Is there a highrise apartment for me?

I don't know but I wouldn't mind moving to New York and see how it goes.

I could hide around town and go to movies, get a cup of coffee, Blog....

I know I need to get on the computer and spend eight to ten hours per day.

I know I need to get back in shape as well.

I just don't know what to think.

I really want an ice coffee and enjoy my night.

Am I doing God's will or what's going on?

I don't really know.

I have to get it togther and how do I do it.

I just don't really make sense of it all.

How much is a highrise apartment cost in New York.

I don't know but let's go check.

So how much does it cost, maybe three to five thousand per month.

That's a little more than what I have right now. 

I know people are trying to make me feel bad again. 

If I had money I would clean myself up and see where life takes me. 

I'm not very attractive and I need to do something about it. 

I mean I just have to break free and make myself look good. 

How am I going to do that. 

I don't know yet. 

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