Should I start another post?

You ever use the fingerprint lock system on your phone. I do and sometimes it doesn't work, it doesn't recognize my thumb. I also have a pin code lock on it too. I have two locks on my phone.

I dont really know what to talk about today.

I want to get back into Yoga, I love doing yoga. I love it and them taking some creatine and going to lift weights and play basketball.

I used to drink one big sprite and one black and mild and go to the gym and try to dunk from the three point. I would get close but just couldnt duck from the three point line.

I have a lot of friends that smoke weed. I haven't smoked any weed for four years. I have only drank once and I felt terrible about it.

I watched a new song from Lil Nas X and it's pretty tight. It's called Montero and it has some pretty cool graphics.

THE Lakers play tonight but they will be without LeBron James and I don't know how fun it will be to watch and if they can even win.

I see alot of kids I knew in High school but none of them will talk to me. I don't know what's going on with that. I don't really feel like talking to them either. 

I wish I could meet more young people and take ridea around town and to different cities but I have not seen anybody. 

So I'm trying to make some music but I just suck at it.

Have you ever tried to make music on some of the music apps on your phone. I have and I have used apps like Smule and Rap hat, I also use Offtop and Rap fame. Rap Fame has the best beats but Rap hat allows you to upload your songs to YouTube. I like this feature so I can save my songs on my channel and listen to them later. I have used Smule some too and it's pretty cool, although there are not that many free songs to sing there is enough, you have to pay more to get more songs and I might do that later on.

So I am just scanning through Facebook and looking at other people post, I wish there were more social media companies to look through instead of just Facebook and Instagram. I'm not a big fan of Twitter. There's really nothing to look through, I wish people would post more raps I want to hear more music from up and coming artist. I live listening to new music. I love it and enjoy it most definitely. What else is going on. I'm trying to make it on my own and make my own money. Lately my mind just feels dark and heavy and I try to shake it off but I can't do it. Maybe I should read more out of my Bible. It's pretty cool that I can just click open apps and they open a while nother world for me. You can read the whole Bible with a little tiny app on your screen. I need to break out this mold I'm in. Life is funny, the more I didn't feel like blogging the more I put it off. But when I started blogging a little more everyday it got easier and easier. I wonder what I practice more of and what I should get good at.

I hope I get my check from the Government tomorrow, it's not much but it helps out. I have to pay twenty three hundred in restitution to the victim I stole the car from. The staff here at the lodge wants me to pay ten bucks per month. That will take forever to pay off. I seen a little car down the street in sale for a thousand bucks. I would like to buy it if it's still for sale when I get some money up under me.

Right now I am watching Dallas Mavericks vs the Boston Celtics. The Celtics are down by seventeen points and it's the middle of the fourth quarter.

It starts getting dark right now around eight p.m. I see some and hear some kids playing basketball outside. It's pretty nice out and it's supposed to get even nicer this weekend. I will have to take more walks and play more basketball as well.

I really want to grow my blog with traffic but I don't know what to blog about. I don't know what to become an authority in and how to find a niche. Right now I just feel like blogging. I just feel like writing and I don't have any idea or even feel like researching how I'm supposed to blog and what I'm supposed to blog about. I wish blogging made money. Have you ever looked through Amazon Kindle at books about blogging. They want me doing review sites and affiliate marketing. One book said I could get to twenty five hundred bucks a month within ninety days. And I don't have a clue how that's going to work. I guess they are just smarter about how to make money and how the web works. It's funny about money because I don't save much and everything I do but gets stolen. Everything I buy get stolen. It's sucks.... I want to buy a new car but they just break down. I have paid six thousand for a Dodge Intrepid and it lasted about five or six years and it just broke down. I sold it to the towing company for two hundred dollars. I really liked the car and maybe should have kept it to see how much it costed to repair. 

There's so many funny people out there and people that just want to live off other people. Denver full of people that don't make sense to me. I once thought two or three other people that look like other people, theres so many people that look like other people.

I once thought I should go Christian and I thought I saw my dad and he was going to say that he moved to Denver and that was a total lie. I have one friend who's name was Brandon and I think the phone company had given away his phone to another Brandon that looked just like him. I don't even know what the phone companies are doing but they sure know how to screw things up and I think they thinks it funny. 

How's it going?

Today is Wednesday and I feel ok, I hope you are feeling good as well. I see all my friends online traveling, I see them on Facebook. They must be having the time of thier life.

I want to get some money up under me but I don't quite know how right now. I need to make more money. I'm stuck inside and Everybodies out their partying. I would love to travel and have some money to hang out and go to games and travel. I don't think my blog is going to get me there. It sucks so bad being broke. Maybe God will let me free and show me how to make money.

I fee terrible about thinking about going on and going to parties, both my parents are at work and they worked the whole way through and didn't go to any parties. I don't know what to say about that. I don't want to work the whole way through but I might have too. I don't think they want me having a job at the board n lodge I'm at. I don't think they really care. I have free time so maybe I should work on my company and make it grow. I wonder if it will even get any traffic. I'm so bored where I'm at and don't know what to do about it.

I'm watching Outsiders on TV right now, I don't know but I might change it. I don't know what to watch. I took a nap this morning and had to wake up and walk the dog. I met a guy at a meet up that had a dog walking business. I think he does pretty well with it. I met him at a Starbucks in Denver near downtown. It was a business meet up. So we were supposed to network. I wonder if people even make any money networking. I don't know how. I don't even know what Spaceman Mobile does other than sell apps and mobile websites. I looked into Seo but I still don't know that much about it. I want to learn, I think as this blog grows I will implement an Seo stragety.

Blogging is cool and I don't know how so many people make a full time income from it, I just don't know how they do it. I'd like to get to a million dollars and chill in hotels across the world but I don't know if it's safe.

I'm trying to go sober and get well but I just struggle with it. I have a cup of coffee in the morning and have a smoke. They I lay around in bed watching TV and I can't just seem to wake up and get going. I traveled a little bit in the past I went to Florida, St. Petes Florida and stay at some resorts. I went to Kansas City, I went to Sioux Falls South Dakota. I went to Omaha Nebraska and walked around. I walked all night at some of these places and had no money to buy a hotel, I just slept outside and hung out. I made a little money on Craigslist and wish I could do it again. UT would be nice to make thirty five thousand per day. That's only seven leads a day on Craigslist. There has to be a way to do this. Do you knoq how to do this? The only problem is I don't want to screw up thier sites. I already spent five grand and didn't complete the site and I don't I have to get back I touch with this guy and pay him his money back. I don't know how to get a hold of him though. It sucks people can lose alot of money online. I was thinking of using Fivver to outsource the website to.

I don't think Craigslist is that safe and thier are a ton of mean and hateful people out thier. There or thier I don't know. 

How do you meet people.

Are you good at meeting people and how did you do it? I am terrible at meeting people and making friends. I have never hooked up through Facebook. I know there are a ton of woman on thier and they have a dating app but I have never had the balls to try it. It's just seems to dangerous to try. I wonder how many people lose thier lives to meeting the wrong people.

I was thinking of moving to a bigger city to see if I can meet people but I don't know if they will let me. I wish I had more motivation to meet people and get stuff done someday. I just don't have much inspiration. 

How to hook up with woman. I don't know.

Do you ever dream about woman.

I do some times and I wonder how to meet them. I don't know how to get the money to meet them. I know everyone is out partying and having a good time. I don't know what to do about I don't have any money.

I want to meet new people but I don't know how safe it is if I don't have the money to get out of the way if I get into trouble.

I often hallucinate or visual woman I have met in the past but I don't know how to meet them again. 

So what now.

How do I make a fifteen page post on my phone?  

I know I have to work harder and I know nobody cares how hard I work they just give me shit while thier at work.

I don't know what to talk about.

I just got back from walking the dog, it takes me around a half of hour.

I like blogging because I can log onto Google from anywhere and work on my blog and my company.

I want to jail break the blog or phone like a cup and get up to ten thousand per month. You think someone in the army could jail break the phone and start making the money from blogging or using another app.

I wish I was smarter about how to work online. I wish I had more motivation.

I am thinking about meditating more and see if I can have more focused days. It really helps me focus in and get down to business.

I was thinking about moving to Moorehead Fargo and seeing if I can get a job and have more money.

You think I should get a job or should I just focus on my blog? I have nothing but free time right now and want to start my company but it looks like it could cost around a thousand dollars.

I was also thinking about moving to Minneapolis and see if I can make it there, but the program I'm in won't let me. I love walking around in bug cities. I wish I could go there and watch the Timberwolves downtown.

Today I didn't smoke this morning and had a ciggerette around twelve thirty. I really want to quit smoking but it's hard. I know I don't need to walk to the gas station everyday. It's a bad habit. 

What keeps people motivated?

Lately I have been disinterested in everything. I just feel so deppressed. I don't know what to do with myself. I live in such a small town I don't know what I should do. All I do is sleep and wake up to walk the dog. I just get some fresh air. I think my peer specialist is supposed to call me at two fifteen. I was thinking about moving and seeing if I can go to Moorehead Fargo. I just want to be around more people my age.

