What's going on now?

I have no money and I'm borrowing money from one of my roommates. Isn't that sad. I don't know what to do about money and I don't know what to do about feeling deppressed. I don't know what to do about feeling down ans out. I was thinking of working on one of my other blogs. It's about marketing even though I don't know how to do Seo, I still sell it. I don't know if it will grow very well but I still try to build an online business. Have you ever built a online business by blogging? I have never did it before. I have been online for almost ten years and have made a little scratch out of it. I don't really know how it works I just thought of the idea after reading a book that inspired me to build my own business online and make it look giant. I wonder how many shitty companies are online and barely get the job done.

How long have you been online and trying to make an online income? I laugh I have to get offline because I feel uneasy about people knowing who I am. But this blog is fairly private. I don't think people really know who I am. Getting online keeps me busy instead of walking the city streets and going nowhere giving up my dreams of being a pro athlete. I tried out for a team three times and never got a call back. I don't think I'm confident enough. Some days I have a smoke and drink a beer or drink a soda and I don't think it was the best way forward. I wish I would have always stayed sober. I struggle with how I'm living everyday. I know I need to be sober and that it's the best way forward. When I was young I would always go sober and I felt good about it. Lately I just feel like I've been lazy and depressed. I talk to my doctor today and they are upping my Prozac. I don't know if the pills will even help. 

Baseball season is starting up this month and it's always on ESPN. I don't like baseball at all and I can't stand watching it on TV. I don't mind going to a game though and having a beer. I like doing that alot. I hope I can go back to Colorado and get my own place. I know I can make the money by cold calling but I don't want to really. I want to grow this blog.

You ever listened to King Von? His song is playing in the rap station on the TV right now. He was on at rap, it's sad he passed away so early. I would like to hear more of him and Nypsey Hussle. I wish I was good at making music. I like rapping on one of the beat recording apps on the Google Play marketplace. There are a ton of apps to go through and a ton of game apps to play. I can't believe how many apps are out there. Have you ever tried out the Prank dial app? It's pretty cool.

I just got a six pack of soda and now I'm all set for the day. Even though is nothing to do out here. I can't believe how low I feel, nothing seems exciting or fun.