If you work hard everyday then you'll probably won't be psychic. It's not fair to people that work hard everyday to have to know what's going on in thier mind everyday. They have to focus on work. They have to focused on what thier doing today. And I don't know what to think when people hate on you or me. But you can't focus on them everyday.
What can you do if you don't have a job. Probably know focus on the negative everyday and worry about what to do and not what to think. I play basketball and it's pretty hard to sit their thinking about people that don't like me. I just don't know what to think. I have to stay focused when I work. I have to pay attention to the ball when I'm hoopin.
I laugh people get pissed off at people just by thinking about them. It's sad to see these other country's wartorn from not understanding what they are thinking about. They may just be so angry inside. I wonder why we think the way we do. We have to maintain and control our emotions.
I am watching basketball right now and I laugh they have to spend eight hours a day on basketball. They have to maintain complete control. They have alot of money to let loose and attack someone who doesn't like them or doesn't like the way they are being treated by them or someone, or whoever.
You have to maintain completes control. I'm not one that gets to caught up in my emotions as I do when I think. Focusing on something else to pay attention to something else is way more important than getting caught up in emotions. I guess I don't get to caught up in what I feel as I do when I think.
I hate get caught up in what I think. I noticed first thing in the morning if I have a ciggerette and a coffee my mind seems to run wild. And not only that it just seems like my mind goes haywire and I can't focus in and get something done. I can't sleep even though I'm tired. And I don't know what to do with my self. I just feel like sitting there and watching TV. It's very uncomfortable in the morning and I'm thinking I should start sitting in meditation. I try to get stuff done throughout the day and I don't know what's going to make money. Maybe I should cold call, maybe I should work on coding a company, maybe I should just blog, maybe I should take a walk, maybe I should read the Bible. Maybe I should have another ciggerette, maybe I should try to get another cup of coffee. I just don't know what to do in the morning. I know that I seen posts on Instagram that I should meditate for five minutes, but that just doesn't seem like it will do anything. I can sit there for twenty minutes and still feel like nothing is happening.
I laugh people get so rich and get to drive around in their new Mercedes and have the time of thier lives going to clubs, basketball games and other places. I never got to go anywhere and I made all types of money and still can't go anywhere. I don't know what more I need to do. I have money in the bank and they said they lost it and can't find my account. Well they didn't say they lost it they say they can't find any account under my name. So what's the deal. Is the world picking who can be rich and who can have money and who can't. It totally sucks that people just sit around patrolling us for money. That just insane. They decide who can live and who can't. Everybodies got to go Christian and can only have a certain amount of money. One time money came into my account and I wondered where it came from as PayPal prepaid doesn't tell me where the money came from. So now I have money in my account and I don't know where it came from. I asked my dad if he sent it and he said he did not.
I really don't know what to think. I hope so bad this blog will make money so I can travel a few places and maybe meet a girl and get married. I need to meet someone. I laugh people date so much. I couldn't even get if I tried. I don't even know how to talk about woman. Let alone talk to them. How do you meet woman and go on dates and get your food paid for and someone to take you out for meals. Wouldn't that be nice. I met woman at yoga but never had the nerve to hang out and I had been around them for six or seven years. I just don't know how to talk to woman.
I'm done for now. I hope you have a good night.
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