I have been drinking to much soda and I feel tired because I can't fall asleep until twelve at night. I have to get up at Eight and eat breakfast. I wish I was back in Denver Colorado hiking through trails and walking my dog. That was the only thing fun to me. I wish I could smoke weed again it keeps my depression at bay. I love seeing all the people driving by, there are so many beautiful people and places to go. I love getting a coffee after a long walk and sitting there reading. There's nothing like it. 

Listening to music.

Right now I am just sitting around listening to music.

I'm listening to Attention by Charlie Puth.

He has a pretty good song with Lil Wayne.

I like listening to music.

I like listening to Nypsey Hussle who I didnt even pay attention to or listen to him until after his passing.

I also like listening to Papoose and Action Bronson. They are both pretty good artists to listen too.

I hope I can make this a good summer and meet some people and see if they will drive me around. I really want to take a long car ride, I'd love to meet some girls. I'd live that.

I am looking around at apartments at different cities and wondering if I can get a place. I don't know how long it will take to get going with Blogger and I am thinking maybe I should get on Craigslist and make some money. Or put up another website and sell mobile and internet marketing. 

I just woke up and thought I would make another post.

So I just woke up and fell asleep watching Alic In Wonderland. I have never seen it before and don't know what to think. I just changed it to Intervention on AE. AE is a pretty good channel they have some interesting programs.

I had group today and had to talk about our week and read through my Mindfulness book. Mindfulness is a pretty interesting subject.

The group is in another town around ten miles away and it feels good to get out of the house. I think I will take the dog for a walk here in ten minutes. I have to bring my poop bag so I can pick up after the dog. One lady came out of her house and told me don't let the dog poop anywhere near her house or lawn. I said OK. I hate getting scolded. But I guess I will get over it.

I really hope blogging will bring in some extra money. I see alot of people online making a living off thier blog. I know I don't have a good enough niche as I just freestyle write on my blog but it's the only thing I can think of. I've been in so much trouble I hope I don't have to go back to jail. Maybe I could move to LA and see if I can find a place. I need to get up to five thousand a month and I know I can find a nice place or apartment for two thousand per month. Denver had some really nice homes for twenty five hundred per month. Some big homes. Since it's just me I don't think I will need to spend anymore than two thousand per month.

I didn't smoke this morning and I have had only one smoke this afternoon. I really need to try and quit. I bought five dollars of soda this morning after I got done with group.

I think I will try to rap a little this afternoon and make a rap track. I like making music but I have to do it all from my phone. I use Rapchat to make a song with a beat. It's the only program that allows me to upload to YouTube. Rap fame has some better beats but won't allow me to upload to YouTube.

It's sucks not having any money as people are probably out partying driving around while I'm stuck in this board n lodge right now. It kinda sucks, but I know if I keep trying I will probably break free with a little money every month. I was thinking I need Right around twenty dollars per day to have money to spend. But that totals out to be around six hundred per month. Will keep trying.

I see some of my cousins online and some are married and have kids. I use to grow up with them and play games with them but I haven't talk to them in years and maybe I should friend them on Facebook. Right now Facebook account is messed up and won't let me log in without changing my password but every time I change my password it won't work and won't let me log in.

Who knows..... 

Sometimes I can be such a bum.

Writing is the only thing keeping me focused in. I can be such a bum from time to time. Sometimes I pick up a butt because I want to smoke so much and it's not a good way to go.

I always feel like shit when I wake up in the morning with clogged lungs. I know I have to quit but smoking but I don't have the self discipline. I feel terrible. I want to smoke so bad that I grab a half smoked butt and smoke it. I do know who smokes the ciggerettes so it not like I'm Smokin from some random butt, but still it's gross. I need to start running. I just got some nice running shoes this winter and haven't really broke them in. I need to go sober and it's wearing on me to do so. I know I need to stay in shape even though my dreams of playing professional basketball are all over. I'm thirty six and I tried out for the Aba Live and didn't make the team. I wish I would have stayed sober but I didn't and that was my downfall, plus they were devout Christian and I wasn't reading my Bible enough. I thought making money online would set me free and it's not true you have to be a Christian. You have to be a Christian no matter what. I know if I believe in my heart that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior he will probably set me free of my addictions.

I really need help someday and was thinking I would call the quit line or take it up with the local hospital who has a quit program. It just drives me nuts in the morning wakin up knowing I smoked the day before.

I like smoking black and Milds but I saw on Facebook that one guy got stage four cancer and I used to play baskrtba with him. It's almost like a death sentence. I also like to buy a twelve pack of Shasta cola, it only costs me four dollars and sixty six cents which eqauls to like forty cents per can. Drinking all that soda is not good for me.

I think I will go to church tomorrow, I think it starts at nine. I really need to get back into Christianity. I really need to get back to my faith. I notice that when I go Christian I might have the same problems but it's like my body and mind are protected no matter what happens to me. I don't take things as hard because I know I'm Christian. It's a great feeling.

I had a rough time a while back where my conciousness was yelling at me to go sober and it felt like people were attacking me out of nowhere if I went to get a cup of Starbucks coffee. It was hatred. My mom has zen bhudist stuff laying around and whole I could think and feel good I wasn't protected in Christ. I wish I would have stayed deeper in the Holy Word so I knew what to do in any situation. I feel terrible how things went.

Francis Nganou fights Stipe Miocic tonight in Paper view. Hopefully it's a good fight, I don't have the money to order it.

I seen some young people at the bar but I felt terrible about drinking. I think some people wanted to talk to me but the music was too loud.

I wish I could I go to the March Madness games and watch. It looks like some people are in the crowd. I don't know who will win the championship but it might be Gonzaga. They have a pretty good team.

I want to friend more people on Facebook but isn't all Christian posts. I have friends from the past and family that are devout Christians and I don't think they will approve of my posts. I need to clean up my feed. Facebook kinda drains my energy even though I like to check it when I wake up in the morning. I just feel so depressed when I wake up in the morning. My messenger is clogged with people sending me dating sites, I don't know why Facebook can't fix this problem. It's nothing but beautiful woman friending me in Facebook and they have nothing on their feed they just clog up my messenger with dating site messages where they say I can meet them. It's so terrible I have to go through my friends list and delete everyone that is a hot chick so I don't get so many messages every day. This will take forever unfriending everybody. I don't know when I'm going to sit down and do it. I also need to delete some files in my Google drive ad I have to mcub data and it exceeds the fifteen gig they give you free of charge on Google. I needed opening up a new Gmail to save more information. It's only twenty dollars a year to get more memory on my Gmail file which is full and won't let me send or receive any more messages. 

Watching March Madness Sweet 16

So I am watching basketball and it's pretty interesting. Loyalo Chicago is getting beat by Oregon St. The games pretty much over, Oregon St. Looks like they will win the game. There is another game in after this and I hope it's a good one. It looks like Villinova plays Baylor. Baylor has a better record and it should be a good one. I'm just lying on my bed making this post. Suppose I will have to sit up. I wish I could go to some games next year and sit and watch. I wonder how much I will have to pay? I'm hungry and can't wait until dinner. I know the UFC is having live fights and live attendance for people to go to the arena and sit and watch. I would love to go to an event and watch. I don't know where the event will be, I'll have to take a look online and see what it says.

I know Google wants bigger posts to rank and I am trying to stay inspired and keep writing. I just can't think of what to talk about without sounding stupid. I can't believe how good some people are at writing and ranking thier posts. I have read some really long blog posts and some were almost too long to read and I stopped reading.

I really want to have a smoke but I know I have to quit. I haven't been feeling all that well and I have been bored not knowing what to do and what I need to do.

There's nothing worse than free time with no direction. I think we all need a little direction and clear off a path to take. I just haven't been wanting to do anything lately and have been watching to much TV. Luckily there is a ton of basketball to watch.

Some days I wonder if I will ever get married and have children. I'm thirty six now and am a only child with a half sister. My dad has kids with two different partners. My half sister is pretty cool.

I have been listening to or watching more videos on YouTube as my Facebook account is all messed up and I don't know if it's been hacked or not. I hate that I have to use a new password for every site I have went too. How is someone supposed to keep track of all their passwords. I don't even know. I have so many accounts open on different platforms I have no idea what the login and passwords are. I wish I would have been more web savvy and keep all my accounts through my Google account. Now I have accounts everywhere.

How do I make a ten page post I don't really know, what I do know is I want to go to the airport and fly around and chill at different hotels and go swimming. There are some pretty cool hotels in North Dakota. Believe it or not but North Dakota is a pretty cool place, the sun sets different in North Dakota.

What do you like to talk about online and what makes you money and are you an authority in your niche? I don't have a niche right now but I bet one will come about, right now I am just freestyle writing.

Will go for now I have to go rake a lawn down the street. 

Some days I just feel down and out.

