So what now?

Don't know what to think.

What do we think.

I just roam around and I am not very special at anything.

Am I good at anything?

I used to take adderall and dribble for hours late into the night practicing.

But I still don't have the best handles.

Some people are just built that way I guess.

I'm super tired everyday and ordered some Rockstar energy drinks to sip on. I'm not supposed to have any bur I dont care. Not because I am sick, but the staff here dosent want me having any. If I don't have one or an soda I then I end up having no energy and I want energy to blog.

Been watching the Professor Live on YouTube and he's pretty good.

I wonder if they play hard or do they just mess around and put on a show.

I tried out for the Aba live and didn't make the team.

I know there are teams I can play with and get signed with but I don't have the money to go and tryout. So I guess I will just blog. 

I wanted to advertise the Aba live and thought I should just tryout or I mean just advertise in a local city.

I hate how I feel that I don't have the money to do the stuff I want and travel around making money.

Maybe I should start working on Amazon. Maybe I should do ebooks and sell products and see how it goes.

I might need a bank account.

I tried to buy or sign up for one and start doing Amazon.

It sucks so bad not having any money.

Not any of my posts rank.

This sucks.

But what can I do.

I know if I just keep this blog going I might break free with places to go.

What do you think.

I have been running two or three hours per day and it just seems like I'm fit and the runs don't feel like they are doing anything.

It's running I mean raining. And so what. So what to think. I still want to swim and fish. 

Maybe I should go read some books on Kindle. 

It's ok to read on my phone. 

I mean what can you do.