So I'm back at it again.

I started drinking to much pop again. Ten cans of soda and I feel terrible. I didn't go to bed till around twelve thirty last night. I reached out to JesusCares.com and told em my problems in a email I sent them. I was looking to chat but Noone answered. Somedays I just want to ask for help but I don't know who to talk to. I suppose I could talk to the hospital or my peer specialist. I don't know if that will work. I'm supposed to budget my money and write it all down in Microsoft Excel but I have been putting it off because I have been buying nothing but soda and cigars. My parents smoked thier whole life and I wonder how much life they have missed out on. I wonder if they had a good life or not. I don't want to smoke my whole life and end up with nothing.

My trash can is filled up with pop cans and I don't want Noone to see it. I want to get back into a yoga studio but I don't know where to go. I think I need to read my Bible more and maybe God will give me a way through.