So I have been looking through Amazon Kindle for books on blogging and I have found a few. All say it's really hard to make money with a blog but I don't know what to think. What I do know is that starting my own web agency took a while but I was able to make money within the first year. I have learned a skill that can make me money from anywhere. Stick up a website and start selling digital products. You can get up to 10,000 dollars per month easily if you spend around six hours per day cold calling. The reason I don't do it is I don't want to manage all those customers. It's a nightmare if you don't charge at least a thousand bucks in maintenance fees. While it may only cost six or twenty bucks per month to pay for hosting it takes alot of work to maintain a ton of sites, I think I maintained twelve sites and it sucked. I had to see if they were working properly everyday and making sure everything is in working order.

While I don't want to do it now I may in the future if I don't think my blog is going to work out. I hope my blog works out anyway but I have not made anything on Adsense and my Amazon affiliate account is making no money just yet.

But what keeps me going is the smell of the big cities and driving around in a nice car. I love to drive around and stop and get a cup of coffee. I love checking out new bars and have a drink. I want to travel everywhere and manage my blog from my phone. Think I can do it? I hope so. I really like just blogging from my phone. 

So what should I talk about today?

I was supposed to rake today for twenty dollars but it started snowing.

I wish I could of raked today as I really need the money.

There are some good basketba games in tonight so maybe I will watch them. I don't have anything better to do. I'm watching First 48 in TV right now but it's a rerun. I sometimes get bored buts its better than where I was at before. I guess I should be grateful. I need to start thinking about things I am gratefull for and not dwell on other things that I get bored with.

I think I am going to walk the dog, I hope they let me. I like getting a soda for walking the dog.

What are some things I should be grateful for?

Music

Two hands and two feet

Food to eat everyday

I'm not in jail

A phone that works

A computer

Money every month

Freedom

I know there are so more things to be grateful for but I can't think of anything right now. 

What should we talk about?

I want to go to Wingstop and get me some chicken wings. I want to travel and test out all sorts of restaurants. How in the heck am I going to make money blogging?

Have you ever sued someone and what happened did you win any money and how much did you get?

I have never sued someone but I won't tell you what happened. That makes me want to sue.

I don't know if legal action is the best way forward. But it might be nice to take action against a person or a past employer. 

If you blog on another planet.

If you take this blog to another planet what will happen?

You might want to read it.

You might want to read on another planet.

What might you want to read on another planet?

1. Pornography.

2. Sports.

3. Things you can do on another planet.

4. What you should you use on another planet.

5. How to survive on another planet.

6. How to buy a nice house or build on another planet.

7. How to find a place to work on another planet.

8. How to find a hot date on another planet.

9. How to find a place to play basketball on another planet.

10. Can a robot conquer another planet all by itself.

There you go from me.

All these things you might think of while traveling or living on another planet.

What about making money on another planet.

Working online on another planet.

What if another species attacks this planet?

Well we should ask Google.

This is all I could find.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHRSjheE_tc.

So anyways what if Google has a profile.

A profile to attack aliens specie?

Where is it?

Does anyone know?

Will someone find out?

I couldn't find out. But I could find some small time blogs with people that were close to talking about it but didn't want to say shit.

People do want to talk, but where can they talk.

Can you find any aliens online or another way to connect to another planet?

Lets take another quick look.

“Humans are not from Earth was published mainly to gauge reaction from readers and to provoke thought, particularly among those who might not have considered such a possibility before.”


Ok so their is a book out there that says humans are not from earth.

What do you think we just fell from the sky or we were brought here by a spaceship.

Meteors fall from the sky.

What do you think.

Go stand outside and tell me what you think.

Do you know how to get around?

Maybe you should figure out how to find an alien.

Where would  it be.

Maybe its in a field by your house.

What happens if another race attacks this planet?

Go look around your house.

You cant even protect your house from people wanting to come and grab a bite to eat.

So how can the we protect ourselves form aliens.

You might have to look into the military.

Sky net or sky force.

Some-type of planet protection.

Who is protecting the planet?

What if an asteroid hit the planet let alone an alien.

We don't know.

How can you protect the earth from an alien let alone a robot.

What if a robot had to fight an alien.

I cant find any videos on this, maybe a movie clip.

I cant find military advancements, only certain producers or video makers can do this.They are the only ones talking about this.

http://www.discovery.com/tv-shows/other-shows/videos/bad-universe-alien-robot-attack/

So find these producers and see what they think if you want.

See what they really know.....

To be continued....

What should I blog about?

I wonder if typing on a keyboard on your phone canake you rich. Some bloggers are making a hundred k per month just blogging. I wonder if that is possible for me.

Where would you like to live if you were making a hundred k per month. I just wonder. I could buy a big house in Denver. Some large homes are only five k per month. A big home that is.

I wonder how bloggers get rich and what do they do special that makes them so much money. I've had another blog that I quit blogging on that had a thousand views for one post. It was how to market your auto dealerships and I talked about Qr codes and text Message marketing and mobile websites for your auto dealership. It was an OK post I was motivated.

I don't know what to write about on this post here. I don't have mobile marketing motivation. I have just been feeling down in the dumps. Have you ever felt down in the dumps. It just seems I can't break my bad habits. I really need to pick myself up off the ground and lay it down again.

Have you ever felt like just giving up? I don't know what to do with myself. I know I have to keep going and it's the worst having all the free time in the world and not knowing what direction to head. 

I wonder....

I wonder if typing on a keyboard on your phone can make you rich. Some bloggers are making a hundred k per month just blogging. I wonder if that is possible for me.

Where would you like to live if you were making a hundred k per month. I just wonder. I could buy a big house in Denver. Some large homes are only five k per month. A big home that is.

I wonder how bloggers get rich and what do they do special that makes them so much money. I've had another blog that I quit blogging on that had a thousand views for one post. It was how to market your auto dealerships and I talked about Qr codes and text Message marketing and mobile websites for your auto dealership. It was an OK post I was motivated.

I don't know what to write about on this post here. I don't have mobile marketing motivation. I have just been feeling down in the dumps. Have you ever felt down in the dumps. It just seems I can't break my bad habits. I really need to pick myself up off the ground and lay it down again.

Have you ever felt like just giving up? I don't know what to do with myself. I know I have to keep going and it's the worst having all the free time in the world and not knowing what direction to head. 

So I'm starting to get the hang of this.

So I have around a hundred blog posts on this blog and it's starting to get easier to post everyday. I can't believe how good some people are at blogging. They are just phenomenal and I can't believe how much they have to say. I'm not an authority in any niche and I don't know how to be one. I'm watching the Lakers and Pelicans play right now with no LeBron James.

I need to get outside and start playing more but my ball isn't all the way pumped up.

Some days I think people are going to be mean to me out of nowhere. Don't you think someday people will get mean to you out of nowhere. I guess I have to go to mental health for this. Some days I thought people were going to get mean to me at work and they did. They started to call me names and get pisssed at me out of nowhere. People get old quick and all they think about is money. I know I need to just sit down and read my Bible so I can make it to Heaven. Growing up I really wanted to make it to NBA. I used to stay in the gym for like seven or eight hours taking creatine shooting around and lifting weights. It didn't amount to anything. I tried out for the Aba Live in Colorado but I didn't make the team. I need to stay sober and I probably would of made the team but I liked to smoke weed and go to the bar everyonce in a while.

I can't believe people have so many problems. That's all they talk about on the Christian channel. I'd like to see or hear about how people have problems or have struggles and what they are. Maybe you post on the comments section what you struggle with or the problems you are having. I really want to grow closer to God and get my life straight and not worry about money so much. I know God's gonna take care of me if I go Christian.

Some days I really struggle with how I'm feeling. I'm diagnosed with psychoprenia. And I have to take pills for this. They don't help me really or so it seems. My caretaker really thinks it's important I stay on my pills. They didn't think I would get in trouble if I was in my pills. I don't know really what to think.

I talked to my dad for a while today and I had to call Minneapolis to get my social security and disability figured out. I hope it comes through for me, it would be nice if I got a little more cash every month to live on.

I want to rap but I don't feel good when I'm done making a song. I just feel bad if I cuss or swear. I need God to change how I think and feel. Some of my songs have cussing and swearing on them. They don't get any views and they just sit on YouTube without any traffic. 

Blogging to the bank.

Have you ever blogged for so long you had to go to the bank to deposit cash. That's my aim. My dad wants me to start talking in the mirror and tell myself stories. I don't know how that will work. I know I need to make a change, I'm around forty grand in debt due to student loans and court fees. I stole a car and they want twenty three hundred in restitutions. I don't know how I'm going to pay that with no job due to Covid.  I have no money but a hundred bucks per month and my caretaker wants me to pay ten dollars per month on it to keep me out of jail.

I don't want to go back to jail even though it keeps me sober and I stop smoking and drinking so much soda. They have coffee in jail and I like to sip on that and rap to myself making up poetry. I like writing poetry.

