe? I don't really know.

But what I do know is thier is some ways out of debt.

How would I get out of debt?

Well.... 

Amazon

This is one money source and while it might feel hard to learn at first it might be a great way to make some extra cash. 

Fivver

You can make a little ten dollars per day selling Gigs. I do it and I like having money for some snacks. It's better than asking mommy and daddy. 

Craiglist

Download a logo app, make your logo and then start selling something in Craigslist. Sell text message marketing, sell old furniture, sell websites. Try to build your brand on Craigslist. 

Blogger

This dosent really make that much money but it might be worth it in the long run. Just keep building your blog and see where it takes you. You might come up with another way to make money while your busy writing. 

Wordpress

Make a WordPress e-commerce site and rank it and sell cookware or somwthing online. I don't know if this perfectly legal but it might make you some extra cash. 

Well that's all I can really think of right now. If you have any other ideas let me know. We can post them here. 

So I'm really tired.

Coffee is not waking me up. I feel tired. I could sleep all day and I have no money.

I need to make money and I'm am trying my hand at cold calling. I have to build a process to make money. Make sure I keep track of everybody I have called. I will have to do some of it on my laptop unless I really narrow it out in my phone.  It's wierd asking people for money and I need to make money and have money. I have friends all with money and I know they feel good about driving around with nice cars.

I should have been cold calling all the time and I'd be having money by now. 

I started over ten years ago and I should have had money by now. Shameful.

Weak.

I'm feel like such a loser. I should be long gone with money and be driving around with a wife and kids. I don't know what the hell I'm thinking. I make just a little money and I think I am OK. This is not true. I need to stack my chips to the ceiling. Crap. I feel terrible just talking about it. How am I going to get married and what do I need to do.

So I asked my mom for money and she is pissed off at me. Not ok on my part.

I want twenty dollars to go buy some snacks and it would be nice to have since I am so tired and don't want to do anything but sleep. It drives me crazy through and my mind is running wild that I'm gonna miss out on all the fun.

I don't want to miss out out on the fun.

Theres places to go and things to see. 

I mean there is all this stuff to see.

I need to bust ass on the phone to make it happen.

A hundred grand per year cannot be impossible to make. That will get me two nice homes and that will make me feel great.

I wanna travel out of the country and see the world. 

So many people out thier that got rich young and are long gone with money. Here I am watching mystery television. 

Sucks.

Nobody wants to make money with me. Nobody gives a damn about going places and seeing what's out there for us. 

I don't know...

Enough from me......

So.....

How do people make so much money?

I don't know but I struggle with it everyday.

I know that I need to find a way to earn. 

I need to find a path to money and God at the same time. 

I really need to find purpose in this life and make something happen. 

Maybe I should do a few pod cast and see what happens. 

Should I start my own podcast system and see where it takes me. 

I really want to earn money over the internet. 

I have ways I am able to do this. 

There has got to be a way for me. 

Ok what now.

I don't know what to think. Another blog post. Me writing and thinking and trying to do my best.

I really want to make the best out of myself.

I don't know how.

I don't have much inspiration.

Maybe I should put some music on.

I want to move to Los Angeles.

I want to hang out in nice homes.

I want to enjoy myself.

I really want to enjoy life.

But how do u do that.

Is a small town going to take me down?

Can I escape hell.

Can I get paid and make a life for myself?

I don't really know.

I am not really feeling writing this.

I want to sleep kinda but I know I need to stay awake. 

Brevard Sheriff releases video of ambush shooting that left gunman death...

What should we talk about now.

I dont know.

Been having dilemmas.

Searching for cash.

I know I need money and that is what I want but does God want me having any money.

Is God leading me around.

It's plain and simple to me now after living here in a board n lodge for so long.

I don't feel that Christian.

What I do know is I might search for God and then I go in pursuit for money.

I want money.

I want to chill and travel.

I want to meet new people.

I want to party.

Dont you.

Now how do I do this?

I dont know if it will work out for me.

I know I need to work really hard for my money and I struggle with my money sources.

This is important to me that I get money from the right sources. But does God want me having any money?

I have had some pretty shitty days and I sat their thinking God can you tame this. Is this what God wants me to do? Have him taming everything so I feel OK. I just don't know how this is gonna work out.

Is God really talking to us every second of every single day?

It's tough.

