Ok I'm blogging and am looking at people with millions of subscribers.

How do I get subscribers? I don't know.

YouTube wants a thousand subscribers to let me do YouTube live even though I don't k kw what I would go live and talk about. 

Should I just study Google?

Or should I study Kobe?

I am trying to find the motivation to keep writing and hopping.

I have to find a way through or do we just let every one else handle our stuff for us?

I don't know.

Will people handle it or will God just handle it. 

I've got fines to pay and classes to take for DUI. That's sucks. 

Let's go check if they have DUI classes by me.

OK I can't find any classes near me but maybe I can take classes online and get my fines paid and DUI classes out of the way. 

Maybe I could stay in a hotel in St. PAUL AND take classes.

How much money do you think that will cost. 

Should I go check?

Let me go look.

OK, it says either twelve hours or 30 months.

Ha.... 

I hope I get the twelve hour class and see hwo that goes. 

Is it me or people smarter than they once were. 

I dont know but they can figure me out and take advantage of me. 

Should I just take the bus everywhere.

I mean maybe I will live in Minneapolis?

Let's go see how much a apartment will cost for me to live thier.

OK I need to two thousand a month which translates to 24k per year.

You'd think I could make a hundred k per year and what do I do for a job like that and is it even possible for a kid like me. 

Everyday I'm getting older and it just feels like everyone of my old friends are married and have kids and houses and trucks to drive. 

Maybe I am not working hard enough. 

This stupid blog is all I have and I don't know if it's gonna pay a dime.

I'd have a woman if I had money and provided a place for people to sleep. I wound t mind sleep in a castle and really enjoying myself.

Everyone wants the fame and riches and I'm a Christian school kid and I don't really understand it. 

Maybe I just needed a nice car to roll around in and enjoy myself. 

Should I be a rapper and try to be dope and make little clean and lyrical songs and just hang out. 

Maybe I should meet a bunch of rappers and go out thier on stage and make the most of it. 

Some of these rapprrs are having kids at like twenty one or twenty two. 

I'm a late bloomer. 

I have no idea what to do with my life and how to make the best of it. 

I don't always feel the best but I search for vibes. 

Are you a viber or are you cold to the dome. 

I don't know. 

But I should keep trying and doing but have passion for. 

I have to get over the hump of not having any money.

Blogging is boring. 

I don't know.. 

Their had to be money somewhere online to make money and enjoy myself on earth.