Today I didn't do much just worked in my blog a little bit. I want to start my own Sports social media company and see if I can make money from it. I just wonder how to make it. I don't really know how to code but I have plenty of time to learn. I want to make it have a picture of the court or football field and people can log in and post thier picture thier with the time they want to play. I can also sell sports related items and allow people to advertise on the site. They can post thier yoga studio or post leagues that people can play in with price and what they need to play.

I want to make it homebase in Denver Colorado. I would like to run it there. 

So what should I blog about now?

I wonder how so many people come up with some informative and long blog posts. Do they just read articles all day and then regurgitate what they read. I can't take it how boring it is where I live. It's a town of 625 people and there isn't a dn thing to do. Maybe I will go play basketball, I need the exercise. I know I have some bad habits and I want to fix them. Like drinking soda and smoking. I know that it's not good for me but there is just nothing else to do. I'm just glad I'm not in jail or prison. I wish someone would come along and offer me something to do. I wish there was more people to talk to and hang out with. There are some small towns around here and grocery store ten miles away that serves burgers and beers and Caribou coffee. I'd like to just sit there with money and sip a cup of coffee and watch TV. I think they have ESPN on at the grocery store. I also think there is a gym to go swimming and lift weights. I'd like to just walk around town and have a smoke everyonce in a while. I just want to get out some and see what's going on.

I don't know much else to say, I had a question about getting social security and filled out all the forms and talk to the social security office. I don't know if I will get any more money and if it even matters. 

I'm bored.

I need to start creating better posts but I don't know what to write about. I've been watching March Madness and the big ten didn't go as far as I thought they would. I thought more teams would make it deeper in the tournament.. I thought Illinois and Iowa would take it further but they didn't.

Right now I am really tired and I already took a nap. I've been drinking soda but I don't get the same caffeine kick because I think I have 

been drinking to much of it lately.

I really need to blog out of my situation and get some money coming in. I hope it works out for me.

I want to travel and buy a couple houses and live in them. I would like to buy one in Florida and Colorado and also California. I would love to live around the country. I would love to travel outside the country. But I don't know if I can since I got a felony for stealing that car. I shouldn't of stole that car but I was kicked out of the house and had nowhere to sleep. It's so boring in Sioux City Iowa. I hate it there the cops always hassle me and theres nowhere to walk to. I went to jail and told them I was homeless so they gave me a board and lodge to live in. I have alot of time to blog as they don't have me doing anything. They don't make me work because of Covid 19. The virus.

I want to blog ten pages at a time but I don't know what to say to fill my blog. I know if I make money I won't have to go to jail as much as I will have money to go outside.

I just got my basketball pumped up and I'm thinking about going out and playing some ball and shooting around. That's there is all to do around here, I can shoot around for as long as I want.

I seen a few girls around here that look to be about my age, but one of them had kids. I should have talked to them to see what they do for fun around here.

Right now I am watching Action Point with Johnny Knoxville. It looks to be a pretty good show.

Were having corndogs for lunch today. Let's go see what sports are on today. I know there are NBA games on tonight, let's go see who is playing. The Lakers versus the Pelicans. LeBron James is out with a high ankle sprain so I don't think he will be playing. The 76ers play the Golden State Warriors. I like watching Joel Embid and Stephen Curry play.. Stephen can really shoot the ball and I hope he goes for like fifty points tonight.

The advertisements for King Kong and Godzilla was just on. It comes out March 31st. They said it will be in theaters and streaming on HBO plus. I wonder how all these streaming services will effect the movie business.

I once walked sixty miles in three days and made beds of hay to sleep on. It was kinda cool. 

So I'm blogging again.

I don't know what to say I just need to write blog posts everyday. March Madness started up today again, I mean it's about to start at noon. I like watching basketball. For some reason ESPN doesn't have the games on they just have the Nit. I can't wait to move back to Colorado. I really one to get back before summer starts. I want to get back into Yoga. Right now Dr. Jeremiah is talking about depression to TV. I like watching the Christian channel.

There are ufc fights tonight and I wanna watch but there on ESPN plus and I don't have the money for it right now.

I need to make more money and right now blogging is the only way through. I know blogging can make money if I just keep blogging. I thought about moving but I have so much free time right now and I can get a blog rolling if I just keep at it. I really really want to get this blog rolling but I don't know how to be a leading authority in any niche.

I have been struggling lately with drinking to much soda. All I want to do is walk around

Should I blog from my phone or my computer.

The spell check on my phone works better than my computer and auto fixes my spelling. But my computer allows me to post affiliate links and my phone won't. I wonder if anyone posts affiliate links from their phone? That would be pretty hard. I suppose some do try and if theirs a will there's a way. I like blogging but I don't always know what I should write about. I want this blog to grow and I want to make money but with a hundred posts I still haven't made a dime. I got a cheap little computer that I bought refurbished and only cost me two hundred bucks. I try to make a rap song perday. I wonder how many rap songs a major artist has laying around hidden away. There must be so much good material laying around that never gets released.

It's much easier to flip through Facebook from my phone than it does from my little tiny laptop.

I'd like to live in Los Angeles but will need about three grand a month just to mive thier. I wish I could come up with the money sooner than later as I feel I am missing out on life, love, and relationships. 

I need about twenty bucks a day to survive.

How much money do you need everyday to live in? I need about twenty bucks a day for soda, chips and cigars. That's all I need. I would like to get around six hundred a month. That's what twenty bucks per day adds up to. It would be nice to make more than that but that's my goal for right now.

Some people think they need around twenty five hundred per month and that means they can travel but I don't know how I am going to make that type of money with this blog. Do you make three thousand a month from your blog and how many posts do you have. I'd love to make a full time income from my blog.

What if I made a thousand bucks per day from my blog that would add up to about three hundred thousand per year. Boy that would be nice. I'd buy myself a new range rover and travel all over the country. You think this blog can get me there? I met so many pretty girls when I had money it was unbelievable at how there were pretty woman at all the resorts I stayed at. I wish I had money so bad some days, I just keep plugging away at it. I know I need to make longer posts but I don't know how long. Maybe write ten pages per day in blog posts.

I'm so glad I'm not in jail and I'm free to blog. 

Trying my hand at blogging.

Some days I feel like I'm getting old to fast and I don't know what's worth while. Do you ever wake up everyday looking for new insight? Some days I feel so down and out I don't know what to do with myself. I wonder how other people get motivated and what do they do to stay motivated. I have no motivation whatsoever and hurts terrible. This blog is all I got and I try my best to stay inspired with it and give people something enjoyable to read.

Maybe I just need to get a job but there's no jobs really in this small town. It sucks all there is to do is walk as I don't have a car and can't afford one right now either. I have no place to sleep as I got kicked out of my parents home and I don't want to go back either as I'm too old and I need to make it on my own. Some days I just turn some music on and blog. It helps to blog as it feels like I'm getting something done everyday but I doubt it's gonna pay off. I need money so bad and I can't seem to get qualified for Adsense. I wanted Adsense on my blog but I know it will take forever to make some money.

I have Amazon affiliate account open and have posted some ads but I don't know how long that will take to make some money. I guess it's better than Livin on the streets with no place to sleep. I have seen some homeless and it just seems like that their life is terrible. I wonder how long it will take to make money with blog. It would suck to be homeless, one guy pissed on himself and just layed in the alley way.

I know my posts need to be longer but I don't know what to blog about. I hate how I feel right now, it just feels like I can't do anything right. I just feel so down and out everyday. I take antidepressants and they don't seem to help. I want to get back in my. Adhd medicine called adderall and see how that feels. I'm sick of being tired during the day.

I know with this blog I have to work just as hard as everyone else

 I know it will pay off. 

Why am I tired all the time?

I wake up around seven a.m. When my alarm goes off then I hit snooze once then I hop in Facebook and flip through the different posts. At Eight a.m. I go downstairs and eat breakfast. I have cereal and toast. I usually have Fruity Pebbles or Cherios and peanut butter on toast with a glass of orange juice.

Then I go lay back down and watch TV. I try to read a little bit or blog but I just feel down and out and lazy. I hate how I feel in the morning.

At ten a.m. I go and walk the dog, it feels good to get some fresh air and walk. I let the dog pee all over and walk till it's time to take a poop, after that's done I usually go home. The walk usually takes about twenty five minutes.

After I get done walking I lay down for a little bit, I'm tired but can't seem to fall asleep. I lay around and watch TV. At eleven thirty a.m. we eat dinner and it usually something different every time. Today we had hotdogs and noodles with Italian dressing and patatoe chips. After dinner I feel really tired and sleepy. I lay down and try to fall asleep but don't know why I am so tired. I can't stay up and feel like I have no energy. I usually fall asleep and sleep around an hour.

At two p.m. I have to take the dog for another walk and the fresh air seems to help a little bit. I get one soda everytime I walk the dog. Sometimes the caffeine makes me feel good.