I don't like the morning's.

I don't like opening my Bible, I wanna sleep and I don't know what God wants.

Do you like Arby's. It's OK, not my favorite not like Hardee's which might have the best burgers I have had out of a fast food restaurant.

Big shout out to Hardee's. Thanks for the jalapeño burger.

What else is going on.....

.... Does God want me having Hardee's?..........

Ok new blog source........... Jesus Christ says this. Get a job and get moving stop try to get on SNL.

What do you know today............ What should we do. Where should I go.

What do I think.

I don't know. 

What can we do. 

Blog all we do is blog.

So I'm having ideas where every one is having the time of thier life and here I am trying to blog to money.

I mean is that even gonna work?

Should I party or go do yoga.

Theres girl to hang out with.

Right now I am watching First 48.

I mean Court Cam in AE.

Fun times huh.

Am supposed to tell you how to make money even though I don't have any money right now.

Stick to your guns.

Make the money happen.

Are we scared of money?

Mildred

I tried for ever to make money online.

Offering to fix peoples website and or put a new website up for them.

Even though I want to sell apps I have no app dealer.

I want to sell websites on Craigslist, but in reality I want to make a website that makes money on its own.

What business model could we find that works.

Well there are a couple or maybe only one.

What is it.

The only thing I can think of Amazon Kindle. This allows you to make a book and then it sells you just collect the money from the book sale.

Should I do that or blog.

Blogging.

I kinda wanna blog.

I kinda don't.

What I do know is that I don't know if I can write a while book.

Maybe a fifty pager at ninety nines cents.

Making just twenty bucks per week is enough to have a coffee or soda everyday.

Blogging....

Not so much money coming in.

I don't k kw how I am going to get married with no money.

Can you imagine your girlfriend asking what you do for a living and you tell her that you blog for a living or write Kindle Books?

I don't know how that will fly, I mean who wants to marry a blogger.

But their might be someone out their that will. Who knows.

Making a blogging income would be kinda cool. 

I wonder if I will ever have kids and why would I, I'm too ugly.

Maybe I should buy some cocaine and blog. Do you think any major bloggers work this way.

I don't know but that might now be the way for me. 

I got me a driver...........

So I got people picking me up and taking me to appointments and it's kinda cool. They haul me around. I'm going to Bemidji and it's for a dentist appointment. Last time I checked I told them that I stole a car and that's why I got up here.

I mean I swear I needed out of the city that I was in and so I hopped into a vehicle and took off with it.

Now I need to pay a restitution and I also have to pay the state money to get my license back.

How that's gonna go I don't know. 

I don't know what to think.

I'm trying to make money on my phone and I keep figuring out ways to make that happen.

I think I already discussed how to make money from my phone. I am trying to do it now. It is possible. I pitch businesses on getting a new website. Then I make the website ony smartphone using the GoDaddy app. It's still a little tough but it does work and GoDaddy couldn't make it any easier to really make some cash on the phone. I can use Cash app to invoice or I can use the PayPal app. I'm kinda excited. I don't know what to think.

Hopefully I get some websites done and make some money. How much do you think I should charge for a new website. I'm scared and get really worked up about the deal going through.

It's worth a or is a good idea and I really want to make some money.

Maybe I can even make a few Craigslist post and see if I can get any leads.

That would be tight.

I've sold six websites for five grand and that made me a little money.

I should have bought a car.

I need to stop drinking so heavily from time to time. I mean I've been sober for six or seven months and it will be enough for a while. Don't really feel like drinking even anymore.

Just got a compliment on my blog. I mean I just got lead dissolved.

What am I saying I don't know. 

Ok now.

Went to my counseling meeting and it was OK. I talked about what type of treatment I have been having and how I should budget my money.

I hate not having any money.

I hate it.

At the same time I don't know how to spend it.

Maybe I need a job and that will make things all better.

Bynthr grace of God there has to be something to live for.

Something to keep me going.

Maybe I should move to Florida and walk the beaches, what do you think?

No recreational Marijuana and I like it for mental health.

How in the world are thier so many weed dispensaries and where is all the weed coming from? Their must be grows everywhere and I mean everywhere.

This sucks.

I'm in Minnesota and I don't know what the hell to do. Land of ten thousand lakes and I don't live by one. No fishing and no swimming for me. That sucks. You think they could have gotten me a room and board by the lake.

