It's about seven in the morning in Minnesota.
I figure I should blog eight hours per day five days a week.
I want to be a more dedicated blogger and writer.
I feel OK today and I sat in meditation for a thirty minute guided meditation.
Haven't really been talking to people that much.
Miss my old friends from time to time but it is still fun to meet new people.
I have a nice place to sleep and I feel OK.
Having trouble staying on a blog post for eight hour per day for everyday for the rest of my life.
But who knows my blog posts could get cooler and way better and doing it everyday and keeping at it is what I need to do.
I need to break free with money so I don't have to rely on little piddly money to get bye.
I have to work all day and everyday.
I have to do it.
I have to break free with cash.
Work work work.
Well anyways.
Was watching a video of this girl I used to like. She past away in a car crash, she was so pretty. I miss her and her great sense of humor.
I can still talk to her when I sit in meditation.
It sucks when people pass away and it's heart breaking to thier families.
Its sad we are just skin and bone.
We just hope for the best.
What else is thier today.
I could run for an hour and see how that feels.
I have to blog for wight hours a day, I have to do it for a year and see what happens.
See if any of my posts rank and make cash.
People are really out thier making money.
Having a good time and going on vacation.
I mean what else is their today.
Some of the staff where I am staying work eight hours with a day.
They out in the time and so can you.
Their has to be a smarter way.
We have not take things for granted and work out butts off.
I like basketball.
I love it but I don't know if it will take me anywhere.
I'm jammin to rock alternative.
I love Denver and I know I have to bust my ass to get their.
I wanna travel everywhere and listen to rock music and jam out having a beer.
Maybe I should spend two hours a day on making some raps songs.
Got so much to lose, got so much to prove, God don't let me lose my mind.
Everybodies at work and I'm sitting here listening to music.
My moms at work.
I have to work.
I have to travel.
I want to take people places.
I wanna be a good person.
Got so much to love, got so much to prove, God don't let me lose my mind.
Maybe should have Shazamed that songs.
I think about so much stuff everyday but I know I have to stay busy.
I have to keep a good viewpoint.
I have to understand what I'm doing.
I have to work harder than ever and build a huge and ideal blog.
It's just seems like everyone is dragging me in every different direction.
I have to stay the course and get off my high horse and make something happen.
I love my life but where should it take it.
Let's go check out what Rihannas doing.
I don't know.
Savage X Fenty.
Dont really understand it.
Probably nobody I will meet in my lifetime.
But I'm a ok.
Does that make sense.
I have to go visit her sometime.
My rhymes are dip does anyone every listen to homemade rap music.
I have been listening to local rappers and seeing them on stage. I just view them online.
Some from Omaha Nebraska.
That is where they made the movie Belly with Nas and DMX.
Pretty decent movie.
It was ok.
What else is going on.
I don't really understand the rap scene that heavily but I do watch it on YouTube.
It's ok and I like watching.
Kids making thier own music videos is pretty cool.
It's something I want to do someday.
Maybe I will make my own videos and test the waters.
I'm not that good looking of a guy but I look ok.
They made it so anybody can make thier music and that should be open to everybody.
Does that make sense?
Their are kids that should be allowed to rap and make music with out being made fun of.
Maybe I should make some new rap songs up.
You got to stay dedicated.
You have stay committed Nobody what anybody is saying to you.
I mean you have a right to be here and you have a right to hold your head high.
People love you and they can help you, just work your tail off.
I mean what I can I say.
Things get spooky but it's good for you.
To make money everyday.
To move everyday and make somthing happen.
I mean what can you do but try hard and see what's going on.
I just work.
I don't want to go back to jail.
I wanna live my life and have a good life and I want to travel as if I haven't said anything about before.
I don't really know what to talk about.
I wish I was more inspirational and had more to say but I don't know what to talk about.
I have to stay strong.
I have been scared before and didn't know what to do. The thing about life is if you mess around when your a kid you never know if the cops will protect you if you mess around to much. But all you can do is stay safe.
I think I'm gonna change it to the hip hop station for twenty minutes.
It's called Sting Ray music.
And it's on on my TV.
Raps funny to me. It dosent always vibe we for me but I do like rock music a little more it gives me a better vibe.
I was raised by the wolves.
That's the song that's on right now.
Big Sean.
It's a pretty dope song.
Man can your mind play tricks on you and you have to make something happen.
I mean what can you do.
Another song is on now.
Lil Wayne.
It's dope.
Ohh maybe it's MoneyBagg Yo.
So it's different.
I don't get woman or the vibe to mess with woman like I do when I listen to rock.
I mean their are some pretty good rock songs.
What else is thier to talk about.
You know YNW Melly is?
Hes in some trouble for murder and he wrote the song Murder on My Mind.
It was kinda ingenious but probably not the best song to listen to and nows he's in trouble for murder.
I'm find though, people don't like me but they don't really don't like me.
I don't know what to say.
Rap is dangerous.
Rock seems safe like its time to have a good time.
Rap is mean.
I don't know if I should listen to it anymore.
I mean I have to keep my mind right and free and understanding.
I wanna be a good person and work my ass off.
I might have to do another guided meditation and sit their and clear my mind and get to feeling right.
Thiers just so much to do in this life.
I'm special.
Yeah that's how I feels.
Does that make sense.
Ghengis Khan let's go see what he's about.
OK, so he was some guy that united Asia and made a huge empire.
Maybe I should start a empire and that makes sense.
Well ist almost brewkfast and I think all I will be having is toast and maybe some juice.
Coffee at eight thirty.
I know I have to take it easy on buying sodas and coffees.
I don't think it dosent help me blog better.
I wanna be a good blogger but I jump subject to subject.
I don't really keep one train of thought but I am interesting I some way, shape, or form.
I mean isn't that dope.
It is to me.
Because I'm actually making long post and making a long post happen with ideas and getting my writing out thier and it makes me feel good.
I don't know what think.
I don't know what to do.
I have to eat though and im definitely not hungry.
I have chips in my room but I have etk take mental health pills every morning and I have to eat something to wash it down.
Will go for now.
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