At three p.m. I eat snack, we have coffee and a donut or ice cream sandwich. The coffee helps me wake up. I don't know if I should be drinking coffee in the summer.

At five thirty p.m. we sit down for dinner and eat. I never know what thier making but the meals usually fill me up.

After dinner I usually lie in bed and look for basketball game or watch First 48. It seems like around ten p.m. I have energy and don't feel like sleeping but I don't feel like doing anything either.

That's pretty much sums up my day. I just try to find time for blogging. I also want to develop a sports social media company but I don't know how. I have been researching it on YouTube. I think I might use WordPress to make it. I don't know yet..... 

So I was reading about a travel blog.

These people they travel the world just by writing on thier blog. They said they found niches and get blogging in this. I don't know how to do Google keyword tool or how to find niches. I can't figure it out. Niel Patel has a software called Uber suggest and I don't know how it works. I have a tough enough time just keeping my blog online. I must started fifty blogs since I was young and I deleted them all. I know I have to keep at it and I don't think I will delete this blog. Even though I don't think anyone wants to read this blog anyway. My dad gambles and I would like to earn money to travel and gamble with him.

I wonder how people find niches to blog in. I don't know if I want to find niches. It seems so constrained. Maybe I will start to do Seo once this blog has more posts. Does anyone know how to find niches, maybe you can explain it to me. There are so many softwares out thee to teach you and YouTube has a ton of videos on it. Maybe I will learn how to use them later on. 

How do we get off the planet earth into space.

How do we get out of here? Big companies are looking to get us into space. But how will we build a big enough rocket to get hundreds or even thousands of us into space. What if the planet ended and tried to turn us all into dinasaurs. We don't want to to turn into dinasaurs. We need to find a way off the planet.

What can we do?.....

How do we get the money to go into space?

I don't know how to find or build a billion dollar company. Wouldn't that be nice to create a huge company that could spend the money to get us into space. How do we build a habitat in another planet and grow are own food. Will we have to grow food and haul it by spaceship up to Mars? How will we live on Mars and breathe. Who's gonna build a city on Mars? 

So I gotta make some money.

I don't know how I'm going to make it out the situation I'm in, into a good situation. I hate how I feel right now and everyday people are picking on me. I have no say in what we eat or what we do. It amazes me how some people struggle so hard just to reach a good situation. I lived with my dad for awhile and we didn't get along. There was no where to go and I was stuck at home the whole time. I walked and would get stopped by the cops and pulled over by random people talking shit. I want to walk around and smoke weed and play basketball and do yoga then go have a beer at ten o'clock and watch sports. I love walking around the big cities where they have recreational Marijuana. I love to smoke and blog about things I daydream about.

I know I need to make longer blog posts and make them at least ten pages per piece but I don't know what to type about. It's getting warm out and I can probably go play some basketball. I don't really like basketball that much anymore unless I am doing hot yoga as well. Then I like to take some creatine and get hyped up to run and lift. I want to get old and be fit the whole way through. I have been smoking lately ciggerettes and I don't think I can reach top speed running. I need to quit smoking.

I hope this blog can make me some money. 

I have no drive.

I don't know what to do in this small town. I need some inspiration

 I have no inspiration. I want to blog my way out and go back to Florida, I want to chill in the warm weather. Right now I have just been falling asleep and watching TV. I have no traffic to this blog yet and I wonder how so many people get a ton of traffic. I noticed a webinar today where it's call Blogging fast lane and they teach people how to get more traffic. I might have to watch it later. I got a St Patrick's day keyboard with four leaf clover on my phone, maybe I will get lucky.

Right now I have to go walk the dog, maybe some fresh air will wake me up. The dog wants to pee in every tree and I have to wait for him to dig around some bushes so he will go poop. 

Feeling depressed.

Lately I have been really tired and I down and out. I don't have any money and it really sucks. I don't really know what I would do with money. I really like to have a smoke and drink a soda. Do you like drinking soda? I get really tired during the day otherwise, it feels like I have to sleep all day. I don't want to sleep all day but I'm always so tired. Does anyone have a method to defeat tiredness?

What else is going on? Not much here, I went live on Facebook but I showed people where I live and I don't know if that's such a good idea so I put the video on private.

I'm so bored blogging is the only thing I really do or try at, maybe I need to take a walk and get some fresh air. I know this blog isn't really that informative and I need to develop more ideas and things I can do to help people reading this blog. 

I just blog from a small town in Minnesota.

Don't know what to blog about. Don't know any young people to talk to unless I got to the small town bar in town. I seen a few young people my age. It's sucks someday trying to stay sober. I always want to smoke a ciggerettes or drink some soda and coffee. It's St. Patrick's day tomorrow and we're have hash beef or something like that with sauerkraut. I hope they make some decent portions and it tastes good. I really need to stop smoking. I feel terrible when I wake up in the morning. I like rappin on Rap Chat but I'm not that good at yet. I hope this blog and me blogging can break free with money. I really need to get my own place.

Do you think I can break free with a free blogspot. I'm still waiting to get Adsense on my blog. If that doesn't work I have been using Amazon affiliate network to post ads and products that I talk about. Having your own blog is kinda cool, it's like opening you own store. I have built a store with products. Do you know anyone that makes money with a free blogspot domain. I wonder how much money I can make? 

So here is my sports site, small but growing.

https://denvercourts.blogspot.com/?m=1

This is a site I made awhile back that I want to work on more. I don't know how to make a social media site but I will keep trying on my computer. Right now there are no sports sites out there right now that really blow my mind.

Here are a few things I want to make into a sports social media site.

I want to make Yoga maps, a site where you can find all the yoga studios you can go to and enjoy.

I want to make a site where you can view all basketball, tennis and baseball courts and fields plus football. You can play pickup games or even schedule with other teams that are on the site.

You can find out about upcoming basketball games and find other players with profiles and ratings. You can find out when to attend basketball or football and baseball games.

You can find out when gyms are open and closing and who's playing there.

I want to make it a social media site where people can watch replays and view sports videos that get lost on YouTube. Dissect YouTube and pull out all the great videos, even have people record videos of gym footage where people are making amazing moves on the court and people can upload and watch footage.

People can record there weightlifting and show their progress.

There are literally millions of ideas that can be made out of a sports social media site.

People can make and record videos and make their own raps up and upload them to the site. 

So I'm still blogging.

We're having Salisbury steak, French fries and green beans for dinner tonight. I'm watching Pardon the interruption on ESPN right now. I wonder if they could make a new ESPN with other sports. I made a Sports court network and wanted to photograph all the basketball courts and tennis courts and football fields for people to be able to find a place to play with other people that are on the social media site. I don't know how long it will take to build but I got all the time in the world to build it. I don't need to get a job because of Covid and I asked staff here about getting a job and they said it might be hard because of my criminal record. I will ask my peer specialist next week when she returns and see if she can help me find a job.

I don't really feel like getting a job even though I could use the extra money. I would like to make a site on my computer that makes money. I guess blogging is the only free way through to making money online. I have some ecomerce sites online but I haven't bought a domain for them yet. If I could just make an extra three to five hundred per day which I think I can do I will have enough money to travel and hang out. I really want to make this sports social media site. I don't know how to frame it though, should I make it like Facebook or what should it look like. I wish I had the link for you but I haven't used it in a while. I'd like to move to Chicago and make it in the coffee shops and move into a penthouse condo and live there. Is it really that windy, the windy city?

On tv they are picking a jury for the George Floyd murder trial. Those cops are in big trouble. I haven't had to many problems with the police being to mean to me. I have had them put my cuffs on too tight. But they always loosend them up again to feel comfortable.

In my hometown I went to jail all the time and there was no where to walk and I would get so bored. I just treated myself like shit and drank to much Redbull and smoking Black and Milds. I didn't feel good there at all. I really needed my own money and was sick of applying for Foodstamps. I didn't know where or I wasn't keeping in touch with all my old friends because I wasn't on Facebook. Now I got on and talk to them a little bit. You need friends to survive where I'm from because you have to have places to go.

I would just wander for days and the cops would stop and see if I needed a ride.

The Utah Jazz play the Boston Celtics and the New Orleans Pelicans play the Portland Trailblazers I will probably watch this on tv tonight.

I don't have any more mental health appointments this week and I can sleep in. Not that I need anymore sleep as it is. I'm lucky I have a bed to sleep in as I would prolly go homeless as hard as it is to find a job. I just hate how I feel as I always feel deppressed and tired. I need to get something done everyday so I feel better how the day went. I have a small two hundred dollar Asus computer and it gets the job done when it comes to blogging and searching the web even though it feels OK to blog on my phone. But it's harder to make long posts on my phone.

I was thing about moving to Fargo Moorehead as thier are more stuff to do but I don't know if my social worker will let me. I know I could find a decent place to work. I don't know if they will let me have much free time in their group home. I don't want it to be any worse if I move there, I have it pretty easy where I am at. 

Just got done with a mental health appointment.

