I want to make better decisions.
I have to make better decisions.
What do I do?
Monday night football is on tonight.
Is it gonna be a good game?
I don't know.
I'm double spacing my sentences, I'm trying to be smart when interacting with people.
I know I'm not that smart.
Maybe I should be more ballsy.
I don't know.
I can't figure out how to make good decisions.
I'm mean jeeze their are so many dickheads in this world and they love to take thier shit out on people.
This fucking sucks.
What can I do.
Write about it?
Or what the fuck is going on.
This shit sucks.
I got people I don't know telling me what to do and who I am here.
I mean cmon now.
I'm mean who are you.
Your way fitter than me, you stay healthy like me? I run and hoop that is the deal.
These people love to point the finger.
What should we do with them.
Everybodies gotta take me down.
Everybodies gotta tell me who I am here based on some Universities teaching that I'm psychophrenic or something. I'm not sane. I'm this and that. I'm corny I'm honery and I love to get in trouble.
Well if that's the case that means I'll travel the world. What else is there to say.
What do we do? Nothing we just blog. I'm trying to be cool but nobody likes me.
I have no friends and I don't know where to go. I have to work on something. Seventy dollars to go to Minneapolis and try to get a job their. Think I should and just skip town and see what happens with me?
If I saved enough money to live on it might be better. I could travel and hide out around the world.
You think I could blog to that amount of money? How many hours per day should I blog? I mean hide around the world. Where are some of the best places to hide?
You think I should hide around and blog about it and it won't really work if I take pictures.
Everybody will know where I am.
Unless they never read this blog.
I will just travel.
Maybe thinking I should go inside and watch football now. Nothing else on TV.
I can't sleep this early and I have to get something done. I am at a board n lodge in a small town in Minnesota. I'm hibernating and hallucinating and it feels like I can't hide.
Can you even hide. Anywhere in this world.
What do your think.
I can't stand I'm not on the road traveling.
I'm getting tons of feedback I don't want.
I'm terrified of people that don't like me and I have met some mean people on Craigslist and it's messing with me.
I got to go to a class every month, I mean every Monday and it's all about me talking about how my week went and what I did. I have no ride anywhere so what I do is sleep and watch TV.
People are dying around me and they were older than me. I think I am a bad influence. Maybe, to many sodas and to many cigars. You have to be careful with people.
You have to be smart.
Should I go to bed? I still told myself I would blog for another hour and a half. What should I talk about? What do you think I should talk about. Could you I imagine blogging for eight hours per day?
You think that would pay off? I mean is that a good occupation? Is that worth it?
I don't know, making a living from blogging is something in an of itself.
It is what it is.
Somedays it feels like everyone is out in the road doing what they want. I want to travel and hang out at different hotels. Just hanging out and enjoying myself. I still go forty dollars in my Amazon account to spend. What should I buy with such high shipping and handling fees.
I want some soda.
I might have a little job this week and maybe that will pay off. If I can earn some little money and see how that goes.
I want to listen to some new music?
What is good out thier?
I don't know what to think.
I don't know where to go.
I have to make a life for myself somehow.
I have to find a wife?
How am I gonna do that with no money.
Nobody wants to marry a broke joke and hang out with losers.
I mean I got to break free with some money and that means working on something for eight hours per day.
I wish there were jails that let me sit for a couple months and let me work on my phone and feel safe and motivated to follow your dreams. It's weird in jail I got all these ideas to get something, write about something and study something. I have dreams I want to accomplish but the outside world is just to dangerous. It's to nasty to even know what to do.
Ok an hour and fifteen minutes left and Monday night football is on and both teams are tied or almost. Aaron Rogers and he's trying to get in the end zone.
Apple just advertised the new IPhone 13 and you can video tape and make movies and do what you want to. It looks kind a cool and I wonder if Android will come out with something better. It will be cool to see where thing are going. The industry will change and the world will see new and unique ideas coming around from people who have just enough money to buy one.
Do you think people are getting rich from thier phone and what do you think about this.
Are people making a living from thier phone and how do you think this is happening, I mean what are they doing.
OK I can't quit now, one more hour of writing. You think I should reread this and fix errors and make sure everything makes sense.
I don't even feel like I made sense.
A while back I didn't care about my phone but now I do. I used to go to phone store all the time and try to get my parents to buy me a new phone. But I dont do that now I just hang out and keep my phone safe and I rarely take it with me so it dosent break. I never will lose my phone again and will take as much care of it as I can.
That's reminds me I want to get my mom a phone case and send it to her through Amazon.
I wonder how much some people pay for their phone if they are rich. Water proof phones? Phones with tons of power and ability to take video and record for ever.
Sometimes my phone won't easily upload long videos onto YouTube. It just freezes and I have to record shorter videos.
Can you imagine making movies on your phone? That could disrupt the movie industry. Youtube will take off and who knows what people will watch nice days.
So I don't care about rereading this and fixing it. I just don't care. But what I do want is to blog for two hours straight and see what I come up with.
You think I should blog for eight hours per day?
Or you think I should get on my laptop and make an effort to make some money on that?
You think I should do that?
I really don't want to do anything other than conquer the phone and see where it takes me.
It's stressful but at the same time it is worth it.
