Did you do it right?

I dont know what to say.

You have to break free of your bondage.

How?

I know how.

By doing the right thing. 

How?

Stay sober and be vigilante.

Don't drink to much coffee. 

Don't drink to much alcohol. 

Do it right. 

I feel guilty. 

I list my grandparents and never really got to meet them. 

What was I doing?

I was out partying with my friends.

I have substance abuse issues. 

It makes me crazy. 

I know damn well I need to go Christian. 

It's the only way. 

Yeah I wmatntk rap but what would happen if my mom or dad or sister died. 

I would sit their contemplating what I was doing. 

Making profane raps up and publishing them might not be crucial to my environment. 

Life's funny. 

I don't know what to think. 

When I first started blogging I had this idea that I would make some money. 

But something inside told me to go Christian. 

So I go Christian and stop blogging and go out and find a job and only to my realization I got a job with some crazy idiots that poured concrete and I couldn't work hard enough.

They hated me. 

Is that what God wanted?

Is it my fault that they don't like me.

I was raised differently. 

To not take any shit. 

But at the same time you have to treat yourself well.

If your not treating yourself well. 

And you start getting attacked then what?

What you caught a vibe?

What you think they are just joking?

I don't know.

But you have to think you might have to just get up and leave. 

Leave the situation. 

Their is no perfect way through life. 

We all struggle with what we are doing and how it effects others.

What you don't think I don't want to talk dirty to woman I like?

That's not the best idea especially if your drinking.

Im guilty of this too. 

If you knew me I would probably eat my words. 

But I wanted to type this oust out anyways. 

Even if we don't see eye to eye and you think what is he talking about after he got drunk and said and did all this stupid shit. 

That's my problem.. 

People might not take me or tho blog seriously.

I do know this. 

Everyone struggles. 

If you got a substance abuse problem then sure you can look for help. 

But I did. 

And I came to realize that everybody is suffering in one form or another. 

So take it upon yourself to get sober and start stratgeizing for your dreams and goals.

You know things are possible if you go sober.

So let's do this.