So I had to go to a meeting today. I have meetings every week. I have been clean and sober for four years now and I feel ok. I still want to smoke weed and have a beer but I don't. It feels good to blog and talk about my problems. At the appointment we talked about how things are going. It lasts for about forty five minutes and we discuss what life is like and other things. I don't want to tell them everything. That I was a drug addict that used to do coke and take pills and pop ecstasy. I popped a ecstasy at a Tech Nine concert. I had a good time. A girl came into me but I didn't talk to her after the show. She was pretty but the music was so loud she just danced with me a little. I used to party so hard when I lived in Cedar rapids Iowa. I did lots of coke and smoked lots of weed and would drink almost daily. I had a few friends that didn't really do drugs and would hang out with them and play videos games like Madden NFL.

Life was pretty good. They had a big gym called the Iowa City Field House and I would go and play basketball and go swimming. They had six courts and a Olympic size swimming pool. I had fun. I also went to horn yoga and was in pretty good shape.

Life was good I had a car and my own apartment. I went to school and hung out. Lately I have been having dreams about skipping class and it makes me feel terrible that I missed class.

Right now we are driving back to the Board N Lodge and hopefully dinner is waiting. I am thinking about moving and going to Moorehead and seeing how things are going. They have gyms and restaurants and other things to do. I think I might ask if I can move.

Will go for now. 

Some days I just feel so depressed.

Do you ever feel down and out and nothing seems to help? I hate depression and how it feels. Since I got in trouble I have had the chance to speak to different doctors trying to figure out what's going on in my mind and nothing seems to help. They have put me on numerous different drugs and nothing seems to help.

I have tried Zyprexa, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and last but not least Prozac and I still just feel down and out and rundown. I don't know what it is.

I'm listening to a Preacher talk about depression and doing things anyway like getting up and reading your Bible anyway and reading it out loud. Some days I don't feel like reading, often at night I will turn on the Bible app and fall asleep to some guys reading the Bible. I don't know if it helps.

If you ever get depressed what did you do? You know what I would do. I would drink a cup of coffee with lots of cream and sugar and walk through Denver and smoke a few bowls of weed around corners and day dream about the different things I could do with money. After walking all day I would go to a class of Yoga and practice for an hour and a half. Then I would go home and get on some new shorts and head to the gym to run, life weights and play pickup basketball. This made me feel alright. I'd also get a black and mild and a large Sprite and try to dunk from the three point line. I would get so close but was not able to dunk from the three point line. I thought doing leg workouts and stretching would improve my ups, but the only thing that would work was using my strength shoes. My mom got them for me a long time ago for Christmas and I have not been using them enough.

In the Bible it says physical athletics profit little and Godliness profits all. I think that's what it says.  Dr. Jerimiah is in tv talking about depression. Worldwide 121million people suffer from depression. That's alot of people. He said America might be the saddest nation in the world. That's too bad.

There a basketball game tonight the Los Angeles Clippers take on the New Orleans Pelicans. Basketball keeps my mind busy and helps me to get lost in and zone out. March Madness starts next week and I don't think I will fill out a bracket.

I have a two hour class in Mindfulness tomorrow and that's always helps. I usually make a pot of coffee and day dream and study my mindfulness book. It helps a little. It's nice to get out of the house for a little while. They have fifty cent sodas at the soda machine in the town I have to go to study.

I don't know what to write about. I wonder if some of my friends back in the day in high school suffer from depression. I wonder how they deal with it and handle how they are feeling.

 There looks to be some good NBA basketball on again tomorrow. I will have to stay up and watch. I wonder why New York and other cities don't have better teams. You would think people would want to play there since they are mega cities to live in. 

So I'm going to get on my computer and start blogging to the bank.

I haven't been blogging as much on my computer as much as I should. I want to post big posts everyday but I don't always know what to talk about. It's almost St. Patrick's day and I don't know how we are going to celebrate.

I know there some birthdays coming up. I think my stepmoms birthday is any day now. I will have to send her a card.

Money's been tight and I only get a hundred bucks per month as spending money. I wish I had more. I usually get a twelve pack of pop and sit on that for a couple days.

I need to get some more post ideas but I don't know what to study online and it really bothers me. I need to go take a shower and I think I am going to do that now. 

I'm blogging.

So I have read alot of blog posts about making money online and some say you need to find your passion or need to find a niche.

I have neither I don't have any passion at all and I think that's why most of my blog posts seem the same. I have yet to find a niche and I don't even know how to do keyword research. What I do know is telling people what I do know or what I think I know.

Right now I am watching a high school basketball game and they don't have replay. I wish high-school basketball had replay. I wonder how much that cost. If I was sitting at my computer I would open a new tab and tell you what it cost, but since I am sitting down writing on my phone I can't. There is alot of college basketball games playing on tv right now and I have been skimming through that. I guess the bigger high-school have replay on tv. I just clicked through to one.

I'm bored and am thinking about taking the dog for another walk. It's nice out and maybe I should get out and get some fresh air. Iowa plays Illinois, hopefully it should be a good game.

I don't really know what to write about and I know I have to break out of the miserable situation I'm in. I've been feeling depression lately and I'm always tired. My doctor prescribed me Prozac but I can't even tell I'm taking it. I really want to travel around and go places and stay at nice hotels. Maybe I can get their through writing. I hate not having a car. My Dodge Intrepid broke down a while back and I sold it for $200bucks to the towing company. I should have held onto it and gotten it fixed. I'm pretty sober today usually I have around 6-8 sodas before the day is over and I know I need to cut back on the caffeine. I know I need to keep a clear mind and a good head on my shoulders and think long term. I can't get a job right now because I don't have a car and Covid is still hampering me from getting a job.

I just turned on Snitch with Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson. Have you ever seen it?

I'm so bored and I don't want to get a job. Blogging to the bank. That's what I want to do. I wonder if using affiliate products in my posts if that's a good idea. Amazon has so many products to sell its kind of cool to have your own store online. A store or blog where you can sell your own products. I have been reading posts about blogging and they talk about using Social Media to get your blog out there.. But I don't understand it for the life of me. I don't know how to get followers on Social media. All I do is friend on Facebook and Noone reads my posts.

I need to blog.

How do you hack open a blog for money? Maybe I should Google it and find out. I wonder if other people get the same search results as me? I really need to stop smoking and go sober, it's really been bothering me lately. 

So I am blogging again.

Don't know what to say. But I'm gonna keep pumping out blog posts and working at it. I have been trying to do more meditation lately and trying to better myself.

Have you ever tried meditation and how does it work for you? I know alot of pro MMA fighters do meditation and really swear by it. I want to get deep into it and see the benefits. You can listen to free guided meditations on YouTube.

I have been reading a mindfulness books on how to create more mindfulness in my life. Here is a photo. 

It's a pretty good book and has a lot of interesting insight. Every Monday I have to go to a mindfulness group for two hours where we spend an hour talking about our week and one hour studying the mindfulness workbook. 

So what else is going on? I have been walking the dog twice per day and that allows me to get out and get some fresh air.

Lately I have been watching alot of TV. I know it's a bad habit but I have been so tired and deppressed lately. I just don't have any energy. I'm glad this phone fixes my typos everytime I blog, it really helps. 

There is college basketball going on today and I have been watching that and settling in. There are sure alot of conference championships going on. I love playing basketball but there isn't any gyms around here. 

I need to quit smoking.

Have you ever tried to quit smoking?

What helped you quit? I really need to give it up and stop for good. I like to smoke black and milds and having two or three a day.

I know it's super bad for me and I don't want to get myself in trouble from smoking. What if someone invites me to play basketball? I won't be able to play that good. I want to go back to Colorado and get back in shape.

Everyday I walk to the gas station and buy a couple of cigars. Is there anything on Amazon that will help me quit, I need to check. I'm thinking about calling the quit line and seeing what they have to say. 

What should I blog about?

I have no idea what to blog about or where this blog is going. I need to jailbreak the blog and bust out with some money. I need to hustle so hard that I get free from the bondage I'm in. I need to make it happen and stop living off other people or the state government. It sucks so bad not having any money, I need to bust free. I want to jailbreak my phone, meaning hack it open for some money. Has anyone hacked there phone open for some money? How long did it take you and what did you do?

Leave your comments below. I have used Craigslist before and made thirty five thousand but I didn't know how to handle the money right off the bat. I know Craigslist can work but I don't remember what I did or what post made the leads come in. 

I feel like my parents are breathing down my kneck for money and to live on my own making my own money. I'm thirty six now and I have had over ten jobs and none of them paid a dime. I even got swore at working for a concrete company. What I did make was I was introduced to hard work. Going to work at seven a.m. and getting off at five or six p. m.... Pouring concrete and building hog barns was hard work. I need to instill that work ethic into blogging and coming up with decent posts and posting things and ideas that are interesting and keep the reader engaged and coming back for more. 