I wanna make music and have used some of the music apps like Offtop and rap chat and try to rap to some beats but I suck at it. And it drives me nuts that I suck at music so bad.
I just can't figure it out.
I have made over four hundred songs and think maybe five thousand songs might be better.
What should I do.
Think I should dig deeper into the app market?
I wanna go back to Denver and hang out and go to clubs. I wanna go bad. I wanna club and travel and hang out and meet girls.
I can't take the anxiety and listening to music drives me nuts that I'm not on the beach hanging with woman and seeing whose out thier for me. I don't know.
I've had chances with money and failed.
I wanna meet so many woman and see what's going on down thier.
I fuckin hate that I'm such a week bitch and not a hard worker that travels the world.
You think I should blog or build people websites and maintain them. I don't want a regular job at all and all I wanna do is work from my phone and go to space.
I want to build my own space company and fire little Rockets deep in space and see what I can see out thier.
I mean does that make sense.
I wanna meet people that can make a full time income strictly from thier phone?
How do you think I can pull that off?
I got forty minutes left of blog time and I don't know what to write about.
Should I buy a cheap little house in a small town and then just buy a couple cars and travel all around or take the bus places and just hang out and see what people are doing on.
How fuckin hard can be to break free with money?
Pardon my language.
I need to make cash and I need to make it quick. I really want to make the most of things.
I have no idea what to think.
I love yoga.
I might have to start practicing in a field down the street.
I like stretching and feeling good. I have to make myself ready to play the game.
I have to conquer this world in my own little way. I have to conquer.
Do something with your life.
Make something happen.
Be peculiar.
Be powerful and be honest and real.
Be you and stop trying to be somebody else and be a powerful human being and make a life for yourself in high rise condos and enjoy yourself.
I mean what else can you do.
I mean I just don't know what think.
I'm evil.
I'm. Not.
I'm sincere.
I'm. Cool.
What are you?
I wanna meet new and powerful people and see what they are all about.
I don't know.
I'm tired and lack motivation.
I hate music and it makes me want to go out to the club every night.
I dont think that is the best idea.
But I wanna do it.
I wanna drive a Lamborghini and enjoy life.
I wanna fly around the world.
I wanna rock diamonds. And look cool.
I wanna wear awesome and pricy watches.
I know how to do that.
I know that I can get a business to pour marketing money on me.
I wanna market and get my hands on all types of stuff.
Nobody wants to do what I want to do.
Think I could sell houses and get my own houses.
Evem though three hundred thousand per year is enough to get me a couple awesome houses and let me travel.
Will that work.
I don't know.
I have to buy into myself and really learn how to sell from your phone.
People want to buy from thier phone.
They want to make a life here.
I want to make a life here.
Twenty five minutes left of blogging for tonight even though I should blog all night long and see if I can blog way out of poverty.
Can you even do that?
Can I even make that happen.
Blog your way out of poverty.
You think I should make a podcast tonight?
Maybe a twenty minute one.
I doubt Noone will listen.
The internets a funny thing and it works for some people and not Alot for other people.
Sleepy is what I am getting around right now.
I don't need to sleep so early.
Well might turn it back to the game and I'm watching Mental Health and its on AE.
I mean thats how I feel.
I need mental health sometimes and I know that can be the best way forward.
Watching people getting stuck in mental health would kinda suck but I went to Sioux Falls mental health and it was nice and I should have stayed thier.
It's nice.
Well let's go see what's going on with game.
Green bays up by four and they are playing the lions and its pretty close game.
I don't know.
I don't know what to think.
I have to treat myself better. I drank to much coffee today and it dosent do shit for me and I can't stay awake.
Maybe I should just sleep for a while until I feel good again.
I don't know.
Searching for money and searching for God.
I mean should we just focus on God all day and hope he provides or should I hunt down money and have a real life here with a wife and children and cars and a house to live in.
I mean what is the deal here.
Money is no issue here.
I mean I need money.
I don't want to get old with no money.
That would suck.
People provide for me. The government provides for me and it sucks.
I like living here for free and I like getting fed everyday but I don't know if woman will want a man like that.
My battery's going dead.
Ten more minutes.
A two hour blog post.
Should I work day and night on building my company and making it work.
I mean what is really important here.
What really matters here.
What is it like to be powerful.
What does it feel like to feel loved.
Nobosy talks to me.
Nobody likes me and maybe like Drake says I'm losing friends and finding peace I guess thats a fair exchange.
Maybe that's important.
Find friends that want to make money.
I mean does that make sense.
Can you even find people online that want to make money.
I got scalp oil I use and it smells.
Where I am going thier is a gym to hoop in and a. Swimming pool and a movie theater along with what looks like a nice library.
I will have to find ways to stay busy.
I can play basketball all day but it isn't worth any money.
That's sucks.
I almost have to make money and making something happen.
You think I should build with GoDaddy site builder?
It let you publish and use free domains.
Its pretty cool.
I'm thinking about making a beer distribution channel.
I don't know yet.
It might work and it might not. Will.have to see.
I don't know if its a good idea but it came to mind.
They want to make apps to sell beer and maybe I can build a niche site and see if it sells.
It's a decent idea.
Maybe I should just sell stuff I want to buy myself.
Maybe that is the best way forward.
You think?
One minute left.
Ooohhh it's nine thirty.
Bye.
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