Do you really want it bad enough?

How bad do you want to succeed?

Whats so funny about succeeding?

You know how to succeed you just have to out your foot down and do it.

That's how you succeed. 

I have to blog for two hours right now before breakfast. 

That will work. 

I will have a big long post.

I will have to sit here and type if out and I know that it will work at helping me succeed to become a successful writer. 

You might have to watch your phone if you want to succeed because people might want to see what your working on but just use the finger print ID. 

That should keep your phone information safe. 

What else is going on. 

Just watched footage from Travis Scott ASTRO world and saw the huge crowd on screen. 

Eight people died and it was a bug crowd. That's unsafe. But how can they make it safer? I can't I can't imagine rocking a huge crowd like that and wonder where they went to practice that long to blow up online. 

They must have really tried hard. 

I wanna listen to some music and go hang out downstairs but it's cold and I think I will change my pants and try to feel cool today and maybe go outside for a jog and get some exercise. 

I'm not suppose to bym ciggreettes from the other guys but I do buy that from time to time for a quarter. 

It's no ok and I am learning right from wrong. 

I am moving soon and will have to understand the rules and I have to make good decisions. 

I've had a job that I had to accomplish in one day what I though would take a week. 

How bad do you want it. 

One day of full time blogging where is that gonna take me. 

I have to make it happen. 

I have to blog eighty hours a week. 

I have to want it that bad. 

I have to want something out of life that bad. 

I have to be powerful. 

I have to be smart. 

I have to really bust ass and make it happen. 

I want to come into some peoples lives with money and help them out. 

I know how to work that hard. 

I have to make it happen. 

Be nice as day and Hustle hard. 

I can do that. 

I want to watch something good on TV and I have to get some music playing for a little while and see myself off into a daydream and see where that takes me and how good I can take blogging and writing. 

I doubt anyone wants to read my blog but it could take off and that would make me feel good.

What should I blog about?

What should we or I eat this morning.

I wanna change my clothes and slip on something nice but I have to get some money togther and make something happen.

I wanna start using Facebook ads and see what I can advertise. 

I wanna make something happen and get sinethi g down pat. 

I wanna work so hard that I have a life here. 

I know I need to do this all from my phone. 

I need to make something out of myself and clear my mind up. 

I wanna be smarter and tougher than everyone else. 

I want to monster a life in and be somebody that makes a difference. 

Well I'm listening to rap music. 

Think it's safe and makes me happy. 

What else should I listen to?

I should blog to thrifty thousand per month.

That will get me a nice home and some nice cars.

I wanna buy a couple nice cars. 

Wouldn't that be fun and exciting. 

Think I will make it?

I mean I gotta make it happen.

Life's funny that way. 

I have to make it happen. 

Maybe I should listen to something nicer.

Is nicer a word?

What else should I talk about.

Maybe I should really make this happen. 

I wanna make something happen. 

I wanna listen to rap music but it gives me some stupid ideas. 

I don't know what else I should listen to. 

I lost one. 

I'm hungry. 

I'm hungry to blog and learn. 

I'm hungry. 

I wanna go do yoga. 

I want to make it happen. 

Maybe I should do some yoga and hang out all morning stretching or maybe I should just blog. 

I mean I really got to make it happen. 

And I have to make it happen. 

I have to fill my blog with good ideas. 

I have toake it happen and I don't know what to talk about. 

I wanna be strong. 

I wanna be valuable. 

I wanna be smart. 

I want nice places to sleep and cars to drive and I know I have to make it happen. 

Well music is a funny thing and I notice this and want to make music but what should I make it out of. 

I mean I wanna be smarter. 

I wanna move smarter I wanna get my way from time to time. 

I have to think about what I'm doing. 

I wonder what to think and how to think. 

Music moves us and where does it take us. 

It takes us all over the world and expands are minds. 

We have to think and expand and be powerful...... 

Well what am I thinking about right now. 

I am thinking about my money I deposited in the bank and then told them to hold my bank statements until I want them back and they have no recollection of them. 

Now how could they lose all my money ad why could that happen. 

Now they are giving me the vibe that I never had an account with them. 

Where is the money?

This is so stupid and I don't know what to think. 

And what should I do about that. 

I might have to rethink everything that I am doing. 

I wanna be of sound mind and I want the bank to be ok having have all this money. 

I have to be smarter and it's driving me nuts. 

I want my bank money back. 

Should I talk to other bankers about and what do you think? 

I mean I have to Mae something happen.

I might go get a coffee and see how I feel. 

I mean what else is their to do. 

I have to be smarter. 

I have to go harder and I have to make it. 

I know in the Bible it says that you should be weary of the ways of the world. But you should also be at you best and in Christ behavior. I need to be at my best behavior. 

I have to be smarter and I have to go harder and I have to be myself and I know I should run for two hours per day. 

I have to run two hours per day. 

That's six jogs around the town and that should be good for me everyday. 

OK I back.... 

I'm at the gas station and I am sipping a cappuccino. 

Have I tasted it yet? 

No but I am going to as soon as it cools down. 

I have to be smarter, all day long I have to be smarter that is what I think about. 

I know that if I try harder I can make it happen. 

I can be. A good citizen and make some money here. 

I have to be better. I have to be smarter. 

I wanna live more. 

I wanna love more. 

I wanna be in better shape. 

I get anxiety. 

I have to find someone to love. 

Please God help me be useful in some way and be smarter. 

I'm just not that smart to myself.