What does a good blog have that most don't? I don't know I just want to see my writing progress. I went to get so awesome at blogging and writing that I design and create my own line of books. You can make good money on Amazon.com publishing your own books. I have published a few already but I lost the account or have yet to open it. I have a Gmail account that is full and I need to buy more memory. I should just sit down and clean my account but I know that will take some time. 

I have been spending to much time in Facebook and Instagram looking for inspiration. I wish there were more social media companies. Maybe one day I could create one. 

I have looked at quite a few blogs on how to make money blogging and all there posts are really long. I guess Google likes big posts. It's hard to make long posts on my phone and there are no photos really to post. Let me use the picture button here on Blogger. I'm getting better at this. 

I guess I can post photos. I wonder how to get photos to post and load them into MY Google drive account.

It's supposed to start snowing here anytime now. It doesn't look like it though. Maybe I will have to shovel tomorrow. I hope so I could use the money. 

So I don't know what to blog about so I will ramble on.

So I don't know what to talk about but I guess I will just talk about how things are going.

Right now I am watching I Survived on AE. It's an OK show there are some really cruel people out there as my grandma would say. 

Lately Ive been having crazy dreams where I am always missing class in college. I feel terrible about it. I guess it was something important. I wish I wouldn't have missed so many classes in real life and I can't believe I did that. It costed money and now I am in debt. I was to busy partying and not doing what I should have been doing was going to class. 

Right now I am doing research on how to make money blogging. I have a book started and it wants me to make a review site and talk about different products. It says I can make twenty five hundred a month if I do this and I will make the money within ninety days. I don't know if that's true but I don't want to make a review site, I just want to grow my blog. 

It's starting to warm up here in Minnesota and I'd like to get back in shape and start running and playing basketball. There are not that many kids my age here but I did see some younger girls with there kids. I should have said hi but I didnt. I need to lose some weight, around fifty pounds. I eat three meals a day, usually Fruity Pebbles and or Cherios for breakfast and then some sort of hot meal for lunch and dinner. I eat pretty good here and I can't complain. 

I noticed online a few friends from high school passed away. I miss them. One girl named Heather I was hanging out with just before she passed away. I don't know what happened to her. I mean I was just with her and then I noticed someone on Facebook saying she had died and he went to her funeral. Another kid who I found out had died was living in Colorado just down the street. I don't know what happened to him either. I wish I could find out how they died. Maybe I could call the hospital but I doubt that will work. 

I still can't believe I stole a car and got stuck in Minnesota. I guess you live and you learn. Right now I'm watching Court Cam and I guess I'm lucky I didn't get in that much trouble. I need money and can't move back into my mom or dad's house. I hate asking them for money, they work so hard for their money it's not even funny. I know I need to make it on my own and I know blogging is my way out to financial freedom. Some of the guys I stay with have no way out of their situation, there to old and don't have computers. I think they know they are going to die at this Board N Lodge. They still talk about moving out though. It's a sad situation at best. Most of the guys smoke here and they smoke a pack a day. I started smoking and it's like a dream killer. I notice that I don't get the insight I usually get one I'm clean and sober. I like to drink soda and I have been splitting a twelve pack with one of them so I have soda everyday. A twelve pack of Shasta is 4.66$. So it's usually about $2.50 a price between the two of us.

I also have a cup of coffee and a ciggerette every morning than I just lay around and watch TV or get on Facebook. The mornings are rough and I don't feel that good. I usually wake up or get going around one thirty in the afternoon. Then I start moving. I just talk to my doctor this morning and he put me on Paxil. Hopefully it helps with my depression. I really just get down and deppressed sometimes and I'm also really tired. Soda used to pick me up but I don't get the same high cuz I drink it everyday.

I really want to go sober and see where my life takes me. I know that it is the best way forward. I don't want to go back to jail and I have not had anymore police interactions for a while. I think I'm all cleared up with all my legal issues. I hate jail right now with Covid 19 going on because I had to stay in my cell for twenty three and a half hours per day. We couldn't leave the cell and had sit there all day. My cell mate all he wanted to do is sleep and I couldn't take sleeping all day. I needed the light on so I could read but I didn't say anything about it and didn't make it an issue. It sucks not having any money in jail. I like to drink there instant coffee and rap for a while to see how good I can get. It's all there is to do in there. I hate hot meals they serve in jail they always give me gas. When I got out of jail the first night I got out I couldn't sleep and ended up staying up all night. Then I ended up sleeping all day. It felt good to be out of there though and I can't complain. 

I notice alot of the blog I have been reading have recommended that I sell online courses but I don't know how to do that. I don't want to do it really at all. They also recommend getting sponsered posts but I don't think I want to do that. I think I will just stick to recommending affiliate products from Amazon.com. They have plenty of products to talk about. 

Will go for now..... 

Making a blog post even if I don't feel like it.

So I'm writing again making another post. I have to get out of this jam I'm in and blogging is all I got. I just practice practice practice and I don't find or think of anything interesting. I have to keepy head above water and stay out of trouble. Right now I am blogging from my phone, maybe I should get on my computer to blog but I don't really feel like it. I don't know what to write about sitting here watching the 2021 Allstar game. Time flies by so fast its unbelievable. It hurts so bad some days just being alive. I like wiring poetry and listening to Nypsey Hussle. He's my favorite rapper right now. 

I went out drinking Friday night and it Sunday and I still feel drained. I spent almost a hundred dollars in two days. Beers were three fifty. I can't believe I spent most of my money. I feel terrible about it. I've been drinking to much pop almost eight or ten cans per day and it's adding up. Plus I smoke three or four black and molds everyday. I feel bad about going to the gas station, it must seem like I'm deteriorating right in from of them. I need to go in there and just buy water and some chips or nuts. I feel like I'm at rock bottom. My dad gambles so heavily I wonder what it feels like when he's done. Some days I want to ask him for money but I know I need to make it on my own. I'm a grow man now and most my friends from high school have kids and there married. I'm thirty six now and have never really had a girlfriend. I've had sex twice in my whole life and know I need to save myself for marriage. I've never really had any money and have worked over ten jobs or more since I was fourteen. One job was so bad doing concrete they swore ate terrible. I hurt my back as well lifting concrete block with three people helping me. I still get back spasms and wake up and it's hard to get out of bed. I worked so dn hard for four hundred per week. It gave me a good sense of work ethic and I can make my way out of anything if I work hard enough for it. I worked there for three or four years. I wonder how I can get my hands on my work history. I'd like to look back at all the jobs I've had. My dad worked at the same job his whole life. He worked for the railroad and I remember him getting called in in the middle of the night. It was or looked like a rough job to me. The trains are so loud and he had to dress up in overalls and boots. He's retired now. He worked so hard for his money its hurts to ask him for a loan. 

He sent me some books and some clothes. I have a ton of court documents to look through along with Dot letters. He also sent me a hundred and fifty bucks and I spent twenty on Coricidin and forty on beer. That's sixty. Then I spent ten on soda and ten on cigars or more. Then I bought a ten dollar backpack from my roommate. That's ninety. What else did I get? I'm so bad with money. I prolly have around sixty left. I won't be asking for anymore money so have to make it last. I have to go sober I have to do it for myself. I have such a bad ciggerettes problem I could get cancer. I don't want to end up like those people on tv sitting in hospitals. One time I had to scoop snow and I had two Mountain Dews and a cigar before I went to scoop

 I thought I was gonna die I couldn't take the strain of scooping after drinking all that soda and smoking that cigar.y roommates smoke a pack a day. I can't even smoke a pack a day. I can get a pack in the morning and it's last till the next day, I usually have three or four smokes left over. I couldn't take my mind if I smoked a pack everyday. I can see the effects on thier faces from smoking a pack a day. But that's all there is to do in the small town in Minnesota. They just smoke all day and listen to music meditate on thier sanity. We eat three time a day and have snack. Right now I am pushing 250 pounds. That's the most I have weighed ever. I'd be a heavy weight in the UFC. I don't think I can fight at heavyweight I would get literally crushed. Think if I had to fight John Jones or Francis Noghanou or however you spell it.

I love having a cigar and drinking a soda everyday. I don't have to do anything right now. The government has to pay for or does pay for the place I'm staying. It looks to be around one thousand a month. I went to jail for getting into a fight with some kid. I shoved him just so I could go to jail just because I couldn't take it how I felt sleeping where I was sleeping at. The Gospel Mission. I felt terrible. So I went back to jail, I'll tell you later how I got into this mess. I went back to jail and told them I was homeless before they let me out. So they sent me to a psychiatric ward in Anoka Minnesota and I stayed there for six months while I was diagnosed with pschyzofrenia. I think that's how you spell it. They put me on pills for my mental health. I had side effects from the pills and got terrible anxiety in my legs and I had to wake up in the middle of the night and walk around this twenty room space there was at the hospital. It sucked but there were alot of people my age there. What they got in trouble for I don't know. We had to attend meetings everyday and eat breakfast at eight a.m. So we go to these groups everyday and talk about mental health, do art and go to the gym. We also had breaks for snack where we could get coffee and something to snack on. So I stayed there for six months and then they sent me a group home where I had to attend groups for another three months. They took us to the gym every other day and I always had to take my pills every night. I met kids who just smoked and some of them would cut themselves. I saw scars all over their arms. Some got caught with meth and did other things. It sure was an experience. After that they picked me up in an armored car and took me to a small town in Minnesota and that's where I am now. It's called a board n lodge and I have five roommates. I don't have to do anything except watch TV and hang out while they make us dinner everyday. 