Can that eve happen?

I wanna swim and fish.

I want to have a life here, it sucks when their is nothing to do around here.

Read the Bible all day.

Study something.

Take your time.

Find something interesting.

But what is interesting.

What should I do.

How should I feel.

Where should I go.

What do I think. 

So here we go.

I spent all my money for this month and am trying to make the money back.

Hopefully it works.

Money is money and everyone needs it. 

So what now? God gives us ideas............ Will you run them? Does the Universe know what we need?

Ok, I know that some people dont like talking about God and the Universe in the same sentence......... 

 But I just notice them in thier own little way. Believing in God is not like believing in the universe.

Believing in God to me is like searching or understanding a different path of thinking. Having new insight and lifestyle. But what do we do with our ideas?

We will talk more about that later.

The universe on the other hand is like will it give me good ideas, will it make me feel safe, will it give me good ideas and let me do what I want.

I don't know.

Maybe God dosent want me having any money. The universe gives me the ideas.

Does that even make sense? 

I don't know if I really want to talk about it, Am I writing anything people want to read about.?

I dont know if I need to spell check and go through editing different sites and I mean different post. I havent been rereading my posts before I publish them. Maybe I should start doing that. 

I just dont know what to think, what I do have is a basketball gym to hoop in everyday. I'm not gonna te you where. But I will be working on my game. 

I dont ever want to lose a game again. 

Does that make sense. 

I gotta make that happen. 

Making mistakes..

Ok I'm a high roller but not really though.

I'm listen to the hip hop channel on my TV.

What should we do today.

I'm. Going out for coffee and I know I need to quit.

God gives us good and bad moments.

People want to figure things out and I just like going with the flow. I mean maybe I don't. I struggle for my dreams. I struggle for the mistakes I have made. And it hurts in its own little way. It sucks to have the problem with addiction. Even just a coffee can make me nuts. I just go flying and don't get nothing done. Or maybe I am. Maybe this is a blog post made with a diet coke and a coffee. Good stuff.

So...........

What should we talk about. Mistakes like not trying to hook up with the girls of your dreams. That's a mistake. I'm thirty six and not to much money and how am I going to wine and dine with my dream girl? Cold call? Blog? Should I try to start my own call center. It might take people or employees a while to figure out how to sell mobile apps and websites and text message marketing.

It took me a long time to figure out the internet. I built my company and want to build more but they are not codes websites and maybe I need to learn to code. Maybe that's a good idea and how long do you think that will take me.

Let's take a look at a site I am making and see what you think.

Here it is............nothing I'm afraid to shown it yet. 

It's a new site and not much on it yet but I'm working on it. I hope I can make it happen.

I want a image upload button so people can upload a picture of the basketball court and tennis court, pool table or ping pong table. What ever you want.

Poker games galore. Think we can bust that open?

That would be wild.

Nonstop basketball games and  courts. I mean I can't get enough of this idea.

But I don't know what Im doing. I guess I will have to just study harder and be smarter.

I mean what is thier to do.

How am I gonna make a image upload button? How am I going to make users player page. People can post videos and even get ranked by other players. I mean that would cool but how are we gonna take that to the next level.. Can you imagine teams being able to schedule games with each other? Wouldn't that be cool. How am I gonna pull this off? I don't know but I'm gonna keep writing down my ideas and see where they take me. I want to keep users safe as well. How can I do that?

I don't know......

What else is there.

What is this post even about?

OK making mistakes?

Biggest or hardest mistakes to get over?

Not talking to girls I'm attracted to in different cities. I had chances and even if I talked to them I didn't ask them out. Drake coming into my mind telling me. To keep contacting girls and see what happens. He tries to hook up with girls all time while watching his videos. 

It hurts to miss out someones life and love when you think they are attracted to you. I'm not the best looking guy but I should be asking woman out. You know what I mean. I hope this stupid blog makes me some money because I want to go chase down some of these girls. I might just hang out and do yoga and blog. Wouldn't that be fun. Thiers so many girls at yoga. Wow are they flexible.

I don't have yoga where I am right now.

But maybe I can go later on.

Somebodys gotta be in thier way on getting rich and making it in this world with money. Does God even want me having money. It seems like I always miss out on the money and what can you do.

So what can you do.

I'm gonna go watch somw videos for now.