So let's talk about how I got up here. I want on Facebook so I didn't know where my friends were at or what they were doing. I just walked the streets in a small town in Iowa where my dad lives at. He got sick of me and kicked me out. So I stayed up all night and stole a bottle of gin and some new shoes. I walked out of the store that was next to a big hill. I sat on top of the hill drinking that whole bottle of liquor. I woke up the next day and walked back to my dad's place thinking I could break in and go back to sleep. Walking by a church I saw a car running and I decided to hop in and stole it. I thought I would drive to Minneapolis and hop out and live up there till I found a job. Little did I know I went the wrong way and over shot it by like two hundred miles and wound up driving through North Dakota. I stole gas the whole way mind you I didn't have any money. I saw a cop in the middle of the highway and he turned his lights on and started following me. I sped up and tried to escape in this little Rav 4. That didn't work as he called ahead and they threw out a spike strip and I hit it head on and slid sideways I thought I was going to flip so I tapped the break lightly and landed sideways in the ditch in the middle of the two highways. Went to jail in North Dakota and went to court. I only got like thirty or forty days and my dad showed up for court. When they let me go he was nowhere to be found. Didn't he know I was getting out? So I guess alked around this small town in North Dakota. Finally I decided to call my dad and he came and picked me up. He then drove me to the Gospel mission in another town in North Dakota where I hung out for a whole. There are alot of pretty girls in North Dakota believe it or not. So I got in a fight and I did it on purpose because I couldn't sleep in the Gospel Mission. I went back to jail and sat for sixty days and I told them I was homeless as my parents didn't want me around them anymore. So they shacked me up in this board n lodge and they give a hundred bucks a month in money to spend. Which equates to about three dollars per day, not much but it's better than nothing. I need money so bad some days I need like twenty bucks perday. I hope I can make it blogging, I love having a little spending money. Well I will go for now. Hope you have a good day. 

I should blog. Keep growing keep writing.

Are you growing your blog? I was thinking of blog posts and I think I am going to make one about Mars. Elon Musk said we could put people on Mars by 2026. I will touch on that 

more later.

I really want to go back to Denver, Colorado. I live that there are so many trails and places to walk. I live walking all day and getting a cup of coffee when I am done. 

Right now I am watching First 48. I don't know if it is a good show to watch as there are some really cruel people out there. 

I don't know what else to talk about really. I am thinking about getting back in shape. I can't wait to see the fights this Saturday. Ufc 259. Should be an awesome one. I hope it's exciting.

Well will go for now. Hope you have a great day. 

Stop destroying yourself.

Are you making bad decisions in your life?

Maybe you have an addictive personality. 

I know I do and I struggle with my addictions everyday. 

If I even see or read about smoking I want to have a ciggerette. 

I hate that that's how it works.

 I know I need to stop smoking and drinking sodas. 

I have been clean and sober off marijuana and alcohol for three years. 

So Im doing good there but it's a struggle. 

I want to go back to Colorado and buy some weed. 

I love getting high in the morning and walking all day until late afternoon and sitting down and getting a coffee at either Dazbog or Starbucks and writing.

 It's the best feeling in the world. I love going to the airport and having a few beers as well. 

There's nothing like it.

 I love watching the planes leave in and out and seeing all the people traveling. 

I love going to the Yoga studio around six and doing hot yoga after walking all day. 

If I'm not going to yoga I'm going to the gym to play some pickup basketball and lift some weights. I love getting on the treadmill and watching basketball late into the night at 24hour fitness. 

Does this sound like you? 

How many blog posts do you think I need to break through to a full time income?

So I'm planning to write more and make more blog posts. Right now I am blogging from my phone and it's kinda hard. But I wanted to spit out another post for good measure.

Right now I have 77 blog posts and counting. How many do you think I need to pull in a full time income? Ten thousand? That's what I'm thinking. I've been thinking I need to post to Google documents first just in case Google wants to delete my blog. I don't see any reason why they would but just in case. I wonder if they will keep all my posts in tack if they do decide to delete my blog. 

I've tried everything to make money online. I've built my own company. A internet marketing company. I sold mobile apps, built websites for desktop and mobile. I tried Amazon Kindle, I've tried Craigslist. I've tried everything. I built my own travel agency that got leads and don't have a clue how a travel agency works. I've tried everything. I thought I could make websites but I really sucked at it. I still owe some people money. I didn't know how hard it was to build a website even though I built my site which recently took down. It took forever to make my site. I got the idea for a company from wiki leaks book I read where they had multiple email address to make wiki leaks look like a big company even though it was just two guys behind the screen. 

I read every blog post I could on making money online, including webinars. There are some really good marketers out there you just have to find them. People are really posting some awesome content. After reading and watching like crazy I took a step from the screen and I realized that everything was just pictures and videos and words on a page, so I decided instead of looking for a get rich scheme I would just blog and build out my own website. 

So this is how I got into blogging. I hope you enjoy the information I share. 

So how many blog posts does it take to break free with a decent income? I don't know but I will keep posting. 

How to clear up your acne.

 Have you had acne bad and not know what to do or where to turn to?

Well I know how to solve this problem or at least get your acne under control.

When i was young I had terrible acne, I mean terrible.

It was so bad I didn't want to go outside and I ended skipping school.

I used to search the net for days to clear my acne.

I spent months and even years searching for an answer.

I tried everything to clear up.

Here is a list of what I tried.

1. Accutane

2 Anti biotics

3. Case study acne treatments

4. Vitamin D

5. I even tried drinking my own pee

6. Grocery store acne treatments

7. Clearasil

8. And everything in between.

None of these worked. Accutane was the worst and I hared taking it. I even joined things in the paper for acne case studies and that didn't work.

So what ultimately got me in charge of my acne and I had it terrible i mean terrible.

I found a solution.

What did I use?

Here are the steps to clear your acne. 

Now I know it wont work right away but you can clear up or at least get your acne under control within a couple of months.

Here is what cleared me up.

1. Epsom salt.

 Flush every morning with Epsom salt. 

This may be hard at first but it will get easier the more you do it.

If you want to clear you acne then this is the only step that really worked for me. You need to drink enough so that you have a bowel movement and poop out all that disgusting stuff in your gut.

The rest of the solutions helped me maintain clear skin.

Flushing my system over time really cleared my acne up and let me eat like a normal person when I couldn't afford the other solutions.

2. Proactiv

Proactiv really helped me with my acne and works well. 

It made my pimples clear up but I still got acne when I ate food that wasn't good for me.

3. Fasting

Not eating helped my acne clear up but it was too hard to fast for more than three days. I struggled with fasting but it was worth practicing. It made me a stronger human being. Fasting made me think clearer and feel better.

The master cleanse book made me understand how fasting could make me feel better.

4. Fruitarian Lifestyle

I met a guy at the gym in the sauna who was talking about trading. I over heard him talking about it and started asking him questions. We talked for a while and decided to trade phone numbers. Later on I hit him up and we started hanging out. Little did I know he was a health freak. 

What did he do. He was a fruitarian and only ate fruit. breakfast, lunch and dinner he ate only fruit and had huge amounts of fruit at his condo. So he started talking to me about it and I got interested. He also had some good resources for me to look through and showed me this book.

This book really helped me understand what eating fruit is all about. So i started making meals of just fruit, like apples and bananas. My skin felt way better and I started having more energy. 

Here is more into the Fruitarian Lifestyle thanks to Dr. Douglas Graham.

This is his Facebook profile, it has some decent photos and information on it.

Dr. Douglas Graham

Here is the 80/10/10 Lifestyle website.

FoodnSport

What type of fruit did I buy? Beside eating with the guy from the gym I bought bananas.

Amazon bought Wholefoods were I would buy bananas from. I would buy them by the case. It wasn't to expensive.

These techniques really helped my skin clear up and I highly recommend trying them in order to clear up your skin.

What helped me stay clean and clear.

5. Bikram Yoga

Bikram Yoga helped me drink more water and stay active. Between eating fruit, going to the gym to play basketball and practicing hot yoga I was feeling good after only 3-4 hours of sleep.

What does Bikram or hot yoga look like. While there are many types of Yoga I recommend hot yoga.

The classes are 90 minutes a piece but boy did my skin start clearing up and it kept me clear. I highly recommend it.

Juts do a search on yoga in your local area and join a studio.

6. Sobriety

If your not sober, maybe you need to go sober on just water. This will also help you greatly.

If you have any questions on anything let me know in the comment section below.

 I'm here to help!!!